Dear Trudy

HAPPY NOW?!?!?!
Hahahaha.

Always the queen

Cheerleading tryouts were a total bust, only 3 people turned up but luckily we have more who signed up. Did some stunts and Laughing Girl, Karon is a naturaaaaaaal. She learnt the stunts damn fast even though she was so reluctant to do it the entire time haha. Thalia came as well yay thank you for your support hehehehexzzz. Delta HC lunch then because we had time to kill before tryouts started, I hung out in the HC room with Theen Yew and woke Jun Yang up. "Mag you very noisy you know." While Trudy slept on haha. Later, JY left and Trudy had this Cookie Monster thing she hangs on her bag, and if you squeeze it, it makes this rubbish noise. So we threw it around, and the first one who catches it and causes it to make the noise loses hahahaha. Then we played like "Musical Chairs" and the one who catches it when the music ends loses. Omg we laughed like mad throughout ok. Tried introducing the game to others who unfortunately, didn't share the same amusement. ):

Stayed at home and missed ballet today because I was sick during tryouts and felt even worse at home. Meredith wanted to bake an apple crumble and we kind of deviated from the recipe until we got an apple pie cuz I wanted a lattice top hehehehe. Burnt some of the apples because we put in sugar and wanted it to caramelize. Probably left it too long haha. Ohwell, the entire thing was damn pretty!!!! And ish goooood. Called up Ling and Yiyi to come over and eat it as well. Ling likes it, Yiyi said it could do with more pastry, sigh. Would try again if it wasn't so much work! Haha, luckily it was me and Meredith both, if not I would want to kill myself. Pictures included! (: Next thing to bake... Malteser Cake!!!













Dan/Random Boy is leaving tonight ))))): Didn't go to see him off cuz it might be awkward. Sigh, will miss you Dan! Didn't get to see you much this time but never mind. You will always come back again (: Take care, I will Skype with you whenever you're bored k! (:

Vendetta.

Very very upset right now and no one is replying my messages which either means my phone is screwed (which it is) or they all don't want to reply me. Not a good thought to have in my current state of mind.

Ran/walked to ECP for PE yesterday. Bad hair day + Bad people day + Bad dance day (like what's new right) = Gross day.

Was feeling restless and upset and I had to distract myself from thinking too much about things (though ranting on lj probably wasn't the best solution to that..) Decided to paint my toe nails instead, chose the newest addition to my Chanel collection (woohoo woohoo) Vendetta since I haven't tried it yet. Painted my right foot like crap but otherwise I'm very happy with the colour. Meredith was being irritating as well.

Me: Meredith where's the Insta-Dri thing?
Meredith: -mumbles
Me: What?
Meredith: -Gives me some look where she's staring at me like she's the devil or something.
Me: Give me that look for what.
Meredith: I don't know. I don't know where it is!
Me: But you were the last one to use it
Meredith: I know.
Me: Wtf?

Relying on good old fashioned air drying now but I'm afraid it'll get ruined when I roll around in bed at night. I wish I had a reason for not crying right now, but I don't. But then again, neither do I have a reason to cry. Fuck, life is so confusing.

Cold hearted whore

I am an idiot because it is currently 2 minutes to 1.30am and I can't bring myself to sleep, instead blogging and browsing blogs while knowing that I'm going to regret it tomorrow/later in school when I can't fucking stay awake during lectures. You should know better, Mag.

Anyway, yesterday was OG4 outing! (: Met up with about, half of the OG and we made our way down to Fish& Co and Glass House for some dinner. Damn bloody crazy and noisy ok. Haha. Most of us were squished because there was super limited space but it was fun. I was touched cuz like, my OGMs skipped MCS (Haha Syaheerah!), played hooky from his Red Cross organising thingy(Fred Flintstone :D) just to come down for dinner?! (: Played Truth Or Dare and I think they wasted my Truth question la hahahahaa. But ohwell. Imran, Anwar and Garrick's dares were the absolute funniest k. Poor Sharron and random waitress. I would say poor Anwar but I think he enjoyed his kiss from Garrick. HAHA. :D That was his punishment for saying me and Jo are fat k!!! NO RESPECT!!!

