The past haunting you!! HAHAA.

Haha I haven't updated in forever and Grace is complaining about seeing Chenyin's face all the time HAHAHAHA. :D I give you 2 new people to stare at!

Ok from last Friday- Dance Fareweeeeelll. It turned out smooth, got annoyed at some irresponsiblity towards other's belongings at the start but was okay after that! Speeches from the seniors were very sad but I kinda blocked it all out so I didn't get affected too much. I..... am undeserving. Bus home with Rachel after that, yay I really miss Rachel alot ))))):

Saturday, AYG Integrated Training thingy at Bishan Stadium, went to Ah ma's house after that then to the airport to see Aunty Linda/Aunty Vivien/Tua Kim/Tua Ku off to London!!! Omg lucky... ): Saw a little kid and Aunty Linda was like "So cutee... MAG WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO HAVE A KID" Walau eh am I the sole producing heir of this family or something?!?! I AM NOT A SOW!!!!!

Forgot what I did on Sunday. Uh. Hahaha. Oh, nothing hahahaa. Ok MONDAY!!!! Went out with SarahBarah who was SUPER late ok she damn irritating! We were supposed to meet at 4, and at like 345 I msged her asking where she was, she says "Don't kill me, Pasir Ris." SARAH!!! Hahaha. Anyway, went to Lido first and met Gracie, Joleneney and Kor Woong! They were there studying so I disturbed them for abit haha then went to get tickets for... HANNAH MONTANA!!! :D :D :D THEY ALL KEPT LAUGHING AT ME OK. During the movie me and Sarah were like "WOAAAAH OMG OMG!!!" Ok maybe me la but omg!!! Hahahaha. I came out telling Grace and KW about the cute boy and they were like "Omg Mag..." THEN I TOLD THEM WHO THE BOY WAS AND THEY ARE NOW DAMN EXCITED TO WATCH THE MOVIE OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!! Hurhur!!!!

Went to Far East for Sarah to get her Chippys, walked around looking at shoes and saw wonderful Vans!!!! (: (: (: So intent on getting them, so I took a picture to show Mummy hahahaa. Went to Orchard Towers for Sarah to take her passport photo, and we saw like, you know, the uh not so decent people hahaha. One guy and 3 girls getting into a cab together ok, they SURELY went to just play cards in Hotel 81!!! Sarah was so amused hahaha. Home after thaaat and omg my sense of direction is SOOO shit. I thought I was being very smart by getting off at Raffles City and then crossing over to take the green line back right? So higher chances of getting a seat. BUT NOO, WHEN YOU GET OFF AT RAFFLES CITY AND CROSS OVER, THE EAST WEST LINE ISN'T TOWARDS PASIR RIS. Omg and I was like damn not alert by then and then the next stop was Tanjong Pagar and I'm like EH?!?! Hahaha got on to the CORRECT train and still didn't get a seat -.- Grr!!!

Yesterday was my day to meet many many people I was very happy! (: HC meeting early in the morning at Bedok Macs. Took a train with Vanessa to Aljunied, where I had to wait for CHAN LILY because she only woke up at 11!!! Hahaha. Went to Far East to get my VANS omg so exciting!!!! But embarrassing much omg seriously.

I wanted to pay with my NETS right, and my card got declined, 3 TIMES. I was like O.O and mentioned that if I didn't have enough money in my NETS I would just die la. So Liwen offered to pay for me first, and her card also got declined so I was like "PHEW it's the machine not me!!" Anyway so Liwen paid with her other card first, and we went down to withdraw money so I could pay her back. Tried withdrawing 90bucks, CANNOT, INSUFFICIENT FUNDS. I'm like OMG WHAT?!?!?!?!?! Then I checked balance and I only had $80.47 left how WTF right. Tried to withdraw the 80 also cannot! Only can withdraw 50!!! D: D: D: So now I still owe Liwen 39 dollars hahahahahaaha. Kns. BUT MY SHOES ARE SO WORTH IT REALLY!!!!!!!! Hahaha.

