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Very angry at Ms Y because she is a crazy control freak I can't believe she organised some OCIP bbq but said not to invite the non-Balai trip people??? WTF??? Um hello are you gonna hold a grudge cuz we chose other commitments over Balai or something? AND I HEARD you kept saying negative things about SL Camp which I guess is expected CUZ YOU SPECIFICALLY SAID THAT THOSE GOING FOR SL CAMP CANNOT GO FOR BALAI which is why I chose not to go. Look, when Yunnan was cancelled, I made another commitment to SL Camp because my commitment to Yunnan ended when the trip got cancelled, A WEEK BEFORE WE WERE MEANT TO LEAVE MIND YOU, by the school. Signing up for OCIP already made me give up so many other things that I reallllllly wanted to do like all my internships so SUCK IT UP if I decide to choose other things over OCIP now. FUCK YOU I'm so angry because she is specifically pushing us away and like leaving us out so WTF WTF WTF!!!!

ON A VERY DIFFERENT NOTE, wtf why are you so cute why why why hahahahhahahah die already Yiguan I DIE ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you don't burst my bubble anymore please Yiguan ))))): OK going to watch 桃花小妹 now it is very retarded. I want new nail polish from Etude Houseeeee just now me and Mummy went crazy in Plaza Sing we bought 34bucks worth of stuff from Daiso like random felt and lots of rice crackers. Mummy don't let me buy the pretty nail polish because she said must wait for offer walauuu ))): OK I must wait till after US trip!!! AHHHH!!!!! :DDDDD

Vi's coming over tomorrow morning she's gonna do French manicure for me yayyyyyyyyy. My nails now damn bling cuz we tested out all the nail polish just now hahahahahhahahaha. I likeeeee (Y) ^^ Bought blueberries just now $1.95 per pack I am very happy cuz good deal!!!!!!! :D And I'm wearing my blue SL Camp shirt now I like I am very happy as well hahahahahah I took it out and announced to Meredith and Beryl and Mummy that I'm going to wear new shirt to sleep and it's very nice right??? :D Mummy said "Of course la dark colour make you look skinny". TSK but yay I like it moreeeee!! HAHA.

False Evidence Appearing Real

I'm back from SL Camp 2009!!! I think I might be the only retarded person who went for a manicure the day before leaving for camp HAHAHA but it survived with only minimal chipping on 2 nails and one of my nails broke but again, only a little YAY!!! :D I loved camp seriously, I think SportsXcel did a fucking awesome job planning the camp and it was so bloody well organised!! Plus they treated us HC members very well to the point that we felt kind of bad cuz they slept so little and they didn't let us do sentry duty etc. I wanna blog about it properly but I'm lazy and I got no pictures!! Didn't bring my camera cuz it's so big and heavy I didn't want to lug it around.... But I will forever remember that Natesha the Minah Soccer Captain cannot tell left from right and made Lynn raise her right hand showing 1 finger and left hand showing 2 so she could say "TURN TO 1." etc hahahaha BEST. And also staying up till 5am with Lynn, Natesha, Adeline, Siew Min, Liang Kai, Anooja... just talking about random things, playing Shoot Shag Marry with group 4.. Hahahaha. :D

I think the weather was very very good to us cuz other than drizzling on the first day of camp it didn't rain at all so we didn't have to go to wet weather plans and all our activities were successful yay (: Maybe except Night Walk at OCH cuz we didn't have enough time so it was wasted but I still liked it (:

(I keep editing this post cuz I got alot to say haha)

OH OUR VERY OWN SLCAMP CHEER!!!

"Leaders give me a WHOOO!!!"

Whoooo!! Yeah yeah that's what we'll do.

FEAR is what we'll fight

Fight fight and fight all night

Come on let's do it right

Do it fast and show our might

Ohh.....

(Spongebob Squarepants tune)

WHO LIVES IN A TENTAGE IN PULAU UBIN

S-L CAMPERS!!!

WITH NO WATER TO BATHE AND SMELL LIKE DUSTBIN

S-L CAMPERS!!!

SL CAMPERS SL CAMPERS SL CAMPERS!!!!

:DDDD

Anyway my lips are chapped and the skin on my face is peeling I look like a monster ugh!!! ): Went to celebrate Yiyi's birthday and then to Tampines 1 with Meredith and Ling just now so I could eat Bakerzin "Sweet Pleasure" and macarons which weren't that fantastic I liked the shells more than I liked the filling haha. Went for Frolick after that and there wasn't Peach flavour there was only STRAWBERRY wtf why is Strawberry flavoured frozen yoghurt taking overrrr ))): That time at Berrylite also >:[ Settled for Original with my favourite Fruity Pebbles toppings!!! :D

OK I keep peeling the skin off my nose my nose is really red and painful. Beryl is staying over AGAIN and she is LAME like literally she sprained her ankle. Talked to Vibzy just now and we totally have a special bond!!! (: Hehehe. I should go wash my face now cuz it is really hurting and feeling oily......

