GMH

Yaaaay yesterday was fun!!! Hahahaha. Friday we had some 938Live! at campus thing so I went to listen. It was verrrrrrry interesting! Econs, and I passed the CSQ!!!!! :D After school had to find some place to do a video with Calvin omg we went all around the school trying to find a quiet place with nobody cuz the HC room was locked, it was damn not funny okay I think people thought we were going to do something scandalous or smth HAHA FUCK. Went home, then um Gracie came over after school and she ate PREMIUM instant noodles and we went through old photos and talked talked recorded iCarly on Smarttv then Mummy sent us back to schoooooool for OCIP. Stayed in school for like less than an hour after going to the hall and attempting to help Yiguan and Justina hang up banner and seeing Mr S. play volleyball O.O Some boy offered us help when he saw us trying to throw the ball of twine to Justina desperately and retardedly. Nice boys (Y)

Then Mummy picked me back up to go homeeee, got some dinner! Fell asleep at about 8pm Friday night, woke up at 130am, showered and didn't sleep till 645 when I had to get ready to go to school by 730 hahahahahahahaha. Took a bus down because it's MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Went to start making the chocolate cornflakes thing till about 1130. Me and Gracie talked alot while packing the stuff haha. Loveee you Gracie!!

Uncle picked me up, went to Epark to shower, then went to Intercontinental hotel for some Food and Wine cooking demonstration rubbish thing hahahaha. But the food was good! Went down to Topman to get JEREMY'S BIRTHDAY PRESENT. Then drove back and got Awfully Chocolate cake and ice cream and changed to BLACK and went down to Simpaaaanggg!!

Waited for Calvin who was LATER THAN MEEEEEEEEEE then we went into Jeremy's party which had like 10000000 people can haha but it was fun!! Made new friends with Richa who I keep thinking I met before but I haven't. She is fucking psycho (in an entirely good way) and damn bloody fun!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA. I couldn't stop laughing she should have her own youtube channel one day I would totally subscribe!! And she knows the whole world and at least one person in each school in Singapore it's complete madness. Met up with Tingshan again we are Pioneerwomen woohoo!!! Drank Jeremy's rubbish concoctions haha. Rachel decided to play the stupid Scissors Paper Stone then whack hand if you lose that game haha I whack her twice = she whack me 5 times. By the end of the game our hands damn bloody red I kept losing!!!! D: The mixers got stuck so Tingshan had to show off her mixing skillz in h2o and ice mountain bottles hahahha. Jeremy started forcing Red Bull + vodka down his guests' mouths when I was about to leave -.-

OK we are packing up our room now because we're actually going to officially move over like this week like OMG right we are actually properly moving?!!??! -.- I hate packing cuz everything is dusty and I want to die my nose is going to drop off. I have a headacheeeeeeeeeeeee and I think we're going out for dinner later I just packed up all my clothes into 2 suitcases haha and threw away all my TA1, TA2 stuff including History notes cuz I realised they're not that relevant cuz they're about start of Cold War and our syllabus is End of CW shit sigh.

OKAY I WANT TO LIKE DIE NOW EVEN MY BED IS DUSTY I NEED FRUIT JUICEEEEEEEEEEE.

Why did I lie

Didn't go for Titans in the end haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I should make this blog private because my posts might get me into trouble and I'm tired of going over to LJ HAHA but it's okay I like magisgreat!!!!! :D

Watching We Got Married and I realised I HAVE THE SAME DRESS AS HWANGBO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA. I also have the same top as Ron Ng's love interest in E.U. OKAY!! Wah I am damn special this shows I am destined to be with a celebrity, really.

Tadah! SAME DRESS HOR!!!!!!!!!!! Except why she can wear without another dress inside and don't look like her boobs are going to fall out causing Chenyin to label my dress the "Boob Dress". ):

OKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKkkkkk Talking to Qianyun and going to blog again soon!

Harhar

Haha past 3 were angsty posts.... Why does my life suck so bad ): I remembered that yesterday there was ONE good incident though, because he looked at me and we had a connection and I AM NOT THINKING TOO MUCH RACHEL!!!!!!!!!

Fell asleep without even realising it yesterday while reading Econs ))))))))))))): Got woken up at 3 by Mummy who switched off my lights and cleared my stuff off my bed and I went to sleep until this morning. )))): Got back Long CT exercise for KI, 16/30 lucky I passed? I dunno. Econs was really bad because I couldn't read up on the Appendixes and the question was from there ): OHWELL. Got back History essay which I stayed up until 4.45am to do and I only got 11/25 -.- Good job Nicolette who got 19/25! BUT THEN. I got 14/25 for Lit WSS in class essay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like omg finally a proper pass? Yaaaayyyy!! And Qianyun got 13/25 we are both very happy peoplezzzzz.

I'm currently at home, waiting till about 430 then I'll go back to school for Titans trials... Which I'm just going to SEE not actually try out!!!! HAHAHA. I think I'm going to die of hunger because nobody is at home and there's nothing to eat except Tomyam instant noodles which I don't really feel like eating omg I feel like eating food delivery but it's damn lame cuz I have Burger King and KFC opposite so I should just walk over and eat BUT IT'S RAINING DAMN HEAVILY. Ugh my life sucks haha.