Met Afiqah after that. That retarded girl slept at 530 watching Family Guy, called Liwen at 11 to wake her up, THEN WENT BACK TO SLEEP HAHA. Ok went to Starbucks to studyyyyy. I'm seriously not in the mood to study at all ok I was reading History and going like "omg wtf this is retarded....." Then I think I distracted them or something haha and we got our mp3s into a tangle trying to listen to different songs, listened to AFIQAH'S FAVOURITE SONG, played Touch Hockey/Tap Tap/Touch of War ahhahaha omg fun. OK but I highlighted SOME paragraphs in my notes.. Some. Went to change into uniform and they accompanied me down to Outram trying to find the ever elusive BABA HOUSE.

Omg it was so retarded ok damn hard to find la!! We walked rounds trying to find stupid 157 Neil Road, met Edwin on the way then Melissa came out to find us hahahaha. Afiqah and Liwen left to watch MOVIE ^^ Hahahahaha omg funny like pangsai.

Baba House tour was.... DAMN IRRITATING. But I cannot say more because the woman helped us with our interview and stuff hurhurhurhurhurhur!!! After that, went to Outram with Edwin and I went into the same train as him even though he was going to Chinatown and I was going to the airport. So I walked in and was like "EH WAIT. OUTRAM GOT GREEN LINE WHAT AM I DOING HERE?!" Hahahaha. So I ran out and he shouted LOUDLY "MAG YOU GOT INTO THE WRONG TRAIN AH?" Omg thanks Edwin damn embarrassing!!!! Hahahaha.

Went to airport to meet my beloved Rachel!!! (: (: (: (: (: We went to Popeye's for dinner and then sat and talked talked talked! We didn't take pictures but I (L) our talks Rachelbangsmag! (: Miss you alotalotalot, love youuuu! (: :D (: :D Haha. Mummy came to pick us up and gave her a ride homeeee. :D

Was about to sleep alr then Meredith came into my room last night switching my light on and going "MAG DON'T SLEEP LEH I CANNOT SLEEP" Thanks ah. She slept on the floor next to me last night -.- Haha.

Todayyyyyyyy Chenyin and Yijun came over to study!!! Hahaha I think my house + me is worst combination ever to study la. I couldn't get myself to study and I think I kept distracting them ooops. BUT I got to spend time with them yay!!! I got to see all my favourite people during the holidays very happy! Although very little time but it's still worth something ok! All except CALVINENG who I could only accompany him for lunch then rush back to school for Dance farewell hahahha because he damn irritating he forever no time for ME hahaha >:[

Ok anyway, while they were studying, my WII came!!!!!! OMG WII!!!! WII!!
Superduper happy la omg hurry tried to set it up and got tangled in wires hahhaha but yay thanks to Yijun's help also we got it set up correctly! Hahaha. They left soon after that though ): After they lefttttt, me and Meredith played omg damn fun! HAHAHAHA. Don't have COOKING MAMA yet but will get it soon cannot wait cannot wait!

Ok pictures! Get ready for (another) OVERDOSE of Tan Chen Yin because she said she had to make up for all her ugly photos in the previous post!!!!








Yijun was supposed to be the monster on his shirt.
Clubbing girl picture! HAHAHA.






"Save meeee..."
PIGS.


Even though I look gross and fat and big here, PROOF THAT I STUDIED! SOMEWHAT!!
Chenyin.............







WII WII WII!


Trying to set it up and me clutching all my FATSSSS HAHAHA.






Evidence that Yijun bullies Chenyin.
My face is SOOO round omg.

They just left and decided to call up the house again cuz they, okay Chenyin, wanted me to take a picture of the screen cuz they think very cool.



OK END OF TOO LONG POST HAHA. There is a absurdly huge number of Dance farewell pictures so I refuse to upload them. Hahahaha.

Guess who is now part of TJC Guitar Ensemble's Treasurer Family?????

Chenyin!!! Yaaaay my favourite people are all in Exco, AND TREASURERS SOME MORE HAHAHAHA.

Yesterday was our GA2 outing! Only went for a short while though cuz we had family dinner....... Met Liwen on the train, "Eh stick your head out again!" Haha. She ate Yoshinoya and we talked! She showed me the little bottles of HAND SANITISER and MOUTHWASH she carries in her bag omg damn paranoid one!! Haha. Must be cuz IRAQ very dirty right! Bomb everywhere MUST WIPE OFF FINGERPRINTS HAHA. Ok damn lame shut up Mag.