Vi, I love you and I hate it that you're upset and confused now but you will get through this k it's okay. Any decision you make will be the right one kkk girlfriend!! (:

This is not your year

Have been declaring my dislike for a certain someone and showing it quite obviously.... I don't think it's very healthy because it reflects badly on myself >:[ I don't know how to keep this up I just want you out of my life I really really want to stop pretending that everything's okay between us ugh ugh ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going to JB tomorrow to pig out and PAINT MY NAILS hehehhehehehe. Baked chocolate chip cookies just now and for one of the trays I forgot to set the oven to the correct temperature then just pressed the time and START. And the oven will auto START with the highest temperature so suddenly got burning smell hahahahahha. Hurriedly opened the oven and smoke came out the whole house smells like smoke now hahaha BUT I DIDN'T SET THE OVEN ON FIRE it was just the burnt cookies omg hahahaha. (:

I felt like Domestic Goddess I kept insisting to Mummy that I am because I was wearing an apron and like, using a mini ice cream scoop to scoop out the cookie dough so they would all be equal size and I froze the cookie dough balls so I can just take out and bake next time. WAH SO DOMESTIC RIGHT?????? Anyway I don't think the chocolate chip cookies are that fantastic >:[ Don't know if I should still bring them to school on Sundayyyy cuz we're sleeping overrrrrrr. Ugggghhhhhh I wanted to bake the hazelnut cake again BUT NO DARK CHOCOLATE HOW? Sigh. I can't stop burping I don't know what's wrong with me.

SHOULD NOT HAVE SLEPT AN EXTRA DUNNO HOW MANY HOURS ONCE I GOT HOME FROM LUNCH JUST NOW BECAUSE NOW I CANNOT SLEEP AND WE'RE SUPPOSED TO LEAVE IN 5 HOURS FOR JB????

DRAGONHOOD

HAHAHHAHA ok today was quite a good day!!!!!

Calvin came over this morning and he scolded me for everything I did/said ok cuz I drink cold drinks and eat pizza when I got sore throat >:[ And when I say Oprah very ugly. >:[ But she really is what!! Anyway he ate jiaozi for the first time EVER and he like! Then he fell asleep on the sofa -.- Cabbed down to Eastpoint so we could get Starbucks Christmas drinks!!! I tried Peppermint Mocha Frapp for the first time and I quite like it though I like Dark Cherry Mocha more!!!!!! Took a bus down to school and we were NOT late okay!!!!!!!!! :D So many other people later than us please. Anyway OGL briefing was quite waste time but YOU KNOW WHAT WAS DAMN AMUSING???

DAWN WAS DAMN FUCKING AMUSING!!! HAHAHAHAHAH.

So she baked cookies right then I didn't eat but she managed to coerce Calvin, Siew Min and Melvin to eat them la and they were all sitting around me hahahaha then Calvin say it tasted like flour and he gave it to Jiehui to eat and her face completely changed. BUT AFTER THE BRIEFING RIGHT, me, Jo, Melvin, Dawn, Darren sitting down waiting for the rain to stop and for Mummy to come so we talk to Dawn like how did you bake this???

#1: How much flour is in this???

"The recipe call for 2 cups of flour but the batter not like cookie dough!! So I put in 4 cups of flour"

#2: OK then the butter?!

"1 cup of butter."

"You know 1 cup of butter is 1 block right?"
"Huh what 1 block. Mine is the big block one then I use the spoon to scoop"

"HUH how you scoop???"

"3 spoons lor"

"YOURS IS MARGARINE IS IT?"

"Yah margarine!!"
"MARGARINE AND BUTTER DIFFERENT!!!!!!!!"

"HUH?!!? IS IT???"
"Wait then how you scoop with spoon"

"Normal tablespoon lor! 1 spoon I see like fill up about 1/3 cup so 3 spoons!"

#3: "What was the baking temperature?"

"It said 375 degrees but my oven maximum temperature only 275 degrees so I put to 275degrees then I put in 5 minutes hurry take out if not burnt already"
"DAWN, 375DEGREES FAHRENHEIT IS 180DEGREES CELSIUS!!!!!!!!"

"HUH??? But the recipe say degrees celsius!!"
"There is no such thing as 375degrees celsius Dawn!!!!!!!!!!"

