We'll make it

Wasted the whole of today, though I DID manage to finish reading the first part of WSS. Just decided on my PW topic like hahahahahahaha. Wtf. I didn't even write anything for PI ok I have 2 days before my first draft is due and I have done nothing except for deciding on my topic. All that's on my mind now is cheer cheer cheer and after hearing what Syakirah said, I'm not so sure that I'm a good leader anymore. Or at least not a bad one. Ugh.

Tired tired tired, Meredith just baked a cake for her dance teacher, it is like 1.34 am now I really should be sleeping lest I end up falling asleep during lessons tomorrow. Need to pack my bag as well, but I don't know where everything is. Sigh. Everything is such a mess, I'm crossing my fingers that cheer prac goes well and productive tomorrow even though I'm short of 2 cheerleaders. Last 4 days!!!!! Goooo Delta Dragons we can do this!

We are an army, put our hands up tonight.

Louise says she doesn't like ---------------------------- (group of people la)
And we miss the last 2 years, I want back our small cohort can can?
If I ask damn nicely can?
If I break down and cry can?
If I demand for it can?

Ughz, need to rid mind of little people little things little irritations little springs (I dunno it just rhymed). I need, cheerleading spirit, team work, last 5 day sprint towards our final goal, our comfortable clique of 5, awesome TA cohort of just 100, the way we are all friends, no competition and stress and backstabbing and bitchiness and politics, no hypocrisy, passion, people to feel the same way I do, people who can read my mind, people who love me more than I know, people to take things seriously.

I don't need pessimism, diminishing morale, the way you joke about everything, the way you think it's all alright when it's not, things being taken for granted, my patience being taken for granted, overly touchy acts. Because I smile/laugh it off, I might not be okay about you, I might not be okay about things. When I shout, or when I glare, I am serious and it's not supposed to be a joke. I want you out of my life, I want you to stop forcing yourself INTO my life, I want you to stop trying to change MY life. I want to get out of this black hole that's sucking me in, I want to be able to choose what I want to do with my own free time.

I'm sorry this post is such a mess and as I write it out I want to cry and wtf la I'm not supposed to be like that. I told Louise I'm a generally happy and problem free person why am I like this now. Go back to old times please please please. What did I get myself into. Why, why, why.













Lots of blank space to clear my mind.
Cheerleading practice today was quite productive, need passion for it please. Final stretch before we prove ourselves as a squad. It's becoming hard to not show my tiredness on my face, and it's not supposed to be like that. Louise, Ryan, and Jason bus-ed with me and walked me home (: Brought home the pom poms, must practise must practise. Now have an aching body, but managed couple stunts today and I'm very happy about it. Compromise compromise, and I'm supremely happy when we manage new stunts. And when Ryan shoulder sits me and says "Eh Mag you really lost weight ah" "I feel like I can carry you!" "I don't feel anything!" And when he runs to buy me a bubble tea while we walk to the interchange.

Thank you intense Cheerleading pracs, at least my body and not only my mind is getting a workout.

I'm also sorry this post has no chronological order whatsoever. Neither does it make much sense but as my mind runs through things at lightspeed and I don't know anymore.

Thank you Chenyin for listening to me bitch and bitch and bitch neverendingly.
Thank you Louise for bitching WITH me ha.
Thank you Limeng for telling me to be strong.

WEBCAM MADNESS

Recently unearthed my webcam from I dunno where, cuz Meredith got her Vaio which already has a webcam thus she passed it to me. Been webcam-ing with random people haha it's quite fun!

First up, David! Sorry we couldn't go to your match k ):

He got no cheekfats.

HAHA SPECS.


Adeline, video called with her last night until late late and she was telling me lame/sick jokes. !!!! Tsk tsk, and she kept making funny faces into the camera, natural born beauty k.

Freak.
Mutant rabbit!!!
Normal rabbit. Somewhat.
Short hair! + Centre parting omg damn sexy.
She even comes in the Chun Li version!
Or spastic, nerd, whichever floats your boat.
Or you could have her Jap big eyes style.
Hairy,
Or cute!

Remember guys, Adeline is single, sexy, free, and making her own money. Limited time offer only, while stocks last!

