Hope is the dream of the waking man

Hello blogosphere haaaaaaaa. School as been zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. I just got a snail mail letter from Vibzy which makes me excited/sad x1000000000000000 I grinned from ear to ear when Meredith came home saying "YOU GOT A LETTER FROM VIBHU!!!!!!!!" And I read it and I just like, cried haha. Hello Vibz I miss you very very verrrrrrry much and your words make me seem like, I can do more than what I'm doing now, which is not studying and wanting to give up on everything ):

Yeah it's only February and I've been repeating to Mummy that I don't want to study. Maybe it's just so she won't get her hopes up about my results and prospective future, or the thought of how difficult it's going to be 6 months from now. I'm barely surviving in History, can't remember my basic Econs from last year, can't be bothered to practise my Maths, and Lit's the one thing I really really wanna do well in but can't seem to. Every day I come home late from Dance practices or something, which usually turn out to be a waste of time even though the concert's in less than 2 months wow, and all I want to do is SLEEP. It's getting vvvvvvveeeeeerrrrrrrryyyyyy tiring I don't know why. I need some motivation. Yesterday's talk by NUS people got me thinking like you say you want to study Law, but why? And are you even good enough for it, Mag. There are 10000000000000000 other people out there who are willing to study harder, fight harder for it than you. Ugh.

You can't go on like this Mag. Come on come on come on come on.

I shall write inspirational quotes to myself NOW. Since I have to do them for OCIP -.-

Which btw is a complete waste of time because we're preparing for a ONE DAY trip to Balai in which we only spend about 2 hours in the actual village. Wow. I can totally see the meaning in that.

I JUST MADE PUMPKIN SOUP AND IT IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

Omg. Thanks to Mummy for peeling and cutting the pumpkin for me hehehe!! The pumpkin damn pretty la it's like totally orange! And we have a Braun immersion blender which is damn fun to use to blend up the soup hehehe omg so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I still have like half the pumpkin left which I will use to make soup again but trying a different recipe! I am vvvvvvv happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

Dance has been very very tiring. Angeline and Vivian are wonderful because we go through it together ughhhhhhhhhhhhh damn Z and his PMS. ): Angeline said to me halfway through dance while I was coughing and saying I wanted to die and getting picked on because I was standing right in the middle "FIGHTING!" Haha. So cute. Made Low Fat Jam Filled Muffins and brought them over when I went to bai nian at Calvin's house yesterday! Hehe then we went over to Justina's house for DELTA GENERATION GATHERING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (: It was vvvvvvv good to see everyone again (: Played Taboo which was damn freaking funny I know Ryan took videos so I hope he uploads them haha.

"Something that little kids like to do.."
"SEX"

Hahaha best. (Y) Went to Suntec Guild House for lunch just now and had green tea and black sesame ice cream after yummmmmmmmmm. Bought my JAPANESE PUMPKIN haha at Carrefour. And more fbts cuz Ling likes to "borrow" me and Meredith's and then NOT return them. >:[ OK watching Big Bang Theory now even though I got Lit stuffzzzzz to do ohwellz OK BYE.

JUST FINISHED MY FUCKING SBQ WHICH IS SO FULL OF SHIT SERIOUSLY I wrote and didn't really understand what I was writing, it's so shallow and I totally didn't analyse the last source cuz I can't understand it + it's 2.10am good job Mag harhar. I didn't do Econs ): I am such a disappointment to Miss Wong really. But I think it's ridiculous to give homework over CNY!!!!!!!!!!! RIDICULOUS. I am going to sleep now. Goodnight!

I WILL NOT SLEEP UNTIL I DO THE FUCKING CONGO CASE STUDY SBQ.

Even if I have not started and I have to be in school in 7 hours. IT'S OKAY MAG.

And tomorrow's Ash Wednesday-

I'm giving up fried food and Calvin's going to stop biting his nails.

40 DAYS OF LENT OK.

Watched Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief early this morning 1040am with Calvin, I like! Watching it from the third row wah siao eyes damn tired haha but I still liked it I like Jake Abel ^^ Hahaha and Logan Lerman :D Went for lunch at Pastamania then he came over to give my mother oranges haha. Spent very long trying to get the Glee soundtrack into his ipod then he left! Rotted the rest of my day away WHAT IS NEW. Had a damn good dinner of roast chicken, grilled prawns, mash, carrots and beans. Omg shioooooookkkkkkk. Watched My Best Friend's Girl which was surprisingly sexual haha wtf la. Ohwell.