Omg Dawn damn freaking epic I swear!!!!! But okay la the cookies were edible I ate one in the end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just really taste very dough-y. Anyway, Mummy picked me up and gave Melvin and Jo a ride to Siglap. Picked Uncle's sister up then dropped Meredith off at Parkway. Went to Gleneagles hospital, waited, rotted, talked about my future haha, then dropped her back home and went to John Little sale which SUCKED, we didn't buy anything!!! Went home, fell asleep, and then went to Porta Porta for dinner!!!!!!!!

Wah ate damn alot I am happy ^^ But it was very expensive, went to pick up Meredith from ECP. Beryl is sleeping over tonight. I was feeling pretty horrible just now but talked to Yiguan/Gracie and now to HP and I'm okay now because I got my DRAGONHOOD!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahah fuck damn funny Gracie yayyyyy I will be okay, I hope!! :DDDD

SL Congress 2009

I'm really very tired and there's OCIP meeting + Dance practice tomorrow yay. SL Congress ended today, I have to admit that I really didn't enjoy it that much other than the "Chiku cha chiku cha chiku cha cha cha" dance which is the highlight of the entire thing for me, I think, HAHA. I mean really, mixing Primary School kids with Sec 1,2,3 kids and JC1 kids is not such a great idea. No matter how cute the Primary school students are, it's OBVIOUSLY hard to get them to talk. AND, everyone is split up in different groups. HELLO, IMAGINE A SMALL 10 YEAR OLD BOY (LIKE JORDAN CHUA HAHAHAHA) ALONE IN A GROUP FULL OF PEOPLE OLDER THAN HIM. YOU THINK HE DARE TO TALK??? And there's only so much us as facils can do because first, we're only given 2 days and somehow we have to be able to relate to alllll these people of so many different ages and get them to talk to us. Second, WE ARE ONLY GIVEN 2 DAYS. BY THE TIME THEY START WARMING UP TO EVERYONE, THE CONGRESS IS OVER.

Yesterday was okay actually, I thought it was quite fun cheering and stuff and the dance was the best thing of the whole Congress I swear we did it 3 times yesterday!!! Calvin asked Alistair to help buy back bubble tea for me and Yiguan cuz we were stuck in school the whole day yay thanks!!! :DDDD

Today was quite suck-ish because we had Adrian Lim come down to talk and he's such an obnoxious, condescending prick I could not stand his entire workshop/lecture/sharing shit thing!!!!!! He kept insulting people and then laughing it off and it's like hello??? HOW IS THIS RELEVANT TO LEADERSHIP??? Honestly, it was a waste of my time and only served to MAKE ME ANGRY AND IRRITATED. The next talk was so fucking lor sor it was like an hour and a half and nothing went into my head. I'm sure he had some really valid points that I could have learnt from but I just want to know, what you have learnt and things that I can APPLY to my own leadership journey, not your entire life story thanks.

Wah Job Hunt even better. First Yiguan asked if the participants needed the paper so they could go out find job, apparently we didn't. So we started walking out of the school and we were about halfway across the fricking giant courtyard thing and then I get a call saying we DO need a paper saying where we were from. So we waited. THEN I GET ANOTHER CALL saying the paper cannot be printed so we're supposed to help explain to the potential employers what we were doing but we still need to give out assessment forms to the participants. SO WE WAIT FOR THE ASSESSMENT FORMS but decided to leave first. So we left, and CCHMS is fucking ulu it's a damn long way to walk out k. By the time we reached our venues, OMG OUR VENUES WAH ANOTHER THING. Seriously what kind of weird venues are Bedok Reservoir, or the temple area behind Bugis Street????? YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO FIND A JOB AT BEDOK RESERVOIR? THE PLACE SEEMS DEAD FOR GOODNESS SAKE LIKE GOT NO CUSTOMERS!!! By the time our Group 18 could find jobs they worked for less than an hour then we had to leave and go back already. And how do you want the participants to tell the shopkeepers what they were supposed to do and stuff like that when you didn't brief them on what they were supposed to be doing exactly?? And how were we supposed to explain FOR them when again, YOU DIDN'T TELL US EXACTLY EITHER?!?! Thanks, really. THANKS SO MUCH. BEST ACTIVITY EVER.

Back to school and it was raining like mad after debrief. Cheering didn't stop so me, Gracie, Yiguan and Justina banded together and expressed our mutual hate for the stupid whistle noises and the never ending cheering. It was cute when the Primary school students did it the whole afternoon but really, come on, the day has ended and people are tired. Started raining cats and dogs and we couldn't get through to call a taxi. Luckily, Yiguan's mum came to pick us up and drop us off and Bedok Interchange!! Uncle gave Justina a lift home and now I'm home.