I just ate Aloe Vera yoghurt. I think I shall watch We Got Married cuz... THERE'S NO WORK DUE TOMORROW!!!!!!!! SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!! ^^ OK I really need food now ):

Further unhappiness

Forgot to blog about one of the other things that super upset me

Found out our groups for the Yunnan trip and wow I’m a leader!

So happy!

Not.

I’m not saying that everyone in my group is a loser or something because they’re not. I don’t know them well enough to judge and I’m sure that at least some of them are pretty nice people. But putting me as a leader in a group of people I’m COMPLETELY unfamiliar with is freaking unfair to me? Limeng and Grace are the other group leaders and it’s so obvious that you are out to separate us. Fine, but when Limeng has Sau Yee, Jin Yi, and Iynyi in his group. And Grace has Yiguan, Han Le, and Edwin. And I have…. Chin Hwee who might not even confirmed be going, and other people whose NAMES I CANNOT EVEN PLACE A FACE TO, that’s FUCKING UNFAIR okay.

I know you want me to work with people I’m not familiar with and you want me to “learn something’. But fuck this. First off all, I’m uncomfortable being alone. I like making new friends but I need my own “safe circle” of friends first. (And this year didn’t start off on an extremely good “making friends” note.) And putting me as a LEADER of a group of people I’m unfamiliar with? That is not cool. I’ll feel even more out of place than ever. And I need, to be with people I am comfortable around. I feel alone and vulnerable when I’m alone okay? Understand that?

And don’t tell me that you think I’ll be a “very bad leader in Yunnan”. Then don’t fucking put me as a leader! And you said that in response to what I told you about Yifan. Do you not think I have a reason to be angry/annoyed at him? If I wasn’t patient, I wouldn’t even have given him anything to do, I would have chased him out of my house on Saturday morning when he presented me with NO WORK DONE, and immediately told you. It’s now August and I’ve kept my mouth shut about him. How much more tolerant do you want me to be, seriously. And we’re supposed to tell our PW tutors if we have groupmates not doing work. THAT’S WHAT I DID. Maybe I didn’t present it in the best way possible but the gist is there right?

This group, is NOT random. You, do NOTHING without a reason. You want me to learn something? You have just increased my dislike for you, really. I’ve been okay with you all this while, but when you make decisions like these, and act as if you know me so well, it is not cool and I don’t appreciate it.

You could be reading this now but I’m not defaming ANYONE by saying what I did. I merely stated the facts, quoted, and stated my own feelings on the matter. If you’re unhappy, well so am I. So if I have to be in a group of unfamiliar people, and you’re going to be the teacher in charge of my group, which I have a sneaking suspicion you’re going to be because you REFUSE TO LET ME OFF, I’m going to be an unhappy bitch and show you my unhappy face and you’re just going to have to SUCK IT UP even if it affects you, which it apparently will because you can tell when I’m unhappy and it’s not like I try to hide it anyway.

Having a fucking bad stomachache/cramps now. Haven't started studying for Econs. I hate my life. Got other things to blog about and this week just hasn't been the best.

I've been making my dislike for people very very known and obvious recently. Don't know what to make of it, good thing/bad thing? Probably bad.

. pains

It was Vibzy's birthday yesterday, Happy Birthday Vibz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDD Thanks for always caring, and sending me messages when you know I'm down. (: U R AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

Haha in contrast to today's Civics and Contact Time Cyber Wellness theme, I am not going to stop blogging HAHAHAHAHA. I know what I must blog about......... Irritants/Weirdasses/Faggots.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Very derogatory terms but you have to understand that I've been under IMMENSE pressure and stress and irritation and annoyance from those people/person whatever, and it is NOT cool especially when it interferes with my learning of my favourite subject, ok?

You, with your immaturity, and senseless comments during lesson, I do not appreciate. Your unwillingness to read a certain word because it is sexual, is retarded. The way you read out loud, one word by one word. Like. This. I. Do. Not. Get. You speak like you are mentally retarded and I highly highly suspect you are. You do not DESERVE to be in our class because you contribute NOTHING of substance, except take up breathing space and make noise and disrupt the lesson. Everytime I see you I want to punch your face in because you are a poor spineless excuse for a boy. I yearn for the day you are punched because you deserve nothing more!!!!!!! Faggot.

You, immature partner in crime, stop making weird comments seriously. You re not cool. You make these comments that are of no link to what we are doing, you start talking and making noise halfway through the lesson and I have no tolerance for it, really. And you dared "Shhhhh!!!" me today in class? Like really? At the risk of sounding arrogant, I do not DESERVE that "Shhh!!!" while you however, deserve every, "shhH!" and annoyed look I have thrown your way during lessons, because you, like the person above, do not deserve a seat in the lesson, do not deserve a place in our class. You are disliked, weird, and generally uncool. I hope you live well in your delusional world, because reality is going to be a kick in the face for you. (Which I honestly want to see.)

You think that us not being in class is really better for you? Did you not see Ashraf in class? Ashraf, who so happens to ALSO be from 04/09, in the same class as the people you claimed our class would be better without. If we weren't in the same class as you, I highly doubt you will LEARN anything from your lesson. And the lesson would be meaningless, like your existence in school anyway.