CNY has been ok?? Finally wore my red lipstick out OMG so exciting. Smudged it like on everything I was eating but it's ok! Hehe. I've been coughing but it's getting better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't want school to start. Luckily it's a 3 day week omg. Saturday will be eventful! Yay. OK I am really starting to feel sleepy now I should do my stupid work. Whoever decided to put House Dialogue on a Wednesday morning should be shot btw, who the hell will turn up la. So bloody early. OK maybe gullible j1s. FUCK LAAAAAAAAAAA DO WORK MAG.

Road Run 2010

It's over.

Road Run 2010 is over!!! Finally. The stress was building up and I had a semi-breakdown last night because of a last minute turn in events and the stupidity/insensitivity/general oblivion of someone but it turned out okay!!

Even though we didn't win, like haha Delta what's new right, but I'm still DAMN FUCKING PROUD OF ALL MY DELTANS!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDD

My boyzzzzzz, who were damn freaking fast and clinched 8 spots in Top 20 and even Shariff was like "you all sure win top Boys"(which we didn't but HECK), Calvin(who kept saying "#1 from the bottom", "top 50" but came in 12th instead which even though you're not happy about I'm still happy for you because HA MY FAITH IN YOU IS UNWAVERING!!!), Haopu(who trained very hard for this and ran with a sprained ankle), Che Xuan, Aaron, Edmund, Yi Sien, Zhafri(who ran while sick), Bryan, JJ, Manaswi, Kevin, Charles(who originally didn't even want to run competitive!!!), Jason, Gordon, Jiahao my other OGMs who hardly did me proud by walking the whole distance (grr Kimwee haha) but the fact that they agreed to participate in it was good enough for me.

My girliessss, Jiehui(you made me damn proud la as always!), Lydia, Charlyne(who came up to me and said sorry even though she also got top 20 siao one), Chenyin, Louise(who helped me with Road Run stuff and came in top 50 which is still not bad), Kor Woong, Angeline, Lee Ying, Jerrie, Navina, Penny, MY OGMs who gamely ran it- Ada, Zhe Kang, Sarah, Crystal (who powerwalked and posed for pictures the whole way I bet), I'm so proud of all of you.

I hate it when they come up to me and say "Sorry ah Mag" because they think they've been slow or whatever because 1) They're all faster than me 2) They did their best and no one can fault them for it. Top 3 overall for Girls and Guys, Jiehui being in the top 4, Yisien, Che Xuan in top 4, Calvin, JJ, Zhafri, Kevin, Aaron, Edmund, Lydia, Charlyne, in top 20, I'm already quite satisfied. We had our share of bad luck during this event, hopefully during Track and Field it'd be better and I can't wait for Delta to show that we are fucking capable of awesomeness. Congratulations Beta, who have been on a winning streak though! They did very well (: Esp Lynn and Zhixin cuz they in the top 2 Girls teams eh ;) HAHAHA.

Anyway, walked around the CNY Carnival booths after Road Run with Chenyin. Then I went to climb while she went for Exco meeting. YUP I WENT TO CLIMB HAHAHAHAHA. I got about 3/4 up the wall because Joleneney who was belaying me refused to let me down until I tried some particular step thing again and AGAIN, I finally succeeded on the 3rd try and got up to quite high in my opinion cuz I thought I would drop damn early hahahahah and then I made her let me down because my arms damn sore alr and they were trembling. Thanks to her, Calvin, Jac, Ashley, Gen, Clement, Xinyi, Wanen for cheering for me hehe. And Maryann climbed too and she damn freaking good!!! My OGMs are multitalented!! After climbing I totally collapsed in the bouldering area and just like, sat there, rotting. Apparently I'm the first one who's been allowed to just lepak at the bouldering area wah I'm so special BECAUSE of my friendship with the PRESIDENT WOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH :D Hahahaha. Btw Calvin you haven't paid for the pineapple tarts HAHAHA.