OK SINCE THE SC PEOPLE WILL MOST PROBABLY BE LOOKING FOR BLOGS TO READ ABOUT SLC, I SHALL WRITE OUT STUDENT LEADERSHIP CONGRESS 2009 they sure can find. Because today's debrief wasn't even a proper debrief anyway I couldn't voice everything I wanted to say!!!!

AND I AM DAMN FREAKKKIIIINNNGGGG EXCITED FOR SL CAMP NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!! Starting this Sunday when we stay over in school omg exciting exciting!!!! Even though I don't get to go to Indonesia to replace our cancelled Yunnan trip, I think I'm okay with that cuz... I don't really want to go to Indo -.- AND OCIP ALWAYS makes last minute decisions and leaves me hanging so I made a choice to be a facil for SL Camp and I will STICK TO IT.

Long post with no pictures, hahahaha fuck la my mind is so messed up now I need sleep. I kinda hate the past few days because I keep seeing the worst in people and I can't bring myself to even pretend to be nice and sociable and put on a front anymore. I doubt you really want to keep acting out this show which is getting seriously seriously old, and I cannot stand it because it is so absurdly fake and unreal and I want to slap myself for being so utterly hypocritical. I'm showing my dislike towards you more and more obviously and to more people and although it's more truthful.... I don't think it's the best thing I should be doing. The reason why I feel so possessive over my friends is because I need that constant in my life and I need to know that there will be people there I can count on. You have no idea how much I need that, really. I need new ALLIES harhar.

My nails feel fragile when bare ):

Friday was reallllly crappy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Because I woke up with my WHOLE BODY ITCHING AND RASH INFESTED!!!! Took a shower and like it kinda went down?? Was late to school, had to be there at 730am ok WTF. Macs breakfast with Gracie and Yiguan after meeting with Mrs Loke. Then back to school with Yiguan cuz I had to meet Raylia for SL Camp stuff. Waited around in school to kill time then went back to Bedok to meet HC for lunch. BACK TO SCHOOL AGAIN for OGL interviews and from here on my stupid rash started again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Left early and took another shower at home. Powdered myself very generously and tried to sleep hoping the itch + rash would subside BUT IT GOT WORSE and every time any part of my body had contact with ANYTHING it would start itching, almost hurting, LIKE MAD. Went to the doctor where I got a jab omg it was a LIFESAVER seriously!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I was scratching off my skin!! Slept considerably early at 9pm.

SLCamp recee trip yesterday! Woke up feeling much better so went to meet the SportsExcel + HC people at Changi haha was late what's new. Played some icebreaker games and tried out the activities and stuff. I like!! It was fun (: Went for lunch then made our way to Old Changi Hospital to check out the area and set up some stuff. Went to Pulau Ubin and we set up small fires OMG ME + BRANDON + SHAWN'S fire TOTALLY ROCKED HAHAHAHAHA. It was the best fire I have ever set up after 2 Outward Bound trips and 2 HC camps ok!! Hahahahaha. Had the brilliant idea of throwing the leftover waterbombs at the HOT embers/ashes to extinguish them fully, got the HOT embers/ashes splattered on my legs/shirt/bag, Kangwei and Shawn also kena UGGGHHHHHHH.

Cleaned up with wet wipes and tissues and the very limited water supply. Then played more games haha fun! (: Dinner back at Changi then offfff to OCH we went! It wasn't soooo scary I think most of the fear was in our mind as we walked up the very dark and empty and looooooong road to OCH itself haha. Got dismissed from there, took bus 29 for 2 stops back to the terminal DAMN GOOD IDEA SERIOUSLY my feet were damn sore!!! Waited for bus 2 and went home.

Today- uh rotted at home the whole day. Baked coffee cake and I think it's nice but just too soft/dense/wet sigh. Just removed my nail polish, upset!!!!!!! ): I think today was a relatively good day because I spent it bookmarking new websites full of cute things and inspirational quotes and funny stuff!!! (: Oh and new music too yay! Mummy brought home soup from The Soup Spoon so I had that today yumz. I shall now watch HIMYM and maybe sleep early because tomorrow is the first day of SL Congress!!!!!!!!

AND trip with Yiguan is soooo confirmed we just need to find a cheap place to go YAY!

Hard to explain

I dunno how to put in words the extreme irritation that I feel. Well, I don't know how to put it in subtle words anyway. Because you irritate me stop acting like you know more/better than me. If we're supposed to be FRIENDS and we're supposed to WORK together you better stop your asinine (woah big word) behaviour. I feel so scared/shocked/appalled when I think about how selfish you really are, and then it doesn't surprise me anymore that you 2 are good friends because deep down you're both equally self centred and think the most of yourselves when honestly, you're not that great. Thank you Yiguan, Calvin, Chenyin, Vi.