Went up to GV and we were the earliest! Then Yang Shen and Jolynn came and we waited. And waited. Until...... everyone else came and I cannot remember who haha. Damn. Watched Terminatorrrrrrrrr! After the movie, met Afiqah! Took a group picture than I had to leave, sigh. Dinner at Chin Lee because Tua Kim and Tua Gu are in Singaporeeee.



Today Chenyin and Vivian came over to bake!!! Met them at Phoon Huat where we got our stuffzzzssss. Then went to NTUC where HAAGEN DAZ NOW GOT OFFER KNS!!!! Hahaha but I got another 2 tubs of Ben and Jerry's in the fridge, Chunky Monkey and Chocolate Fudge Brownie, yum :D OK we baked Strawberry cupcakes which turned out differently from what we expected but they're still not bad! (: We watched Wild Child and 命中注定我爱你. Mummy baked a fruitcake for Chenyin's Mum, and chocolate muffins as well. All of which Chen Qianyun took home! Fun funnnn!

Ok I need to repaint my nails because the colour is like chipping terribly. Meredith's going on a cruise with Beryl tomorrow, lucky ass! Dance farewell is tomorrow! Ok pictures of the CUTE AND PRETTY Chenyin.

OMG ROUTER HAHA.

GA 2 (:

I have a new router at home, YAY!!!!!!!!
Which means proper internet and no more FML!!!!!!!!!
Well, less anyway ahahaha.

Dance camp today and I was really really tired and sleepy so didn't really participate much. Got abit annoyed at some things but ohwell, it was fun overall I guess, hopefully the seniors DID have fun! The games were super messy and smelly like OMG but I think I escaped the worst ones haha. Trying to upload the photos on FB now but the Java uploader thingy isn't loading!



Quote of the day omg.

Somebody(I forgot who haha): OMG DICKY YOU LOOK LIKE YOU'RE RAPING RACHEL
Dicky -rushes over to see above pictures: WHERE WHERE. Omg and the worst thing is, I'm trying to rape a GIRL.

I swear he said that ok I DIDN'T MAKE IT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My nail polish is all chipped and horrible damn! Cannot wait for tomorrow, I only hope Mummy remembers I'm going out tomorrow, if not she'll sure say something about me not studying again. Sigh. Baking on Thursday with Chenyin annnnnd Vivian! (:

Ok got nothing more to blog about cuz I'm not in a bad mood HAHAHAHA. I shall go read CHERUB now cuz I got 4 CHERUB books from the library like omg damn happy can???

Fuck you very very much.

Hearing some stuff I really don't need/want to hear. Because it makes me judge you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and I don't like to judge but honestly, any respect for you and you and you and you is gone and.

I don't know.

I mean, really. You think you know someone, but you really don't. And it scares me so, so, so, so much that I don't know the people around me and they could all be acting in front of me so one day they can tell me that they've been acting one way when they're really another and laugh in my face for being so fucking gullible and trusting.

What do I need to do just so I can trust SOMEONE/ANYONE? Other than myself? Must I really depend on myself in this world? Cuz I don't like it one bit. Or at least give me a warning so I don't think I can trust someone and then find out that I can't. I'm feeling so disgusted at you and you that I don't really know how to face you anymore because you're so different from what I expected.

(Thank you Afiqah, for letting me talk to you for the whole day even though I thought I replied but didn't haha.)

Can't want to go out with GA2 on Wednesday, like OMG I'm actually going out!?

I don't know how you can face yourself anymore.
Ice cream update: I got myself a tub of Haagen Daz Cappuccino Truffle!

FUCK MY LIFE OMG UPTIGHT MUCH?!

I'm currently very irritated cuz there's NO INTERNET IN THE HOUSE and it's not just screwed up internet ok there is NO internet. And the only reason I can get online is because we're using some highly unstable network from I don't know where. And even though I have mentioned to Uncle like 1000000 times before that our router is FUCKING SPOILT nooo he refuses to get a new one until its IRREPARABLY SPOILT and I'm the one who depends on the internet for EVERYTHING ok not just for MSN so he thinks!!!!!! I HAVE AYG ARTICLES TO SEND AND UPLOAD AND I DON'T FUCKING KNOW HOW TO USE THE WEBSITE. ANGER BOILS DEEP WITHIN ME OK.