OKAY I did my part. And I have tolerated the above 2 people's nonsense for more than half a year now and it's no joke okay. My words may sound mean but, I'm sure that most of the people in class would agree with me anyway.

Stomachache now I shall go do my part for PW, watch Singapore Idol, then start studying for Econs lecture test. Sigh.

):

I feel................................. Alone wtf.

KI in class essay tomorrow and...... I haven't prepared haha. And I'm going to start watching We Got Married now hahahahahahahah.

Yesterday was PW meeting omg okay I just rekindled my anger for Yifan. He was the first to come over cuz Han Le was stuck with Ms Yanti at Bugis from like 9am till 1230 or something and Edwin went back to school and Mel had training. So I asked Yifan if he did his work right, because I mean OBVIOUSLY he didn't do his work the night before. And he said he did. So I felt okay I won't need to scold him. So he opens up the document of the "work" he did which was like, the first draft of WR which we passed up. And what I told him to do was citations and bibliography for somewhat SECOND draft which we typed out and edited. So he opened up the first draft and I'm like

"What did you do for this one."

"I did the citations"

"This is the first draft WHICH WE PASSED UP so it already has all the citations and Han Le did the bibliography you weren't supposed to do this."

"Oh. I didn't know."

"So since all the citations are already inside, you did NOTHING la?"

"Uh yes."

FUCKER YOU TELL ME HOW NOT TO BE ANGRY? And then after that like towards the end of meeting he fall asleep on the couch somemore. I mean I know I never give you other work to do la but at least got abit of shame and don't sleep can. You hardly did ANYTHING leh still dare to sleep? Wtf? Good job Yifan really.

After that, went over to Epark where I painted 3/8s of my room wall because I painted 3/4 of one coat until I couldn't reach anymore )))): And then my arm hurt and I let Mummy paint the rest hahahaha. Then I painted the other wall and I realised I don't really like that colour on that wall so I think Mummy painted over it today hahahahaha shit I'm so rubbish. Anyway I played a very important role in the painting process because while Mummy was painting I was entertaining her okay even though I got sore throat see my dedication!!!!!!!!

I managed to make my potato salad today because Ling brought over mayo from her house yayyyyy. It tastes good okay but then I didn't get my celery and I think there's too little mayo BUT Mummy brought back the Jap mayo so yay haha. I would bring it to school but then it will turn very smelly cuz it's like, mayo, warm. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Also made the chocolate cornflakes thing for OCIP. Today quite productive except I didn't actually study much!

I'm going to put alllll my effort into making you less important in my life because, I'm not important in yours. Everyday I will think of you a little less, talk about you a little less, talk to you a little less (which is going to be easy seeing as how you never really make the effort to talk to me anyway), and one day I will really, properly, get on with my life.

OKKKKKKKKKKKKK I shall go see cute boy on Youtube now.

And please please please let Mr Loh get back to me about the EOY thing please please please I wanna do it I'm willing to forsake US trip omg please. My eyelashes keep falling everyday is it a bad sign.

愿你牢记我曾经爱过你

Yesterday was a good day! Because we played Captain's Ball for PE!! Hahahahaha. Charis is the funniest because she played without her specs and couldn't see!! Then when she put them on she announced "I CAN SEE I CAN SEE!!!" My team OWNED!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH. Me as captain haha don't see I short hor I catch many balls HAHAHAHA, Joleneney, Lynn, Charis, Xuanzheng and Caleb! VS Chenyin, Nicolette, Elaine, Denise, Yijun, JJ and the PE teacher whose name I cannot remember. Very very very fun!!!

After that, Mummy picked me up to go home (: And then I kinda rotted away on the computer without doing any Econs hw ):

Today was very short day = very good day also!! Hahahaha. PW was free period cuz Ms Yanti wasn't in class. Econs was productive, and then during free period we reminisced about OBS, OBM hahaha I miss OBM ): Maths, theeeen END OF SCHOOL FOR MEEEEEEEEEE. Mummy picked me up AGAIN hehehehehe and we went to buy strawberries and some other stuff from Shop and Save. Went home so she could eat while again, I rotted in front of the tv watching AARON STONE which really is quite nice! Fell asleep when there was nothing on tv. Woke up and Meredith (who got 37/40 for her Physics!) cooked for me yay. Haha because when she wasn't at home I told Mummy "Mummy, if you were Meredith, you will cook for me Korean soup" then she said "Okay I'm not Meredith". ): BUT MEREDITH CAME BACK AND COOKED IT FOR MEEEEEEEE!!!!