Turn up the music

Webcam-ing with Daniel while he constantly whines/complains "I'm boreeeeeeeed".
He's coming back from Melbourne!! :D :D
OK BOOK YOU ONE DAY AH HAHA.
Hope you get NUS then you will forever be in SG! :DDDDD
OK LA I dunno what to say alr, mizz you Danzzzz I don't just miss your Mini k!
Though it's a very big part of it hohoho.
:D

Louise, Calvin, Ryan came over on Wednesday. It was fun, the small group of us again minus Chenyin cuz her Mummy picked her up ): Anyway, small group of us was comfortable, like a close habit that we can always slip into (: Finished making all the girls costumes yay! We even have my teddy bear as a mascot cuz Mummy was bored and sewed a small costume for it damn cute hahahahahaha. They left, I baked a cake for Zhafri while tried making cake balls for Charis but they are damn ugly and hiding in my freezer now heh heh.

Got back Lit marks on like... Thursday.
ASDHAISUDHAKSJDHAKJDAD
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
WHATTHEFUCKWHATTHEFUCKWHATTHEFUCK
THIS IS A SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP MARK
I DID NOT JUST GET 7/25 FOR A LIT TEST
LIT'1/!?!?!??!!?
AND THE HIGHEST WAS 9!??!?!?!

Teacher marked way overboard I swear. We have NEVER gone through essay structure, it was our FIRST essay test, and it was a full length Lit essay qn. Hello? That's not a test of our abilities that's throwing us into the deep end straight. And then pointing out everywhere that we went wrong, the mistakes we made BECAUSE WE HAVE NEVER GONE THROUGH HOW TO WRITE A LIT ESSAY BEFORE, as if it's OUR fault and you're so very disappointed in us and therefore you have to repeat your point "Your introduction can consist of...." over and over again, NOT HELPING WOMAN?!?!!??!?!?!?!?!

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Fucking bad mood that day. 7/25 is a fucked up dismal mark that I am not supposed to be achieving in what I planned to be my best subject ok. ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Got caught for falling asleep during History as well, sigh.

Cheerleading was good, I guess. Irritation was the word of the day, many things/people irritated me ugh ugh ugh. I need to I dunno, get over somethings. One more week to D-Day. D for Delta!!!! Really hope we get things done by tomorrow, stress stress stress. I can't believe 2 of my guys have a soccer match the day before Track and Field, I could just kill myself now.

Today had dance at Studio Wu, was fun but I screwed it up, must keep practising everyday so I don't embarrass myself at the next practice BIG SIGH. Have pictures actually but uhhhhhhh haha too lazy to post them up heh heh.

UGH LIFE SUCKS (ok not really). Cheerleading tomorrowwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!! GUD NITE WORLD.

To/For Meredith

WALAN EH I JUST FOUND OUT SOME STUPID BITCH SAY MY SISTER FAT AND FUGLY.
STUPID OR WHAT. BLIND OR WHAT!
(Sorry my inner ah lian come out alr, I cannot deny her her right to speak.)

2 MORE WEEKS.

The madeleines were good in the end (: Cheerleading prac yesterday, verrrrry productive but I dunno. Went to HC room and Jason was being an ass hahahha. Grace/Clara and I went to the library and we saw the books that we could take and we became aunties and started looking through to see what good finds we could get woohoo!! Hahahaha. Jason, Louise, Karon, her, met Noelle then we went to Eastpoint for lunch, Trish and Jo came to join us then we allllllll relocated to my house to uh, watch the History dvds.

FAIL. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I mean, me and Trish decided to not watch it at all, while the rest watched one part of one disc and ended up looking like half their brains just melted away damn funny. Trish painted Grace's, KW's and my nails yay! (: Anyway they all met Meredith and commented on how pretty she is/her hair very nice etcetc. Then left hahahahaha. Last night was damn spastic heh heh heh BUT I SLEPT HAPPY heh heh heh heh heh. :D :D :D ;D ;D ;D I think Chenyin and Louise and Ryan and Karon are gonna roll their eyes now.

Today was a tiring day! Ok not really, went for lunch with Daddy, Founder Bak Kut Teh! :D Home, ALONE. Rotted/Wasted the day away other than attempting the Math quiz walau eh. Then uhhh rotted somemore. Got pictures from Karon's camera already so yay uploaded them!