Oh and there were like many many birthdays at Fish& Co that day! Louise was also dared to go up to one of the birthday boys and ask for a slice of cake. He actually agreed! Funfun. Took our mandatory group shot outside the place after that, then those that had to leave, left. We walked over to Plaza Sing then Uncle picked me up. Went to pick up Meredith from church then homeeeeee.

Pictures are uploaded and compressed and ready to go in my computer alr. And I also transferred back all my music and videos back into my computer yaaaaaaay. But uploading shall be on another day. Because as I type this, I can feel my eyes slowly closing already sigh. I also feel the urge to pee but I'm damn lazy to walk to the toilet laaaaa. Mummy's going to wake up early to cook Beef with sukiyaki sauce and mushrooooooms, with rice for my packed lunch tomorrow yaaaaay!! (: That's because tomorrow's timetable sucks and I have no breaks in between. I wanna get like, easy to eat finger food but we couldn't think of any. So ohwell.

Kor Woong came up with a name for us- Centre Canteen People hahaha. Because a bunch of us like to sit in the middle of the canteen, right under the fan and talk nonsense and laugh. Whoooo. I kinda look forward to going to school everyday, hardly for the lessons, more for the free periods where I can lepak and make new friends lol. Jason might still be an irritating ass, Kor Woong might still be too pretty for my liking >:{, and Anwar might still be annoying at times, but harhar damn fun to sit there and just laugh. Of course not forgetting, Chenyin/Jo/Lynn/Whoever to joins us just to sit there and talk laaaaaa. (:

OK THIS POST, WAS SOOOO POINTLESS. Ryan posted the email I sent to him last year for his birthday on his blog! He damn irritating it was supposed to be private la >:{ But never mind, now everyone will know how good I am to him k. And Ryan, WE GOT CHEER PROPOSAL TO DO HAHA. Cheerleading is like damn scary to think about because there are all these things to organise and I don't have the slightest idea where to start. Which makes me rethink running again for Cheer Captain this year, sigh. But I'm sure we'll conquer it, conquer our doubts, conquer our weaknesses, and most of all, conquer cheerleading and bring Delta to the top. Sometimes I have so much faith in Delta even though we might not be as good in sports as Gamma is, or as loud and bonded as Alpha, but I think somehow, Delta's still the best, to me. It's comfortable. (:

Walau ey I damn cheesy laaaaaaa haha. Like suddenly proclaiming my love for my house oweellzzzzz. OK SLEEPY TIME MY AIR CON JUST SWITCHED OFF BY ITSELF (CUZ IT'S ON TIMER) SO YAH. Goodnight! (:

B.O.O.B.I.E.S

Hahahahahah you know I mentioned the BOOBIES balloon right. I dumped the balloons in the guest room and the door is open. So it floated out, and the following conversation happened.

Mummy: Mag your boobs are flying!
Me: HUH?!
Mummy: Your boobs are really flying!
Me: WHAT?! (resists urge to look down at chest)
Mummy: THERE! YOUR BALLOON!!
Me: (Looks up and realises my balloon has floated out heading towards my ceiling fan) OH RIGHT OK MA.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Anyway, just finished watching Slumdog Millionaire with Mummy. It was damn good! And I was so bloody affected by the scenes in the show. Because the kids were so young and yet so jaded and omg. SARAH WE'RE GOING TO JOIN THE PEACE CORPS OR SMTH.

My eyes are sleepy. Considering talking to people or going to sleep. Was falling asleep today = Not good. Deciding my plans for tomorrow. Leave right after ballet and be sweaty and have ugly hair, or rush home and get ready damn fast to get there in time. Choices, choices. Ok la my choices are damn bloody shallow. I shall go sponsor a kid on Worldvision now.

Mizzex U.

Postponed Friendship day celebrations were today. It didn't have the excitement last Friday had, probably cuz most people got over Vday mood already haha. But anyway, most of our class came in home clothes though the rest of the school were like boring schmoring and didn't!!! My cleavage was like spilling out the whole of today kns but it's not my fault k alot of other people wear sleeveless never kena!!!!!! Sparked off a discussion about boob sizes and flat butts VS no butts and womanly figures and child bearing hips in the Canteen with Lynn, Jo, Chenyin, Charis haha. :D Fun fun, while Ryan silently ate his food.