Uh rot rot rot went out with Mummy to buy paint for Meredith's room, Sassy Pink! Home........ and nothing. I just compiled what we have for WR which is really very little we got 10000 things that need to be done can die plz. Yifan is a fucking irritating asshole!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When I ask for something by FRIDAY 2359 you do not tell me that you just finished repairing your computer for 3 hours and therefore cannot send your work to me, when I msg you, at 2359 TO ASK WHERE YOUR FUCKING WORK IS. If you know that it's taking very long to fix your computer, and you shouldn't have started reparing your computer at 9pm because you KNOW YOU GOT STUFF TO DO THAT'S DUE IN 3 HOURS, then at least have the fucking brain matter to msg can? UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oK anger subsided. I like Christmas songs (((((((((((: Qianyun you must play hor! With Nicolette! :D I want to eat potato salad with lots of mayo and crunchy stuff. Hahahaha. Need to get some celery and take the mayo from Epark!! I already have my red potatoes, vinegar, pickles, red onions, mustard. Omg yaaaaay!!!!!!!!!! Okay hungry now. I shall watch Aaron Stone online though I really should be sleeping because tomorrow got PW meeting ):

CALVIN ENG, STOP INSISTING/TELLING PEOPLE THAT I AM IN TITANS!!!!! I DO NOT WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Me wanting the shirt =/= me wanting to EARN it! HAHA.

Going to post some ugly picturezzzz up of me and Rachel haha. Rachel I would love to do a pretty picture post for you but........... You yourself admit that it's not very possible!

We look like boys.





I think this might be the only normal photo we took!
I can safely say, that Rachel IS A DAMN BAD INFLUENCE ON ME!!!!!!! LOOK AT MY FACE!!!




This is the "MY LIFE SUCKS MY FACE IS FAT" face.

Many more pictures. We took like 160 pictures from the bus ride to Simei and at Simei itself that is like an hour at most I think hahahahah. Rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I doubt anyone, except me and Rachel, will want to see the other pictures anyway hahahahahah. Because I HAVE A LIMITED NUMBER OF FACIAL EXPRESSIONS SO ALOT OF MY PICTURES LOOK THE SAME >:[ I will practise!!! Okay bye.

You can't play on broken strings

Today was quite a good day I guess!
Because I was watching videos on my ipodddddddddddddddd every break I had!!!! And listening to the new songs I put in!!!!! YAYYYYYY.

Ummmmmmmmmmmm lesson lesson lessons as usual, Lunch was a very unsatisfactory small plate of char kuay teow, eaten withhhhhh Rachel, Lynn and Elaine. D: Theeeeeennn back to school for damn cool contact time where these people from China demonstrated 变脸 which literally translates into "Change face" and it was FUCKING COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Video of what 变脸 is like! Except in real life and the people who came to our school were like cooler!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAY I can feel an ulcer forming on my tongue. Sucks. I didn't do Econs )))): Hate myself can. I love you Miss Wong!!!!! HAHAHAHA. Today our class was planning what to give our teachers for Staff Day. Miss Wong is gonna get Red Bull and Chicken Essence with alllll our love cuz she's such an awesome and cute teacher!!! :DDDDDDDD

Uhhhhhh dance phototaking after that. Our picture's very pretty! (: Home with Rachel, we took many ugly pictures on the bus and outside Eastpoint haha shit I'm spending too much time with her okay my faces are as ugly as those she makes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Die.

Okay. I want to............ start on watching We Got Married now. But I have promised myself I will not be reduced to Charis/Coco's state.

Cheer Up Qianyun! WOOOOOO AIIII NI!!!!!! Remember the EOY GOAL OKAY!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDD
I don't care I'm going to sing!!!!!! HAHA.

Hunger/ Stupidity/ Illegal

I'm damn spastic I'm fucking hungry right now and I actually wanna go to sleep but I'm downloading things and I don't wanna leave my computer on.

And while waiting for the stuff to be downloaded guess what I'm doing that's NOT helping my hunger?

READING FOOD BLOGS.

AND I JUST SAW KWAY CHAP.

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>:[

My last meal of the day was...... Half a pack of rosti, and a small bowl of Waffle Crisps with milk. BEFORE 7PM. And before that, lunch was at 1230. OMG can die.

Oh and I forgot to mention that Blogger has been screwing up my pictures okay. The line across some of the photos are not my fault!!!!!!!!!!

Okay sleepytime. Hunger needs to be.............. AVOIDED.

Needy.

Multiple posts while I delay doing what I'm supposed to do for PW.

I... Feel very insecure and really very very very easily irritated these few days.

Shouldn't be that way but at the same, it's just me.

And it's not my fault so many people irritate me what!!!!!!

>:[

I need an escape.

Like it sounds so cheesy and sickening and I dunno but whatever,

I need an escape from this fucking world which is fucked up with fucked up people and,

I sound angry but I really am not.

Miss Ang made me run my 2.4 again today, saying that as the sports cap of Delta I cannot fail and that she knows I can run so she will not let me just give up and fail. Dunno why I felt so........... wtf at the thought of being forced to doing something that I really really didn't want to do. With my head already having the mindset that I'm just going to FAIL Napfa and not bother about it anymore. I teared when she was telling me to run -.-

Anyway, ran again with the help of Melisssssaaaaaa's shoes and Chenyin's awesomeness running next to me. Off to a good start then died on the third round hahahaa. But passed anywayz!!!!!!!!! Rest of the day was okay, just that I felt very uncomfortable and tired.

Okayz. Mummy's at Epark painting, I was too lazy to follow her haha. I should go type out the WR now.

Melissa's dog is named BARNEY!!! And it looks like a freaking lion it's damn cute haha. I.............................................. need the aircon desperately. Have been having many thoughts running through my head and it's not cool cuz I dunno how to pen them down.

