OMG ONE MONTH

Ok I'm sorry la!!!! It's been like one month since I last blogged like O.M.G. The longest I ever went was a few weeks only lor!! I think. Ok la sorry this time no pictures. I actually have many pictures but I want to sleep relatively early tonight so NOOOO pictures.

Spent Anti-Vday with Rachel yesterday! (: She called me up at about 10 and woke me up, told her to come over at 12. And she came over bearing bubble tea HAHA. :D :D Ate pasta then Mummy fetched us over to Epark where we spent our vday doing what we do best. Watching Taiwanese dramas (I got the 命中注定我爱你 dvd for only 15 bucks!!!), eating, talking, squealing, me laughing at Rachel cuz she cries at stupid parts, eating more, complaining about our full belly, then eat some more. Our picnic ideas and all were a failure but whateverrrrr. Vday is commercialised anyway, RIGHT RACH. (: Mummy sent her home after we went to Changi Village in search of more food like harhar how smart right. Anyway, luvu Rachel thanks for yknow, being there, and spending vday with me!! Even though our date damn unhappeningzzzz but everywhere crowded whaaaaaat. Hahaha. (: Oh and to you too, my dear gf Vi. Happy Vday and hope you had a good one (: (L)

Baked Strawberry Cupcakes with Strawberry Frosting to give out on friday. They looked damn bloody muthapretty ok!!!!!!!!!!! I thought they were too sweet but they were well received so yay! (: Today I baked some Chocolate Chip Oatmeal Cookies which were epic FAIL. Probably cuz I didn't really follow the recipe (14 tablespoons of butter wtf?! How to measure!), and anyhow put in until it seemed right. Tastewise it's kind of sweet but not too bad, texture is just off. It like, melted. So it's flat now. Omg I want to give up on baking ): NO I WILL NOT LA PLS. Going to give the cookies out tomorrow, hopefully they'll still be eaten haha. Also decided today that I don't want to bake for Vday anymore unless I have a special someone which is probably never going to happen in the near future because 1) I'm too chor lor = Boys don't think of me as a girl sigh. 2) I am fat. 3) Next year A levels don't play play ah. 4) I got high standards (Don't laugh at me la, I can hear you thinking "this girl ah, no one want her already still dare to criticize). Mummy say I cannot go for any fish seller's son hor. 5) I talk like ah lian, act like minah.

Walau eh cmi la this whole post I sound so horrible like dunno how to speak engrish. Die already la who want you huh Mag. Friday was also Road Run. Jumped/Screamed my voice hoarse. But yknow, because life is unfair like that, Delta only won first for our Boys team 1. Not that I'm looking down on that achievement but sometimes life is seriously fucked up !!!! Had no mood to go out with my beloved OG4 after that, sad lonely person. After orientation, my voice hasn't fully recovered so now I have like, no voice. Oh yeah Orientation, omg I shouted until no more voice, causing Jason to comment that I sounded like a sick dog la thanks ah Jason. Ok I am damn lazy to post photos here because I already spent dunno how much time uploading them on FB. Ok FB links here ah.

Day 1
Day 2
Day 3 Part 1
Day 3 Part 2
Day 4 Part 1
Day 4 Part 2
Day 4 Part 3

Ok la I know don't have Day 5 pics but you know me ah, short attention span. Day 5 I got damn bloody alot of photos I don't dare to sort out hahahahahahaha. Omg today I really cannot talk properly I sound like I'm drunk or something (stupid lousy Margarita) walau ey Mag, like that how to get A for KI, how to fight for Ivy League place, how to be lawyer. I feel like I'm not doing enough for my future/ I haven't started early enough/ It is too late/ I am going to fail. Don't want to feel like this la. At the same time, going through people's Vday pictures like some pathetic lovestarved fool/stalker is making me feel strangely inadequate and unappreciated and unloved and I wish I was closer to more people. Not forgetting any of my friends now I just wish I had someone special. But also not forgetting the fact that me and Jo are on the path to recovery (we sound like we are recovering addicts siaaaaa), and that I am very happy about that heeexxxx. Usually don't post such stuff on blogspot but since I'm in such a crazed drugged drunk weird mood now might as well let everything come out. ajdkhasudhaskjdnajkhdajhda at the same time I also hate the fact that you treat me like shit when you're feeling stressed. I sometimes feel like I'm betraying you when I have to hear about people talk bad about you behind your back and even worse when I find that I agree with them but when you do this shit to me, or really, just treat me as if I'm not worth nothing, I feel like you deserve it and I don't want to feel like that, so DON'T make me feel like that.

If you just read through this whole post that scarcely made sense because I am writing this with the least semblence of sanity I have left in my head and that sentence sounded like nonsense/ like me trying to sound very pro in engrish but failing. Anywayz give yourself a pat on your back if you just read through this because yknow, I know many of you have been yearning for my daily ramblings anyway. NAH, I GIVE YOU.

First proper day of school tomorrow, first proper day because we have an actual timetable with tutorials and shit. Not looking forward to it even though I am hophophappy excited about my subject combi. I dislike JC life and lectures and shit because I like my small TA cohort, I like the people I'm comfortable with but at the same time I like to meet/make new friends and I used / too many times in this post let me use it a few more times. //////////

Double KI period tomorrow, go Mag! I need to stop being so f-ing shallow about everything and always thinking I'm right. Someday I will realise that no one is obligated to like me and I better start doing something in order to be likeable. Suxxxxxx why do I want to die/sleep now.

P.S. Sorry I said so much crap in this whole blogpost and not blogging for so long. Actually I really wanted to blog la but you know, I was damn bloody tired everyday and just sort of gave up on blogging. Sorry. Luv you all still.

P.P.S. This whole post is so nonsense that maybe tomorrow I will come to my senses and delete everything, leaving you, Chenyin, with "Here we go again".