Calvin called me up just now and I was swearing like some uncouth madwoman BECAUSE THE PHONES DON'T HAVE RECEPTION AS WELL!!!! And now Liwen thinks I'm some uptight bitch(which I readily accept)/spoilt brat(DON'T ACCEPT THIS) because I was messaging her and started swearing and giving the bat face >:[ because Mummy didn't want to buy me ice cream which I've been asking for since 2 weeks ago. WHAT MUST I DO TO GET SOME HAAGEN DAZ?!?! Fucking irritated ok I WANT ICE CREAM AND I WANT A STABLE CONNECTION TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD AND I WANT TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE TO JUST GO OUT AND NOT FOR DANCE/AYG OR ANYTHING!!!!!! And getting up to go to school tmrw at 8am, 2hrs before dance prac actually starts, just to write notes for the seniors is NOT my idea of a good time. Can't I do it later?!?! OMG I WANT TO KILL MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No I just want ice cream.
Calvin I want to go watch movie with you after dance like last year ):
Chenyin I cannot wait for Thursday ):
Rachel I want you to come over so we can talk and take rubbish pictures again ):
Sarah I want to have a sleepover with you ):

.................... Life sucks. I'm so retarded. I feel like stomping out of the house in a fit of anger and walking to the stupid petrol station to get MY OWN ICE CREAM with MY OWN MONEY because Mummy doesn't want to buy it for me cuz THERE'S NO FUCKING OFFER. I'm so going to get a tub of Haagen Daz tomorrow. Just wait. (I sound like I'm going to kill somebody.)

And I want you to stay away from the people I care about. Because I dislike having any connection to you and I don't want the people I love to even THINK about you.

FUCK!!!!!!!!!

THE STUPID ROOM FLOOR IS SO FUCKING SLIPPERY SO I ACCIDENTALLY STEPPED ON MY COMFORTER AND SLIPPED AND HIT MY SHIN BONE AGAINST THE FUCKING SHARP EDGE OF THE FUCKING BED AND NOW THERE'S A DENT IN MY LEG AND MY WHOLE FUCKING SHIN HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Angry angry angry.

SMUN was damn good because I made new friends like yay! Haha. (But then again, I made new friends at the start of this year and looked how I felt after that). Ohwell it's different haha. Being pissed of at COTE D' IVOIRE's face!!!!! And appalled at Indonesia's comments, and amused at Lebanon's animatedness and writing notes to Iraq, Philippines, talking to Brazil next to me. Omg damn freaking fun I want to write notes again!!!

I will never stop referring to them by their countries I think. But I want people to stop referring to me as BOTSWANA cuz it sounds like rubbish!!! Hahahaha. Ohwell. Found out on the first day of SMUN- Tuesday, that our GPP was APPROVED!!!!! Omg me and Edwin were damn freaking happy?1?!?!?!?!?!? Hahahaha. The internet crashing on Monday was a fucking bad sign cuz I couldn't do any preparation for SMUN the next day at all. But it was okay in the end cuz Akash helped me think of a stand hahahaha. Managed to just keep quiet the whole day ahahahaha. Except when I spoke ONCE and was already so proud of myself!!!

Social Night on Wednesday was c-c-c-razy! Music sucked but I still had fun! Hahaha. Train-ed home with Philippines Afiqah, Iraq Liwen and Myanmar Jane. Must stop referring to them by their countries!!! Next day was Plenary where I think it was super exciting hahaa. Wrote notes to Liwen and Afiqah but I think some got confiscated! :O Hahaha. Best delegates and Honourable Mentions were announced. Liberia got Best Delegate and I will forever remember him for referring to me as "The girl who wants to stab herself" Cuz I wrote a note to him saying "I HATE VOTING. -STABS SELF" Akash got Honourable mention! Fun fun, dinner out with uh 1/4 of GA2 after that! Haha. We have our very own Hiro Nakamura in our GA2 ok he's damn cute la! Hahahahaha.