陈芊匀

我爱你陈芊匀!

你是最好的

最可爱的

最美丽的

最聪明的

朋友!!!!

因为你今天陪我跑2.4km.

:DDDDDDDDD

I dunno how to describe you in Chinese alr.

Anyway this is your pretty picture post okay!! :D

My throat is irritated (haha Chenyin)

Eyes kinda hurt but I haven't contributed to the KI discussion board.......... Which I really don't feel like contributing to cuz it's like 10% for class participation and I talk so much in class (when I'm not sleeping) anyway. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Meredith's being f-ing annoying just because she has "common tests tomorrow". Whatever. I mean it's not like she's up studying all the time? Because right now she's behind me messaging or whatever. Fuck.

I think I'm getting annoying/ irritable these few days.

kjakdjkasjdisajdkasdjladz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New friend new friend new friend new friend new friend.

Love old friends old friends old friends + Grace cuz she's not an old friend haha. Love bitching sessions with her on Monday Mornings EXCEPT I'm running out of people/things to talk about. It makes me feel, not myself HAHAHAHAHA.

Okay this post made no sense because I just felt like I needed to talk.

I Luv U 2 Gracie!!!! :D

Been listening to Because I'm Stupid by.... SS501 ON REPEAT HAHAHAH until Meredith the Royal Queen of being Irritating told me that my music is annoying.

Tiara Turquoise

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYANSEAH!!!

It's past your birthday alr though!!! )): But I still love you! (:

Lunch with Ryan, Calvin, Louise, Xiaowei at Foo House just nowwwww. Haha talked about what XW and Ryan would be like if they stayed in Dunman High! CAN YOU IMAGINE IT? Fun times. Went to get paint for my new rooooom just now!!! Omg I'm so excited the colour is so pretty!!! Tiara Turqoise, and Cucumber!!! :DDDDD 2 colours cuz the turquoise on its own would have been too dark.

And you know it's damn cool cuz they mix the paint right in front of you!!! It's like they keep cans of white paint, then when you choose the colour you want they pick it on the computer which has a full catalog of the colours and what amounts of colour paint is needed to make that colour, then they put it into a machine which like, pours ink into the can of white paint. Then they put it in another machine which shakes very vigorously to mix the paint. AND IT COMES OUT IN THE COLOUR YOU WANT IT IS DAMN COOL OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway my next room, since Mummy likes to move so much, is gonna be in varying shades of PINK HAHAHAHAHAHA. :D This time it's green what!!!!!!!!!!!! I likeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D

I'm actually hungry, at 3am

And I don't know why I stayed up even though my eyes kinda hurt -.-

Oh, I stayed up watching Youtube videos. Shiitttttt!!!!!!!! Getting addicted D: I keep subscribing to new people okay haha this is not goood.

Ugh fuck tmrw long day must sleep now.

And HAHA I JUST REALISED THE PICTURE IN THE PREVIOUS REALLY GOT ONE LINE THROUGH IT. I don't know why!

Okay must sleep.

Okay goodnight!!

Your words don't matter

Stayed up until 5am last night/this morning watching Boys Over Flowers hahahahahahahahahahahaha. Came home after a not so bad day at school cuz it was so short!!! And I got 22/25 for my MATHS TEST!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDD Could have done better cuz I lost marks on carelessness omg ugggghhh but yay!! I'm living up to my reputation as MATHS REP okay! :D

Mummy picked me up and I watched BOF straightaway hahahahahahaha then fell asleep, woke up 3 hours later, watched 换换爱 on tv then more BOF hehehehehhahahahehhehe. Did the same today once I woke up at about 1. But but my dvd has lousy subtitles and I'm getting very irritated cuz I don't understand what's going on!!!!! At episode 24 nowwwwwww. WILL FINISH IT BY TODAY!!!!!

I'm so retarded. Have Econs, History and EoM to do by this weekend. Must actually do some work over this weekend, for um the first time. Tomorrow's Simpang date with Ryaaaaaaaaaan and Calvin and Louise and Chenyin! :D Must remember to bring his present haha.

Mummy went to Malaysia, and I think I need food now. I hope Meredith cooks for me.................

finally sleeping now, at 4.39am.

after copying out my essay, which although has reached 5 pages, is still not finished because i don't know how to talk about reagan already.

eyes.

are.

closing.

i feel like eating fried chicken noodle from school.

ate waffle crisps just now but without milk because the only milk we have is HL milk and i'm very fussy about my milk

because i don't like milk usually and HL milk is smelly lor i only drink australian milk like Farmhouse or Masters.

hahahahahaha arroganceeeeeeeeeeeeee

3/4 page more mag!

do you realise my progress is damn fucking slow?

every 15 minutes i find something new to do.

FUCKING HUNGRY LA!!!!!!!!!!

BUAY TAHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one more full page mag. one more. !!!!

i'm very very very very hungry.

an hour and a half to macs breakfast.

i should just stay up the whole night -.-

i can't believe i'm doing this for HISTORY.

hungry.

gorbachev............

reagan.......

oh fuck.

fuck fuck fuck cannot get distracted by Shane dawson now!!!