READ THE LABELS HAHA. Super horny.

Monkey.
TRISH IS DAMN UNGLAM HAHA. She kept eating the lemon, chew and chew and chew then talk some more!
And she looks so pretty here!

Idk what Kor Woong was trying to do hahaha!

OR CLEMENT, OR THALIA.

Yay normal people! (:



Cheerleading haha. Imran and Zhafri are like, 2 5yearold kids or something la.




Ryan checking out his VPL IN THE MIRROR HAHAHAHA.
Zhenghao
OLD GIRL.
Yay me! Karon was disapproving of my pink hairband, pink shorts, pink nails hehhh.

For lack of a better word

Went to help out at Inter-JC Swimming on Monday! Had to be there at 7am and I was DAMNNNN early ok no one else was there! Then Royce and Zi Heng turned, up then Denise. And the rest of volunteers including Vyl and Aver all came only about 730? WASTE MY TIME HAHAHAHA. Woke up super early ok ):

Anyway, had to coordinate the swimmers and their lanes together with Denise. It was fun but my voice was already about half gone and stupid Royce didn't give me a loudhailer and still dared to call me Loudmouth!!!!!!!!!!! Throat hurt alot alot after that. The whole thing ended about 2, Mummy came to pick me up cuz it was raining like MAD DOGS AND CATS. Home, slept till about 7. At about umm, 10, Mummy decided that she had a craving for fries and when she said fries I thought "BEEF CHILLI CHEESE FRIES" so off we went to Big Splash for Carls Jr drive thru which probably wasn't the best of ideas because my throat hurt like some motherf- shit after that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cheerleading prac yesterday morning, met Karon at 711 to go buy milk haha because she is retarded. She msged me the previous night saying "Mag I got no breakfast can you bring for me breakfast tomorrow" I'm like WHAAAT?! Then in the end I just said I'll just bring Waffle CriSPS and she said she needs milk and a bowl. So I brought it in a container and brought a spoon along. Then we bought the milk for her breakfast. Mad woman haha. Sze Sian came to teach us routine, yay! I reallllllly reallllly hope we get our cheerleading done in time. 2 more weeks, Mag!!!!!!! D:

Home after that, Mummy wanted to go to M'sia but I really felt like shit so I went to sleep instead. She went to M'sia though, and brought back soup, paper baked chicken, and Domino's pizza!!! Hahaha. Calvin managed to get 24 hours worth of internet so I talked to him last night yay(: Sunday Sunday Sunday we shall go pick him up!

Today, felt worse than ever and had a slight fever ): Spent the day reading cooking blogs haha and then got dragged out of the house by Mummy, we went to the library and borrowed some cookbooks! Came home, rested for abit. Then, on Mummy's request, I now have a batch of Madeleine batter sitting in the fridge. I have to chill it for at least 3 hours la! Should go catch up on 90210 episodes in the meantime or smth. I HAVE MISSED TOO MUCH, TOO MUCH.

I want to bake some other stuff leeeeehhhh, but all the recipes online look too fiddly and complicated haha. Any requestssss? (: Charis sure got alot to say cuz HER BIRTHDAY IS COMING. :D I remembered!!!

Cute boy, talk to me, talk to me, talk to meeeee. HAHAHA.

Poker face

Haven't been updating in a long time. OOOOOPS. Thursday was Lit night, that was vvvvv fun (: Loved Vibhu and Nien Yuan's performance, made friends with Johanna, and good job to CHENYIN! Louise, Jo, Jason, Justina, Charis, Denise, Nicolette (: The saddest thing was that it was Calvin's last day in school cuz he went off to Abu Dhabi on Friday and we couldn't see him off )))))):

Friday, econs test, after school, hung out with Karon until Temasek Ignite, then had a short cheerleading prac with JASON! Where we managed to pop and stuff yay then.. Ryan's dad gave me and Karon a lift home yaaaay.