Short lessons today, Netballers were selling balloons and Lynn bought me one (: THEN WROTE "BOOBIES" on it, with Vyl and Chenyin's encouragement. Grrrrr. Plus the B's and the O's had dots in the middle like nipples. Sigh. After that, stole Yijun's balloon that said "YIJUN SUCKS" Heheheheheehe. Had meeting after school, then had to kill time all the way till 4 for a Get-To-Know-The-J1s session. Went to find Kor Woong and Jason after that. Got food then went to sit with Anwar, Thalia, and Catholic girl Gen + a few more people! HAHA YOU KNOW WHY IT'S SUCH A BIG DEAL THAT SHE'S CATHOLIC NOT. Because our school has very few k ): Now our cohort has new additions instead of just Me, Ryan and Shannon! Rushed off to talk to Ryan for a bit. I hope you're ok gayshit! (: Kor Woong took pictures and then immediately uploaded them on FB. Anwar kept trying to grab my foot and give me a foot massage. Charles came and stuck his foot with his shoe on and wanted a foot massage as well. After Anwar like, poked his smelly shoe covered foot, he went to "massage"/twist Thalia's arm EEEEEEE. Went to get my stuff then went off for dance with Kor Woong.

Bonding turned out to be fun. Played Double Whacko and Rachel is such a bimbo seriously. Haha. Final losers Rachel, Leon and Kenneth had to do some slutty dance for all of us then ask us "AM I SEXY ENOUGH FOR YOU?" Which they obviously didn't but we let them off anyway. Waited for Mummy opposite and met Chenyin who just finished guitarrrrrrrrrr. Chenyin sucks k she thinks my brain is rusty >:[ REMEMBER WHAT I SAID YESTERDAY AH, I DO IT ALL FOR YOUR OWN GOOD K!!!

Was very upset and ranty yesterday, poor Chenyin haha. She asked me "Mag, is there anytime when you are very angry but you don't tell ANYBODY"
"NO! If I'm angry but I don't tell people then I keep it within myself then I'll flare up at everyone else then my brain will become even more rusty. So really, I do it all for your own good ok. I'm so self sacrificial"

HEHEHEH. Then she said I was nonsensical. >:[ Anyway, got cheered up alot by Nic Lau after that but he damn mean la haha. Slept smiling cuz I really think I wasn't that right in the head lol. Meredith just went off for some school camp so I'm going to sleep alone tonight ): I don't like leh, scary haha. But we might go to Epark, see first! Apparently she complained about me to Mummy while on the car ride to school. Cuz I blogged about her. BUT SHE MEAN TO ME FIRST WHAT. Grrrrrr. I damn bloody dirty now so I need to shower. OK BYE.

MAT SIA.

IRRITATED LIKE FUCK NOW AT SOME PARTICULAR PEOPLE YOU THINK WHAT. I WAIT FROM 1230 TO 4 OCLOCK DAMN FUN AH KNS.

And to you, wtf do you think you are huh, Damn cool is it. Fucker k I'm in a swearing mood now and my words might seem to harsh but really. Stop trying to include me if you don't feel like it. You're not obligated to, but you're acting like a real double faced hypocrite sometimes and I fucking can't stand it ok. But all I can do is put a smile on my face and boil silently in rage because that's how the cookie crumbles, and the ball rolls, and my job to keep up appearances which makes me seem like a hypocrite as well, but FUCK OFF I'M ADMITTING IT NOW.

In a very pissed off mood now. Had to stay back from 120-440 today JUST FOR PE. But laughed DAMN BLOODY ALOT during that time hahahaha. Made a new friend, Karon who laughs like HAHAHAHA literally and it's so bloody funny and she laughs at the slightest thing HAHA. Then Zheng Yu/Zachary borrowed my House shirt for PE so he was Magdalene for that period woohoo!! And "Magdalene" led the run ;) I tell you I am damn fit k.