Had a somewhat good today today! Went over to Calvin's house at about 12 and we played Guitar Hero. :D I damn good to him k I not only contributed to his dinner last night but I brought over samosas and Shepherd's pie also cuz his house no food!!!!!! And his dad ROCKS cuz last night after eating the oxtail stew the FIRST THING he said was to tell Calvin "You better msg Mag now." "For what?" "Tell her the tomatoes nice" HAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Calvin was being a lazy pig please read his blog I guestblogged! HaHHhahah. Went to Simpang to eat with Marcussss as well. Marcus damn retarded he kept saying how he was going to be in Milo cartons and H2O bottles one day then very famous and something something AIYAH MAD ONE. Mummy picked us up and sent us to school. Went for OCIP meeting with Gracie and Yiguan, had to write down our feelings and I filled the whole page cuz I got damn alot to say. Went for OGL interviews which were............................ Disappointing? I mean come on, expecting potential Delta OGLs to at least know a Delta cheer is not asking too much right?

Mummy picked me and Calvin up again then sent him home, rushed home to shower change get ready and made my way down to City Hall. Very glad that my shiny pink YSL lipstick and lipgloss got attention HAHAHAHAH!!! Met Jolene just as she was leaving ): Then went to find Han Le and meet Chenyin/Lynn/Rachel/Charis/Mel/Justina at Sushi Tei. Dinner was good, but the after dinner conversation even better ;)

Was dying in my heels but got some Yoguru and me, Chenyin, Han Le, Rachel, Lynn walked to some random place and continued taking pictures haha. Train home and I stepped on some poor guy's toe with my heel like OMG I can imagine how much it hurts ok I felt damn bad.!! Chenyin's reaction: Eh Mag, maybe he will ask you for your number?? He not bad looking, give him a chance la. AIYOOOOO. Finally reached home and told Mummy and the first thing she said was also "Did you get his number?" WALAU HALF ASLEEP ALSO SAY THIS SORT OF THING buay tahan.

Not gonna watch HIMYM tonight cuz I'm tired already and tomorrow's an early day cuz our OCIP team has to meet Mrs Loke. I. WANT. MY. OPPORTUNITIES. BACK. Well, gonna be a SLCamp facilitator anyway, should be fun!! More OGL interviews tomorrow, but I don't know what's going to happen other than it's going to be "better". Wow, descriptive much? I KNOW A LOT MORE NOW THANKS FOR FILLING ME IN.

Congress briefing today then dinner at Siglap after that. I am very happy cuz Calvin msged me to say "The stew nice! My dad says its all because of your tomatoes (:" HAHAHAHA I LIKE CALVIN'S DAD HE RECOGNISED MY(Okay and Ryan's) EFFORT IN PICKING THE TOMATOES AND ALWAYS SEND ME HOME SOMEMORE YAY!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDD

OCIP meeting tomorrow but it's probably going to be a waste of time considering we're no longer going to Yunnan -.- But Dress Up and Be Pretty and Take Pictures day with 04/09 girrrrrrrls tomorrow! :D Must rush though sigh okay and I got nothing to wear wow yay best (Y)

Going to watch HIMYM now and like die/rot or something. I am hungry.

OI HAOPU MY DAYS NOT INTERESTING ENOUGH FOR YOU LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY BLOG BORING GO AND DIE!!!!!

ANYWAY,

From,

MS TITANS

WASTED OPPORTUNITIES

Our Garnier 16 Skin Tone Search pictures are up on FB!! I entered mine in the contest already HAHA WTF RIGHT. Please vote here!!! You can only vote once a day so every 24 hours MUST VOTE OK. :D

YESTERDAY MARKED THE END OF PW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you imagine a HUGE burden lifted off your back??? Omg. Went to Popeye's at T3 with awesome 04/09!!!! :D Then went to watch planes fly hahaha and took pictures and stuff yay I like my class ^^ (With the exception of a certain few ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!)