Almost typed Mr Rochester instead of Gorbachev when writing my essay.

My head really wants to shut down now and my eyes are screaming "shut me!!!!"

I want to pay someone to do my essay for me.

Ha. Ha. Ha.

Gorbachev factors

harharharharharharhahar

major bitching session with gracie this morning, it was awesumzzz!!!!

my dislike/hate/disgust at you is....................... improper to say the least. i shouldn't feel this way but it isn't stopping you from annoying me any further!!!

i don't know what's happening to my proper capital letters hmmz.

5page history essay due in exactly 12 hours and....................

i haven't started.

hen hao mag.

but vibzy was the nicest person everrrr and we spent an hour on the phone with him helping me develop my still undone essay (((((((:

love u vibzzz!!! :D

today mr hsu told me that i have nice taste in shoes. haha i think i live for his nice comments omg if not every ki lesson would just be like -.- to me. today was good though, cuz after the long ct, which wasn't so bad, we had the rest of the period which was about half an hour to do whatever we wanted! yesssssssssss.

i should really really really get started on my history essay now, or mr seng might send me for counselling cuz i cannot learn.

hurhurhurhurhurhur.

(i think i go through various moods which affects the way i type/speak/express myself)

Omg The Proposal!!!

Ahhh I really really wanna watch The Proposal! Especially after seeing the trailer in the cinemaaaaaaa. The trailer was damn bloody funny la haha the whole cinema also laughing! First, I think Ryan Reynolds is really like cute HAHAHAHA (what's new right Mag) and that equals BIG PLUS TO GO WATCH THE MOVIE ALREADY!!! And Sandra Bullock is very pretty and funny. Like in Miss Congeniality, and and and in Lake House which was sweet but somewhat boring. This should be sweet and un-boring! (:

Wah, Sandra Bullock hasn't acted in a movie for quite long. Hm. The Proposal opens in cinemas 20 August 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUST WATCH IT SOOOOOOON. Especially since school is like WTF now, need some entertainment pleaseeee )))):

For Trooooodz!!!

Because she complain she don't have picture of her!!!

HAHAHAHA.

Love you Trudy I v honoured I'm the first person you webcam with! (:

AND SORRY LA BERNARD THE PICTURE VERY FUNNY HAHA. Trudy say you look like Ernie HAHA TRUDY I SABO YOU SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mindfucked (And it repeats.)

Hello Liwen I miss webcamming with you ): Must Skype again and talk until 5am about.... Shitty things that happen in our lives but it's okay because in the end we will do something retarded like v:Dv and sing HSM OR CHINESE SONGS TO YOU HAHAHAHAH.

On another note, because my life seems severely and overly disgustingly horrible these days,

I don’t know why everything you do irks me, disgusts me.

The more I know you, the more I interact with you, the more I feel like I have to try and tolerate your behaviour which annoys me. The way you talk as if you’re better than others, the way you give that judgemental look. It’s fucking annoying and I really shouldn’t be letting you affect me like this because honestly, you’re so not fucking worth it.

With all my heart and soul, I really believe that you’re not a good person, much less someone who feels she is better than me. I feel like a hypocrite, because my words and my actions don't match up but I can't do anything about it. Fuck this.

Feeling vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv upset in school lately, can't wait to get home everyday and just sleep/rot in front of the tv watching Boys Over Flowers because again, dramatic love is better than no love -.- It's taking alot to... I don't know. Be myself lately. I feel like being alone or with someone who will at least TRY to understand why I'm feeling like this? I'm not disregarding my friends I'm just, not the most happy right now )))):

Went out with Meredith on Monday, that was a good day. Haha. Because the NUM boy was very nice to me (I'm so shallow and disgusting omg), resulting in me buying the Switzerland party tank which he said I looked nice in while Meredith said looked like Macdonalds but she later took that comment back haha. UGGGGGH SWEDEEEEENN ))))))))))))): Our Yakpak can be exchanged for a new one cuz it's in irreparable condition and it has lifetime warranty! BUTTTT there are no new nice ones now sigh.

Yesterday was suck-ish. Except for the fact that I managed to pass my KI thousand word essay with 4 footnotes in total and no references page haha. And Mr Hsu came up to me to comment on my essay again saying that I know what to write I just don't have the content. Gives me hope that I might be able to do well for the subject and not be a complete failure at it, like History.

Today Mr Seng was telling everyone like why he grouped them up in a certain way for the debate, like "_____ I put you here because I need you to learn how to substantiate, to form an argument" etcetc. He looked at me and said "Mag, I just need you to learn." Thaaaaaaanks. History lecture test after that was a failure as well, was very tempted to not hand it up but I did anyway. I don't want to go to school tomorrow ): In class assignments for both Lit and KI, and History full length essay due on Friday. Haaaaaaaaaaa. The temptation to skip school is like.

this much.

Fuck this, I'm going to watch more BOF. I can't even express myself properly in words and that completely sucks.

Thank you Troooody and Bernard for the earrings!!! (((: Cupcake! :D HAHA LOOK AT BERNARD. Trudy refuses to webcam with me >:[

Click here for Pri 1 Daisy picture of me!!! Love primary schoooool!!!