Meredith's on the phone bitching to dunno who about dunno what and she's now listing the different girls in her class she doesn't like. "I don't like A, I don't like B, I don't like C.. Ok la everyone else quite okay." My sister damn bitchy right and just now she was on the phone again and refusing to let me talk even though I had a hair in my bloody eye and it was poking me and my eye was all red and I wanted her to blow it out for me BUT SHE WOULDN'T EVEN TELL HER FRIEND TO HOLD ON WHEN I WAS SHOUTING "OMG I HAVE A HAIR IN MY EYE". Some sister she is.

And to you, even though I doubt you'll read this. I'm sorry if I haven't been a good friend, or the sort of friend you need right now. But no matter what happens nest in your life, I honestly hope you'll turn out alright. It's been a short short year since the last time I've seen your past self and hopefully you can turn it around. Be strong, M.

Lightning strikes your heart

LOL @ Lewis' face :D (OK and at mine as well.)

Very irritated now at my apparent insignificance to some people so like ok fine don't include me don't act like you want me to be there don't feel obligated to have me there don't make me feel like an idiot when I don't know what's happening. Ugh.

Watching 命中注定我爱你 now and I'm soooo sinking back into that stage of delusion and whatnot. I realllly wanted to get 放羊的星星 just now at Eastpoint but Mummy didn't want to help me get it grrrrrr. I will get it. Somehow, soon. For me and Rachel to watch!!!!!!!!! :D :D Today Vi gave me cute apple sweets, thanks GF (:

Today, our HC room got locked for some reasons beyond our control, really. Ohwell, I am in no position to fight for it anyway. Today, I almost fell asleep during Econs and Maths but was wide awake in Lit/Hist/KI which were actually interesting like yaaaay. We watched Total Recall for KI and it was disturbing and made me think alot and made me confused but I liked it (: Today was the first time we had to follow the official time table and it kinda sucks. Ok make that, SUCKS LIKE SHIT. I don't even see OG4 people around or anything and we end sooooo late ): Surprisingly though, each lesson seemed to fllllyyyy by! Ohwellzzzzzzzz time to get used to JC life ah Mag, NO slacking ah. NO more honeymoon period for you!!!!!!!!

I was about to ramble but yknow, the sight of the cutest 纪存希 on tv now is distracting me ahhh!! OK BYE.

P.S. OMG 2 POSTS IN 2 DAYS I AM SETTING A RECORD?!

OMG ONE MONTH

Ok I'm sorry la!!!! It's been like one month since I last blogged like O.M.G. The longest I ever went was a few weeks only lor!! I think. Ok la sorry this time no pictures. I actually have many pictures but I want to sleep relatively early tonight so NOOOO pictures.

Spent Anti-Vday with Rachel yesterday! (: She called me up at about 10 and woke me up, told her to come over at 12. And she came over bearing bubble tea HAHA. :D :D Ate pasta then Mummy fetched us over to Epark where we spent our vday doing what we do best. Watching Taiwanese dramas (I got the 命中注定我爱你 dvd for only 15 bucks!!!), eating, talking, squealing, me laughing at Rachel cuz she cries at stupid parts, eating more, complaining about our full belly, then eat some more. Our picnic ideas and all were a failure but whateverrrrr. Vday is commercialised anyway, RIGHT RACH. (: Mummy sent her home after we went to Changi Village in search of more food like harhar how smart right. Anyway, luvu Rachel thanks for yknow, being there, and spending vday with me!! Even though our date damn unhappeningzzzz but everywhere crowded whaaaaaat. Hahaha. (: Oh and to you too, my dear gf Vi. Happy Vday and hope you had a good one (: (L)

Baked Strawberry Cupcakes with Strawberry Frosting to give out on friday. They looked damn bloody muthapretty ok!!!!!!!!!!! I thought they were too sweet but they were well received so yay! (: Today I baked some Chocolate Chip Oatmeal Cookies which were epic FAIL. Probably cuz I didn't really follow the recipe (14 tablespoons of butter wtf?! How to measure!), and anyhow put in until it seemed right. Tastewise it's kind of sweet but not too bad, texture is just off. It like, melted. So it's flat now. Omg I want to give up on baking ): NO I WILL NOT LA PLS. Going to give the cookies out tomorrow, hopefully they'll still be eaten haha. Also decided today that I don't want to bake for Vday anymore unless I have a special someone which is probably never going to happen in the near future because 1) I'm too chor lor = Boys don't think of me as a girl sigh. 2) I am fat. 3) Next year A levels don't play play ah. 4) I got high standards (Don't laugh at me la, I can hear you thinking "this girl ah, no one want her already still dare to criticize). Mummy say I cannot go for any fish seller's son hor. 5) I talk like ah lian, act like minah.