Took a bus down to Tampines with Rachel and Chenyin after that. Rachel went home and me and Chenyin went to find Ryan and Yijunnnn. Walked around and they had to accompany me trying on damn alot of nail polish at Chanel/Watsons/Face Shop. Ended up buying 3 different colours at Face Shop but only after trying on one of the colours on RYAN'S nail because I ran out of nails on my hands hehehehe :D

Went over to Rachel's house and watched a horrible old vcd of Mulan hahaha. Calvin came over and promptly fell asleep while we watched Evan Almighty!! Actually me and Chenyin fell asleep too hehe. Dinner with Ryan and Calvinnnn at Yoshinoya. RYAN YOU BETTER SAY THAT MY EYES SPARKLE WHEN I LOOK AT YOU HOR ********** Hahahaha. Went to buy tomatoes and oxtail for Calvin's dad and he gave me a ride home yay. I told him that if his oxtail stew turns out good it's because I chose the tomatoes and therefore contributed to a part of it!!! HAHAHA. :D Yay. Calvin now has a black cat guarding his CUPCAKE hahahHAHAHHhahahahahHAHHAH. :D

I am damn fucking angry now because our Yunnan trip is cancelled and you know how much TIME/MONEY/OPPORTUNITIES I GAVE UP FOR IT? I didn't sign up for TIP, I rejected Sports Internship even though Mr Loh recommended ME for it, we could have gone to US earlier and therefore gotten cheaper tickets, I spent FUCKING ALOT OF MONEY paying for STUPID SHIT for the Yunnan trip, Mummy already bought 3 bottles of dry shampoo for me and my team. OMG WTF LA I WANT BACK THE INTERNSHIPS THAT I GAVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!! ADDITIONAL REPORTING FOR SEA GAMES HELLO???????????????????????????? OMG THIS IS SO FUCKED UP IN WAYS YOU CANNOT IMAGINE OK IT REALLY SUCKS. LIKE REALLY WTF AND YOU FORCE ME TO WRITE YOU REFLECTIONS AND SPEND MY WHOLE SATURDAY ARGUING ON OUR DIFFERENT BELIEFS OF WHAT YUNNAN IS LIKE AND GOING TO ACM WHEN ALL I WANT TO DO IS SLEEP LIKE REALLY THANKS SCHOOL. 1 WEEK BEFORE THE TRIP AND YOU SUDDENLY CANCEL IT. THANKS, THANKS ALOT!!!!!!!!! OH AND OUR 500 BUCKS DEPOSIT AS WELL.

UGH FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yiguan (^^)V says:

*IM SO AMUSED BY HER SHE MADE MY DAY CAUSE I WAS SO BORED ROTTING AT HOME!!! HAHAHAHAH (Y)(Y)(Y)

I LOVE THIS, SHE IS SO MENTAL IT IS HILARIOUS RIGHT GRACIE AND YIGUAN???

:D

Just presented my OP over webcam to Calvin and Yiguan. I am damn fucking scared now cuz my presentation's not completely smooth.

COME ON MAG.

FULL MARKS FOR OP!!!!!!!!!!

I'm surprised no one has told you that you are perfect

Forgot to mention that when we went to Cine, there was some roadshow outside for Garnier 16 Skin Tone Search and me, Grace and Yiguan all joined!!!!!! HAHAHAHA. So right, once the pictures are up on FB I'm going to enter them in the contest and you all must vote OKAY!!!!!!!

hahahahahHAHAHAHAH.

OK so today I picked up my passport early in the morning and I think I look very sickly in my passport photo hahahaha but whatever it's only going to last me 5 years 9 months right???? Back to school for some OP LOVIN'. Our whole class was there we damn bonded (L) I rehearsed twice and I can only pray/hope/beg that it's enough for tomorrow. I really really want to ACE OP please please please. After tomorrow, our class is going for SWENSONS!!! And I'm going to give up my M'sia manicure to bond with my class OK.

Tried tying up my hair just now, in preparation for tomorrow. MAJOR FAIL OK IT LOOKS MESSIER THAN IF I DON'T TIE UP. So now I don't know what to do????? ): Please don't make me gel my hair because we're going out after that and I'm bringing 3 cameras and I don't want to look like crap!!! ): And Meredith just went off to OBS today so she cannot help me do my hair ): Wah she quite unlucky cuz she kena St Pat's people in her group so she very unhappy. She say they all very skinny, skinnier than her and look like cannot kayak one. I tell her to find the person that looks like got most muscle and CHOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wah, good advice from her older sister ;)

Anyway now I'm really quite nervous I think. Today was a much better presentation than usual cuz I really referred to my cue cards very little considering we just changed conclusion yesterday and I haven't memorised everything yet.... BUT IF TOMORROW I STRESS I SURE BLANK AND MY VOICE CHANGE. THEN HOW???? And please don't let me sound like a newscaster tomorrow I hate sounding like a newscaster. Please don't give me any awkward phrasing tomorrow as I try to put my words into sentences ):

SHALL REHEARSE NOW. AND SLEEP EARLY. BUT TONIGHT GOT CRIMINAL MINDS LA FUCK.