(Thank you Nic Lau for the timely replies today, andddd Rachel for our bus ride home. )

Birthday Boy

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALVIN ENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Even though I seem like a very lousy friend cuz I didn't even have a present today but that does not mean my love for you is any less!! Hahaha. (((((: Hope you had a good time today!! :DDD

Too lazy to blog about the rest of the day!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bye.

Eyepain.

My eyes hurt but I still have to watch the 12 minutes worth of videos that Bernard showed me if not he will go "RAHHH" again cuz I didn't want to see Korean boys then today me and Rachel watched Boys Over Flowers and were like "OMG AHHH OMG AHHH HE SMILE OMG AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

Yah.

Hhahahahaha.

Today was National Day celebrations which OUR CLASS COULDN'T TAKE PART IN >:[
Ms Yanti actually walked us out of school to ensure we didn't run off to the hall kay. Because we 3 people with flu like symptoms in our class, sigh. Went opposite with Rachel, Jo, Charis. Printed photos, looked at vcds, haha. Went to Bedok Interchange with Rachel and Charis, Charis left then me and Rachel went down to E park!

WE WATCHED BOYS OVER FLOWERS HAHA REFER TO ABOVE. I fell asleep for an hour because I was v tired but omg they are damn cute can hahahahahaha. But only when they smile and they still look like girls. Went home to shower and change and leave for Clarke Quay. Got my cheque!!!!! :DDDD Met all the Athletics peepzzz again omg fun fun, sat down and talked in the v nice environment. Went to dip our feet in the pool. Sigh, the office is so nice. And Mic is quitting ContentCraft we will never see them again!!!!!!!!!!!! ): The gym there has treadmills with TVs ON EACH ONE OKAY!!!!!!!! Oh and there was a red moon just now!!! RED COLOUR MOON LEH WAH!!!!!!

Train-ed home with Nadhiraaaaaah. There was a weird couple on the train. Played with the Shu Eumura eyeliner just now. I like it alot because its v dark but I still insist I need a better brush!! AND MUMMY AGREED TO LET ME AND MEREDITH BUY THE 88 SHIMMER EYE COLOUR PALETTE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Damn wtf but omg so many colours damn fun la!! Rachel we can play again!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDD

Okay I shall go watch videos nowwwwwwww.

Nic Lau was talking to meeeee and saying me and Calvin better join the Standard Chartered run. He already signed up for the full 42km la! Walau eh! Madness!!!
I can just imagine myself running 42km.

I think after 24 hours then maybe,

MAYBE

I finish alr.

Hopefully still alive.

Trudy is showing me old National Day songs on Youtube omg so spastic got Fann Wong!! Hahahaha.

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I hate Bernard leh show me this kind of videos for what!!!!!! The stupid Girls Generation so fucking skinny now I really think I should train up and go run the 10km la!!!!!!!!!! KNN!!!!!!!!!

They are like, inhumanely skinny okay WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I run 42 km also wont be that skinny la!!!!

Jiejieamy says "Mag I think you should try passing your 2.4 first then go run 10km" UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to die.

Big letters.

Quick post before I fall asleep, because sleeping at 3 for 2 nights in a row is realllllly not good for me.

WE JUST FINISHED OUR FIRST FUCKING DRAFT OF WR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to leave my font big cuz it's such a huge relief okay because the word limit's 3000 but we had like 4500 so we had to slowly whittle down to 3000 you know how hard that is?!?!?! Luckily Melissa was helping me because I was going to die looking at all those words already omg I sound like a bimbo. But Ms Yanti said if I didn't proofread the WR it would be my fault walau eh ): I can already feel the pressure mounting though, when Ms Yanti said that we will probably fight with our group members, I don't think she was exaggerating. My patience is wearing thin, and I think it shows so I'm not going to bother to make this sentence smaller or anything. Will flare up very very very soon unless something changes, I feel.

I am very buay song at the same time though, at a certain somebody who I just don't feel comfortable around and everything about that person irks me and makes me buay song!!!!! Some might call it jealousy, okay Chenyin might call it jealousy, but it stems from something deeper than that. I just don't know what it's stemming from yet.

But I will hide this, because..................... I care about the people whom it affects.

I don't think that line made any sense.

Today was another happy day because alot of time was spent in the library doing productive WR related things, and laughing and making waaaaaaaaayyyy too much noise courtesy of Chenyin's antics, me hiding Xinyi's shoe, and I don't know. Just pure, unadulterated, laughter which came so easily and it felt good.

I bet this post is actually v short but the font v big so it looks longer hahahahahaha.

Hi Chenyin, you are reading this to understand.

I mentioned your name 3 times in this post.

Love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(By the way, my iTunes is playing a song that just repeated the word 爱, see my devotion to you 陈芊匀.!!!)

4th time I mentioned your name btw.

And Calvin, I cannot believe I am seriously considering your stupid idea of joining Standard Chartered 10km run, I went to check out the website just now -.-

My mother say she will pay. But walau. 50 bucks to get myself killed, not worth it!!!!!!!!!

OKAY BYE. MATHS TEST TOMORROW. MUST MAKE MR FAZLI PROUD.