Cheerleading prac on Saturday morning!! V productive because Syak came down and she is damn good I feel so inferior and out of my league now. Cheerleading PT COMMENCES NOW. Went home, showered, Chenyinthebutterfly came over and then Mummy dropped us off in school for Temasek Talentime!!! Had to like, start queueing so that we would get good seats heh heh damn kiasu la. TTT was damn bloody good although the judges were severely f-ed up. I mean, it's a SCHOOL based competition right, who are you trying to impress with your meagre knowledge of talent? Seriously, criticisms such as "I felt like I was in a 10year olds performance" were unwarranted and unnecessary. My inner Chao Ah Lian (or maybe not so inner) was raging and I was booing with all my might. Really, do you have a conscience? People bucked up their courage to sing on stage and to have fun. What right do you have to say such things? I would like to see you on stage being judged.

Winners of TTT were Our Dance, Our Crew. Every performance was good but they deserved to win (: Went off to Simpang after that but Anwar was being a social butterfly and like socialising and stuff then me and Karon got tired of waiting cuz it was getting late so we went off by ourselves first haha. Met Imran, Zhaf, Gen, Grace there because they cabbed. Liverpool VS Man U was on, therefore Simpang was daaaaamn crowded. Karon was being retarded and going "Omg I cannot watch the match if not I'll jinx it. -Hides" After we ordered our food and was halfway through eating it, then the rest of them came. Haha. Uncle came to pick me up and gave Karon a lift home yay.

Skipped Superkids today because I'm a lazy pig. Went for the IT fair at Suntec and it was so bloody crowded and I didn't really get anything I wanted but Meredith got a red Sony Vaio!!! Met Alfred at Epicentre, haha quite random. Left to meet Karon at MOS Burger and to demonstrate how crowded it was, it took me half an hour to walk from Suntec City to Raffles City. There were people EVERYWHERE and it was like, at a standstill la. I was shuffling my feet hurhur. Then Clement and Anwar joined us, then Thalia and Zhaopeng met us at Party City while Clement and Anwar went to buy underwear -.- Rotted at Starbucks for a bit before Jo and Kw came, then Trish. Went to find a place to eat, also finished about half our food already BEFORE Zach and Inez came haha. Had a good laugh throughout dinner, we were still laughing and making a public nuisance out of ourselves when everyone in the place left already hahahahahah. Eveywhere we went we made noise ok but it was fun. Suddenly felt abit irritated for no reason though, wanted to talk to Calvin but he's far away ):

Uncle picked me up, went back to the IT Fair where Mummy and Meredith were. They got me a damn pretty portable hard disk!! (: Meredith got a new phone as well... All the phones I want are too bloody expensive so I'm very upset because nothing else catches my eye. Sigh, finally left and got home like, at 5 minutes to midnight!!!! Am still up which is not a good thing because I have to be at ITE Simei East by 7am walau eh! Uploading TTT pictures now, am very happy with the fact that I actually brought my zoom lens out to play = nice clear pictures (: Though it's abit mad because I managed to take 800 pictures in one night, W.T.F? All thanks to the continuous shooting feature. Heh, must really filter through all the pictures, though my eyes might not be able to handle it!

Banana Papaya

Much fun today (: Had a half day and ended school at 10. Cheerleading prac was quite productive cuz it was FINALLY a day with everyone (: Got some bad news but we'll work around it (: Kor Woong was sick and she didn't come to school ):

After cheerleading prac, waited for Jo to finish up SC stuff then went to Ice Cream Chefs with Calvin, Louise, Jo, Anwar, Karon, Thalia, Jason! Calvin treated me to my Cappucino + Kinder Bueno mix heh heh heh (: Put our photo up on the wall! Then after our ice cream, went for lunch at KFC and met Miss Nansi/Mr Rajesh on the way. :D Rylala and KW came to join us with Gnat and another dancer. Ate already and I think Louise suggested we go over to Calvin's house to rot and stuff. So off we went! Hahaha.

Had lots of fun at his house taking stupid pictures, talking, lying on his v v v v comfy and soft bed, singing, playing guitar, ummm I dunno what else haha. Everything else but study (: Mummy came to pick me up! Got many pictures actually...... But I'm damn lazy to post them up sigh. Ok here's some.
































AHAHAH THIS PICTURE LOOK LIKE THALIA TOUCHING MY BOOB.









Orgy orgy orgy nooooo :O






OK LA GOT MORE FROM SCHOOL BUT I DAMN LAZY ALREADY GO AWAY!!! HAHAHAH!!!!