Went to the Track booth where they were using up the leftover helium so I got 2 balloons in Delta colours for free heh. Mummy picked me up! My nails are painted in some leopard print now, WHICH I DID MYSELF and it looks cool I am happy (: I also feel kind of sick, my throat is killing me and I have a slight runny nose grrrrr it's a STUPID virus going around. I haven't even been eating all the heaty CNY food like pineapple tarts or bakkwa laaaaaaaa I do not deserve this pfft.

Oh on Wednesday we did our Temasek Tapestry thingy and Mummy sewed mine for me hahaha. Ok more like cut and pasted because we have stickon felt!! It is the cutest patchwork ok. Joleneney's MONSTER one inspired our new class t-shirt design which has yet to appear because she's supposed to design it so please do it soon so that in the 4 years I've been in TA I have a class shirt to prove it haha. And because 04/09 is an awesome class! (: Met our junior class, and met people who already want to run for Delta house cap woah. Dance phototaking and practice after that. Supposed to have OCIP meeting from 3-5 but apparently our teachers' sense of time is extremely bad cuz it ended before 4. I look terrible in the dance pictures Charis you must save me ok my face cannot look round and remove the stupid tanline around my neck )): Haha. Wednesday was also the day Haopu told me a damn stupid joke haha.

Who is the woolliest person on earth?

Ans: Maaaaa-aaaaaaaaaaaag

Good job Josephian!

I haven't eaten a meal in the entire day. Skipped breakfast, no lunch, and I ate sashimi just now after sleeping from 6plus-11? Hahaha. Omg I need to lose weight. Yesterday we swam 24 breadths for swimming PE and when I got out of the pool my legs felt like lead. But me, Shufen and Nicolette were the first to finish our laps out of all the girls so yay!!! CNY Eve tomorrow but it feels like any other day. Though I do have to make my way down to Commonwealth againnnnnnnnnnnnn. Ohwell. Can't wait for Sunday, for CNY proper! And next Saturday because it's Gen BBQ and maybe OG12 outing. AND it's a 3 day school week after CNY omg love it. :D

OK I shall either go drink liang teh which tastes like luohanguo and I don't really like it, or I'll sleep and forget the pain in my throat/hunger in my stomach hahahahah BYEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Buck up Mag. You will get through this you will think of a way out of this come on Mag.

X.ON FOREVER

Chenyin finally sent me her photos!! :D IS THE CAKE AWESOME OR WHAT. Thanks to Meredith who cut out the shapes hahahahaha. :D

Orientation is OVERRRRR ))): O night and Mass dance at Suntec was c-c-c-crazy! Didn't feel very high during mass dance cuz I got no voice so cannot cheer >:[ Plus everything ended very quickly?? Managed to see alot of the seniors though including TROOOOOOOOOOODZZZZZ AND BERNAAAARRRRRDDDD :D Carls Jr with about half of OG12 after that hehe totally deja vu from last year! Got a ride from Calvin's mum, again like last year haha, and waited for Uncle at Tanah Merah.

O night was siao omg it was damn fun! HC performance was like successful and good and Calvin/Natesha/Gracie/Lynn/Adeline/Jac all sitting right in front of the stage and shouting GO MAG!!! WAS FUCKING AWESOME HEHEHE LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! (: (: (: The band couldn't be heard due to technical rubbish, AGAIN like last year's orientation hahaha but I was fucking high anyway so jump jump jump UNTIL ONE BEAD FELL OFF MY SHOE I FUCKING DEPRESSED WALAU EH. ): But I managed to see Mat, Paul, Trudy, Bernard, Wen Chuen, Sharron, Rachel, Shaoyun (((: Went to Bedok with about half of OG12 again and got a drink and stuff. I love you all OG12!!!!! ((: Mummy picked me and Calvin up and I fell asleep fast.

Go Green Day this morning. Was late, as usual but WHATEVER LA OK HAHAHA. Navigated our lorry around with Louise and finished really fast. Some fucked up Chem teacher who was attached to the group we were navigating for was damn irritating and kept rushing the OG even though she wasn't fucking doing anything to help and was just SITTING THERE TAKING CARE OF THE BAGS???? Kiampah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Got the lorry uncle to send me to the interchange and Uncle came to pick me up.