YES 04/09, I AM YOUR H1 MATHS REP.

I can't believe nobody knew ):

Happy dayz

Monday was... loooooooonnnngggggggg dayyyyyyyyy which ended with OCIP sigh but it wasn't so bad though it was a waste of time but usually waste of time is quite fun because I spent it talking to Gracie and Limeng about people hahahahahahaha. "Eh girl!" Omg funny. And then took bus home with Limeng, he said I changed alot since TA1, like I toned down alot and don't shoot my mouth off as much. Dunno leh. Haha. But it's quite interesting to think about people changing!!

YESTERDAY STARTED OUT LIKE.

WTF HAHAHAHHAHA Not gonna elaborate cuz it makes me sound damn loser.

But it was a good dance day yesterday!!!!! ((((((:

No Ms Wee + Dance ended early + Dance was fun (similar to no Ms Wee) + Me and Vivian stretched and talked alot at the same time + Me and Rachel went for bubble tea after that and talktalktalkeeeed FINALLY CUZ SHE DON'T WANT TO COME ONLINE + (most importantly) NO BADMINTON TRAINING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (heeheex secret motives) = HAPPY DANCE DAY!!!!!!!!!

Today was an even better day cuz we had pilot test at SAC!!! (: Reached school at about 1120, short Lit lesson, short CT exercise during KI (which is my FAVOURITE ever thing to do in KI hahahah), then lunch was right after that and there was no civics because of Pilot Test and our class had phototaking at 350 so we had 3 hours to kill then we all went for lunch together!!!! 04/09 rocks!!!

Okay not everyone turned up la, like Charis she don't know her alphabet don't know that C comes before O. Hahahaha. But it was fun anyway, went back to school, take photo, then after that we took even more photos cuz I brought my camera vvvvvvvvv fun. Pictures will be up on FB! IF I EVER FINISH MY LIT ESSAY.

WHICH IS DUE TOMORROW.

AND I HAVEN'T STARTED AHAHAHAHA.

Yesterday Sarah kept asking me to go run/walk 10km with her like damn funny la.

I was telling her I will DIE like that guy who died doing the triathlon. HE TRAIN FOR TRIATHLON AND DIE LEH. I SURE DIE LA.

Then today Calvin asks me to go join Standard Chartered 10km run with him WTF IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me and running DO NOT MIX.!!!!!!!
I will die you know!!!!!!!!

This is madness.

Pure madness.

Excuse me while I wallow in my fats now.

Where your gardens have no walls

LIWEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

MY LIFE SUCKS..............................

):

Heartacheheartacheheartacheheartache.

KNN YOU NOT HELPING LEH ASK ME THINK ABOUT THINGS MAKE MY HEARTACHE WORSE ONLY HAHA.

Should really be getting started on my KI essay now......

Maybe I'm amazed by the way I really need you

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN!!!! :DDDDD

I realised I don't have a picture with you ): But I have one in my fisheye so yay wait for it to be developed! Hahaha. The FIRST EVER ROLL OF FILM from my fisheye has been developed!!!! So happy. The pictures turned out reaaalllly dark but I'm still too amazed by it haha so cute!

This week has been somewhat good cuz I've kept on top of my work and I haven't been falling asleep in class, except during History because it's History and my defences are weak against the extreme boredom History can bring, due to my new sleeping patterns. Which are actually testament to how screwed up my body clock is. Taking a nap from 6-8, and then sleeping at 2 = No sleeping in class. Sleeping at 12 = sleeping in class. Haha wtf.

But all that is going to change because normal school assembly starts next week and I can't go to school at like 730 everyday anymore. ): Hahahahahahahhahaha and and and there's a 1000 word KI essay due on Monday which I haven't started on and I have a prediction in my head that I'm going to end up chiong-ing it on Sunday night, like how I accomplish all my best work.

Yeah right. But I really haven't started. And Mummy wants to go to Malaysia tomorrow. Mummy wanted to go to KL during next week's long weekend which I actually want to go for also BECAUSE it's the Great Malaysia Sale now or whatever their sales are called haha. BUT because of SOMEONE'S birthday which I'm currently dying over and should really go start preparing as well, I cannot gooooooo.

Too many commitments haha. Mummy went to JB yesterday and got me new shoes + SHANGHAI RED!!! Happiness x 10000000000. It's a really pretty colour okay it's not like a typical red its slightly pinkish it's like a cherry red!!!!! Charis described it as that. Haha. (: So happy. Next weekend I paint! CUZ NATIONAL DAYYYYY HAHAHA.

I hate my mind/heart leh it keeps thinking irrational thoughts and things that cannot happen, not supposed to happen. ): Qianyun. MY LIFE SUCKS HAHA. Think of you for what don't think la walau eh leave me alone ): No, don't. GO AWAY STOP SCREWING WITH MY HEAAAAADDDDDDD.

Don't.

Go.

Don't.

Go.

FUCK LA.

My heart damn pain whenever I listen to Maybe I'm amazed. Feel like crying now so I'm going to watch 放羊的星星.

Jimmy Lin!!!!!!

Need to fill my thoughts with dramatic love,

since obviously my own love life leaves much to be desired.

Hurrrrrrrrr.