Limon

OP overload for the past few days, I need to conserve traditional games MY VOICE!! Hahahaha. OCIP meeting on Friday, Calvin stayed back with us and then Mummy sent us home. He gave us a bottle of MAPLE SYRUP FROM CANADA so he is now +1000 points in Meredith's eyes haha wtf. Went for Robinson's Expo sale and I'm damn freaking sad cuz I really wanted Steve Madden shoes but all don't have my size!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -Depressed.

BUT I got a YSL lipstick (WTF the colour damn fucking pretty!) and new nail polish ;)))) Hehehehe. Met Randi and she looks damn cute can why did I have to meet her while in school uniform + hair pushed up = looking retarded. Sigh. LIFE SUCKS. Gracie and Yiguan FELL ASLEEP instead of planning our day out the next day ok AND GRACE HAD A DAMN IMPORTANT ROLE OF PICKING MOVIE SOME MORE!!! Lousy leaders ok what is this WHAT IS THIS!!!! Anyway me and Limeng demonstrated our wonderful leadership skills instead and decided on a plan for the next day!!!

Met Gracie and Yiguan at Wisma then bought tickets for "Paranormal Activity" HAHAHAHAHAH. Chilled at Frolick, Peach yoghurt + Frosty pebbles!!!!!!!!! Sat there talking and slacking and rotting until Limeng came and we teased him somemore about I dunno what haha. Went for our movie and Limeng damn not happy that we missed the trailers BUT IT WASN'T MY FAULT the snack queue damn long! Anyway the movie was uh hahaha ask me and I will tell you hahahahaha.

Made our way down to Limon and had a damn good dinner, thanks Meng!! (: Acted damn like "this is normal we totally do this everyday" and ordered ALL the desserts on the menu BUT FAILED cuz they were sold out of Yiguan's "exotic" dessert and some other stuff. ): Anyway it was still good!!! Left at about 10plus, walked past a Chanel counter and painted every finger on my right hand a different colour. OMG THE NEW COLOURS ARE SO FUCKING PRETTY???? From thumb to pinkie, Imperial, Dragon, Coromandel (really bad picture but the colour is awesome Gracie and Yiguan like it too!!), Fantastic and Lotus Rouge. Sigggghhh I really want all of them the colours are daaaaaaaaaaaamn nice wtf!!!! I really really really want Jade as well but it's like sold out EVERYWHERE nooooOOoOoOoo.

(Rachel and Calvin STOP THINKING I AM MAD!!!!!!!)

Just had PW, it was okay since we're meeting again tomorrow! I have HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER episodes from Mel yay tonight got things to watch!!!!!

Irresponsible Fucker

I am a damn angsty kid now la wtf it's damn not cool.

Fucked up group member like wtf you think you brain dead we not ah fucking hell you just leave without asking if there's anything we're doing or need to do which is ALOT btw since we're like redoing our slides now. Bastard ask you to memorise things and be prepared also like I asking too much wtf wtf wtf wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I'm damn troubled I don't want to meet the KI teachers tomorrow walau walau wtf la!!! I hate this seriously. I hate feeling like every decision I make now will affect my future and what I want to do and I have all this pressure on myself to better be eligible for Law but I think I'm the one making myself most unhappy wtf Mag WTF.

I need to sleep but I'm going to stay awake till Han Le finishes our teaching package design. And I will try helping Mel with presentation. WE CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!

Cupcakes were well received today (Y) Happy because they were good, but I'M NOT GOING TO MAKE THEM AGAIN IN THE NEAR FUTURE CUZ BUTTERCREAM IS FUCKING MESSY AND SMELLY. If I froze yesterday's batch of buttercream I could make the cake again today but I threw it all away haha so ok bye.

Things I love

SJC leadership forum today! I thought it was quite good but I wish we had more time for the breakout sessioooonnn. YUAN SONG DAMN FUNNY SERIOUSLY. He asked me if I was going to sign up for YOG next year if we can, then Jiehui #1 Liar tell him "She don't need sign up she's already inside." Then he give me the damn :O face and ask me "You're an athlete? What sport?" HAHAHAHAHAHAH BEST BEST BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVEN BETTER THAN SAKSHI BELIEVING I SET RECORD FOR 5KM OK HAHA.

Back to school at about 2, went to get Maltesers and walked around opposite waiting for Calvin's photos to get printed. PW after that, Mr Fazli says I need to smile more!!! Wah seriously I thought I smile alot leh hahahaha. Bus home with Rachel (L) I miss you Rachel when are we going out!!!

Came home and ate HOME MADE JIAO ZI which Mummy made for me yumyumz. Frosted the cupcakes with chocolate buttercream and crushed the Maltesers to put on top. No recipe for the chocolate buttercream cuz I anyhow tikam make hahahaha. Which is why I had about half the bowl of it left -.- Took damn long cleaning the kitchen cuz Mummy hates the butter smell so I had to mop the floor wipe the counter boil water to pour around the sink etc.