Showered, fell asleep and waited for Calvin to reach home before I went to meet him at Tanah Merah. FOR THE FIRST TIME, I WAS EARLIER THAN HIM OK!!!!!!! :D HEHEHEHE. PUNCTUAL MAG 10000 POINTS!!! :D Made our way down to Ion and walked back and forth trying to find his CNY shirtssss. Managed to get something for myself from Topshop and it was so expensive I didn't want to buy it but no choice if not CNY got nothing to wear wah siannnnnnnnnnn. Had to leave early to find Mummy at Novena. Went to NUSS Guild House to eat an early reunion dinner. Boring company...................

BACK HOME I DAMN STRESSED CUZ ALOT OF THINGS TO DO BY MONDAY WAH SUCKS OK BUT I ALSO DAMN TIRED. OK BYE.

*BAMS*

Woohoo third day of PROPER ORIENTATION (meaning the days I don't have lessons and can full out spend time with my og. Not 2 hours in the morning then go for lessons cuz that's fucked up) IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I love OG12 hehehehe!!!! Got no pictures cuz Calvin until now haven't upload anything walau eh I think I must bring my own camera out alr even though I got no camera bag + lazy to carry HOW.

Walked to interchange and had dinner with Gracie today. (L) I miss Chenyin/Rachel/Vivian/Yiguan(abit only cuz I still see her and she still damn annoying)!!!! Orientation has been funnnnnnn I am sunburnt now and I got no more voice and Calvin told our whole OG my lousy 2.4 timing and one of our OGMs really believed that I can run 2.4km in 12 minutes and now IT IS SHATTERED I am upset!!!!!!!!!!!! ): ohwellz.

Mass dance is tomorrow but we have LESSONS first how *AWESOME* is that seriously. Loves it. Yesterday we stayed back to do the identity stuff for our clan for O night and it was so retarded and we came up with a new cheer and Grace was "loving it" omg haha.

Ok I dunno what else to say I already I'm sending out msges nowwwwwww ok tired shall sleep soon goodnight I need liang teh!!!

Nothing but bad news

Thursday and Friday were the first 2 days of Orientation. Hopefully OG12 will warm up soon but otherwise I can't wait for tomorrow!! Celebrated Chenyin's birthday on Friday with her WAKA WAKA cake which is a fucking huge accomplishment for my baking abilities hahahaha. Strawberry cake + Strawberry buttercream + royal icing and marshmallow fondant toppings. I will post pictures when Chenyin gets online!

Happy Birthday Tan Chen Yin!! :D I love you even though you ditched me and Yiguan haha. Thanks for being a fucking great friend and listening ear!!! And for knowing me so well that you want to write a book on me. Heeeee. You really mean alot to me (:

Went out with Calvin yesterday to find CNY clothes. He tried on a few shirts while I tried on 2 dresses but otherwise shopping was fail. He was damn tired, we got Coffee + Boysenberry ice cream + gummy bears + Ferrero Rocher yumz. Bought food from Muji as well to give Mummy and Meredith. AND the rice crackers I love so much, COVERED IN CHOCOLATE omg it's awesome. Calvin blocked me from the shelf to get them cuz he said it'll make my throat worse haha but I bought Lemon Aloe sweets to uh soothe it haha. Met his parents who were also in town and they sent me home. (: Oh and I carried my, ok Mummy's, Kate Spade handbag out yesterday hehehehe. I like!!!!

Today was lunch with Uncle Leo, Aunty Linda, and Lincoln at Chin Lee. Hugeeee lunch and then went for cheer practice which wasn't all that productive. I thought we would be at full strength since it kinda is our LAST PRACTICE but nope. Ohwell. Hopefully we'll still kick some awesome butt on Friday!!! Went to Eastpoint and bought Mummy a calligraphy brush to paint eggwash on her pineapple tarts -.- HAHAHA. Then went to Starbucks and tried a Honey Orange Mocha Frapp with added Java chip. I got cheated lor cuz the person asked if I wanted to add chocolate chips I thought it was like can add for free (why I so blur) and I said ok and it was 70cents extra wtf!! Anyway the chocolate chips were yummy hahahaha the drink was not bad too but I think I'll stick to DARK CHERRY MOCHA FRAPP which I think is becoming a permanent menu thing yay (:

Started watching 流星花园 again just now. Why is 道明寺 so handsome omg. (L)

if you’re reading this, and things are going bad, you should know that if things dont get better soon it’s only because the universe wants you to SHOW them that you’re Amazing. - Vibz

I miss you Vibz, and I hope I get the chance to Skype with you soon. Some people are not what they seem :/