Walau eh cmi la this whole post I sound so horrible like dunno how to speak engrish. Die already la who want you huh Mag. Friday was also Road Run. Jumped/Screamed my voice hoarse. But yknow, because life is unfair like that, Delta only won first for our Boys team 1. Not that I'm looking down on that achievement but sometimes life is seriously fucked up !!!! Had no mood to go out with my beloved OG4 after that, sad lonely person. After orientation, my voice hasn't fully recovered so now I have like, no voice. Oh yeah Orientation, omg I shouted until no more voice, causing Jason to comment that I sounded like a sick dog la thanks ah Jason. Ok I am damn lazy to post photos here because I already spent dunno how much time uploading them on FB. Ok FB links here ah.

Day 1
Day 2
Day 3 Part 1
Day 3 Part 2
Day 4 Part 1
Day 4 Part 2
Day 4 Part 3

Ok la I know don't have Day 5 pics but you know me ah, short attention span. Day 5 I got damn bloody alot of photos I don't dare to sort out hahahahahahaha. Omg today I really cannot talk properly I sound like I'm drunk or something (stupid lousy Margarita) walau ey Mag, like that how to get A for KI, how to fight for Ivy League place, how to be lawyer. I feel like I'm not doing enough for my future/ I haven't started early enough/ It is too late/ I am going to fail. Don't want to feel like this la. At the same time, going through people's Vday pictures like some pathetic lovestarved fool/stalker is making me feel strangely inadequate and unappreciated and unloved and I wish I was closer to more people. Not forgetting any of my friends now I just wish I had someone special. But also not forgetting the fact that me and Jo are on the path to recovery (we sound like we are recovering addicts siaaaaa), and that I am very happy about that heeexxxx. Usually don't post such stuff on blogspot but since I'm in such a crazed drugged drunk weird mood now might as well let everything come out. ajdkhasudhaskjdnajkhdajhda at the same time I also hate the fact that you treat me like shit when you're feeling stressed. I sometimes feel like I'm betraying you when I have to hear about people talk bad about you behind your back and even worse when I find that I agree with them but when you do this shit to me, or really, just treat me as if I'm not worth nothing, I feel like you deserve it and I don't want to feel like that, so DON'T make me feel like that.

If you just read through this whole post that scarcely made sense because I am writing this with the least semblence of sanity I have left in my head and that sentence sounded like nonsense/ like me trying to sound very pro in engrish but failing. Anywayz give yourself a pat on your back if you just read through this because yknow, I know many of you have been yearning for my daily ramblings anyway. NAH, I GIVE YOU.

First proper day of school tomorrow, first proper day because we have an actual timetable with tutorials and shit. Not looking forward to it even though I am hophophappy excited about my subject combi. I dislike JC life and lectures and shit because I like my small TA cohort, I like the people I'm comfortable with but at the same time I like to meet/make new friends and I used / too many times in this post let me use it a few more times. //////////

Double KI period tomorrow, go Mag! I need to stop being so f-ing shallow about everything and always thinking I'm right. Someday I will realise that no one is obligated to like me and I better start doing something in order to be likeable. Suxxxxxx why do I want to die/sleep now.

P.S. Sorry I said so much crap in this whole blogpost and not blogging for so long. Actually I really wanted to blog la but you know, I was damn bloody tired everyday and just sort of gave up on blogging. Sorry. Luv you all still.

P.P.S. This whole post is so nonsense that maybe tomorrow I will come to my senses and delete everything, leaving you, Chenyin, with "Here we go again".