My throat is very irritated and the water chestnut drink doesn't seem to be helping. I want barley and/or liang teh. >:[ I want the Pioneer Woman's cookbook. >:[ I want another lomo cam hahahah I want a quad-cam this time!!!! Hehehehehehehehe. I also like the robot 3 lens cam and it's on sale now wtf I want I want I want but I cannot buy cuz I cannot spend money before I go US ): OMG THIS SUCKS I WANT ITTTTTTTTT.

I'm so spoilt brat omg.

Honey honey, how you kill me

Making this nowwwwww. Made it into cupcakes instead and I'm contemplating whether I should frost them now or not + should I bring them to school tomorrow because tomorrow is the SJC leadership thing and I'm going to be out of school until about 12.

Uggghhh and I have no Maltesers howwww!!!!!!!!!!! )))): OK I shall frost them tomorrow instead of today and buy Maltesers tomorrow and bring them on Wednesday!!! Faye is now my daughter on FB haha. Omg my post makes no sense I'm not speaking in proper prose.

OK I am not in the right frame of mind to blog haha my nails are too long I need to cut them!!!!!!! I also need a shower but Criminal Minds is in 5 minutes I cannot shower so fast haha.

I am so pathetic and vulnerable right now.

Shall sleep it off.

):

I'm afraid to sleep because I'm scared I'll miss you.

I will get over this.

Gracie you know the meaning of the picture haha.

I'm sorry I can't be an idealistic person.

It is not me it is not me it is not me.

It is ingrained in my very being to not fantasize and imagine and believe things that will never happen because it always

always

always

ends in hurt.

What use am I as a heap on the floor

FINE I SHALL BLOG HAHAHAHA I FORGOT WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I BLOGGED............

OK Monday.

Tuesday/Wednesday= PW PW PW PW PW PW Hahahahaha.

Thursday was WR day because WR final submission was on Friday so the whole day I was cutting down words from WR, cutting and reading and cutting again and reading again then suddenly add and then read again and cut again.......................... AT 7PM we met Ms Yanti and we had to change the whole strengths of our project I nearly had a nervous breakdown thank you to Han Le and Mel for telling me to "CALM DOWN MAG WE CAN DO THIS" and we did it we did it!!! Stayed in school until 10pm waiting for all the other PW groups to get their WRs printed and bound so the Zap! Uncle and auntie could open the gate for us. Played Musical Chairs while waiting, hehe love TA!!! Impressed Mr Seng on this day with my excellent Oral Presentation skills ;) HAHAHAHA.

Friday was WR SUBMISSION omg we had to change one page like STRESS!!! But it was okay. OP after school then ummmMMMMmmm Mummy picked me up and we went to Katong area to find containers haha and I cut my hair while waiting for Meredith and Ling to finish school and I HATE it but I will survive. Picked them up then we went to eat.

Saturday was OCIP day haha. Had leadership stuff in the morning, then off to the ACM we went! Verrrrrrrrry tired throughout but was perked up at the end because me, Yiguan and Limeng went to Bugis and had a very value for money dinner at Billy Bombers because it was 1 for 1!! Hehehehe. Train-ed home with them and I think that our trip to Yunnan will be a-okay (: Limeng told me "don't be a war-monger ah Mag" hahahaha. And next Saturday shall be day again with Yiguan/Gracie and LIMENG who is treating us to dinner yay!!!!!!!!!! :DDDD

Today, got woken up at 6am by Nicholas calling me to switch off my computer and lights because I fell asleep in front of the computer and he knew that how? Because I was still online at 6am haha. Switched off my computer because Mummy already switched my lights off for me, then fell back asleep till about 11. Showered and stuff, sent Meredith Magdalene Ong to church because it's her confirmation today! I think her catechist is quite good looking is that wrong??? HAHAHAHAHA. Me and Ling had a good long chat during mass, I'm sorry we weren't supposed to be doing such things but at least our talk was meaningful and about our future and stuffzz!!!!

Dinner at Hong Kong Cafe, then Durian+Soursop+Belgium Chocolate ice cream from Ice Cream Gallery after yumyumyumzzzzzz!!!!! Spent the rest of the night converting videos to add into my ipod. I AM SO READY FOR YUNNAN GRACIE HAVE YOU STARTED LOADING UP YOUR IPOD YET???? Very scared to start packing though, the list is overwhelming it's like OBM x 10000!!!

Reading love stories and I feel the sinking feeling inside my stomach again................................. ):