I love GA2 ok I think we were the most exciting committee!!! To our chairs- Sharmeen and Yang Shen, we would not have had so much fun without them. And our dear secretariat staff, who passed on our rubbish notes and phone numbers(in some cases)- Soefie and Sakina, woohoo!!!! I'm so going to join again next year (: I already miss not going to NUS early in the morning la, been talking to Afiqah and Liwen and it's damn sad that I don't see them everyday and I don't see Brazil writing random notes on my paper saying stuff like "Whats up sexy. Your shoes are hot!!!" ):

AYG briefing this morning, supposed to start at 10 but I woke up at uh, 937 HAHAHA. Got there at about 1030 after getting lost! The whole thing ended at like 12 la with a 40 min break in between -.- Yuan Song's dad gave me a ride home, he is da bomb ok! He drove over to Kallang from Simpang just to pick us up and gave me a ride back home to Simei even though they stay in Bedok! :D Went to Tampines 1 for some Frolick and Bakerzin action YUMYUMYUMYUM. Ate damn alot la. Then back home where Bernard was having a BBQ downstairs to celebrate his Dad's birthday so I brought down the cake Yiyi asked Mummy to make, and then got coerced into staying to eat more!! Hahaha. Talked to Bernard until about 11, accompanied him so he didn't have to help clear up! HAHA. Then went back with more food for Mummy -.-

UGH MY LEG STILL HURTS AND I GOT NO PICTURES CUZ IM TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD THEM INTO THE COM.
Actually got pictures la but they're damn ugly ones of Me, Chenyin, and Rachel which we took during Econs lesson. Damn fugly omg Hahahahah!!!!

This week is going to be a busy week again ): Sigh. But baking date with Chenyin on Thursday!!!! :D :D :D :D Yay Qianyun wo hen xiang nian ni! (:

Damn tired now!!!!!!

SMUN from Tues to Thurs and I have to say something.

I SURVIVED ALL 3 DAYS WITHOUT DOING ANY RESEARCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not anything to be proud of and I would probably have enjoyed myself more if I had more to say ): But! It was good enough and I really had fun. Made friends with Brazil, Iraq, Philippines they all mad one k!!!!!! Ok la I only suddenly mention them cuz they reading my blog hor LIWEN/FISHBONE/IRAQ AND PHILIPPINES/AFIQAH!!!

Ok I'm quite tired actually but I'm being a very good stalker now so I shall continue reading blogs. Post PROPERLY about SMUN, some other time heh.

People are scary.

Haha unglam picture hahahahaha.

I feel so scared at the thought that the people who I thought I knew, I don't know at all. Recent events and behaviour have just made me reflect on who I trust and I feel like I'm starting to push people away yet trying my bestest to get closer, to some. I guess making new friends is good and all, but that equals new "friends", new friends, new enemies, new people to trust, new people not to trust, and new people to bring out the best/worst in others. I don't think I'm making much sense but I'm feeling somewhat upset that I haven't been the best judge of character and times like these I remember what Mummy said and constantly remind myself to listen to Mummy. But then I don't want to listen to her either because it means I make wrong choices. Life is complicated people have multiple faces and I hate it that I'm so critical of others now.

Need to take sometime to look at myself, deep, deep into myself because if I were separated from myself I think I would hate who I currently am too. I don't know. It's like the more comfortable you are with yourself, the more you think you're better than everyone else to the point of arrogance, and that's not the way it's supposed to be. I feel myself being louder, fiercer, and more irritating. Like I always think I'm right. I don't want to be that person, I don't want to be a person that I myself would not want to be friends with.

I need time, time to sort things out, sort my thoughts out, to talk to my friends, the ones I can trust. I wish I could read my own mind better. I wish I was less cranky. I wish you were always by my side because I feel comfortable with you and I like being with you and when you smile at me it makes me feel special and I want to feel special.

Walau eh I hate being alone hahahaha. Waiting for OCIP meeting to start at 5 and Yiguan's coming. Sigggghhhhh. Pictures and blog about Can! Marathon some other time. Got SMUN shit to do UGH.