This is not your year

Have been declaring my dislike for a certain someone and showing it quite obviously.... I don't think it's very healthy because it reflects badly on myself >:[ I don't know how to keep this up I just want you out of my life I really really want to stop pretending that everything's okay between us ugh ugh ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going to JB tomorrow to pig out and PAINT MY NAILS hehehhehehehe. Baked chocolate chip cookies just now and for one of the trays I forgot to set the oven to the correct temperature then just pressed the time and START. And the oven will auto START with the highest temperature so suddenly got burning smell hahahahahha. Hurriedly opened the oven and smoke came out the whole house smells like smoke now hahaha BUT I DIDN'T SET THE OVEN ON FIRE it was just the burnt cookies omg hahahaha. (:

I felt like Domestic Goddess I kept insisting to Mummy that I am because I was wearing an apron and like, using a mini ice cream scoop to scoop out the cookie dough so they would all be equal size and I froze the cookie dough balls so I can just take out and bake next time. WAH SO DOMESTIC RIGHT?????? Anyway I don't think the chocolate chip cookies are that fantastic >:[ Don't know if I should still bring them to school on Sundayyyy cuz we're sleeping overrrrrrr. Ugggghhhhhh I wanted to bake the hazelnut cake again BUT NO DARK CHOCOLATE HOW? Sigh. I can't stop burping I don't know what's wrong with me.

SHOULD NOT HAVE SLEPT AN EXTRA DUNNO HOW MANY HOURS ONCE I GOT HOME FROM LUNCH JUST NOW BECAUSE NOW I CANNOT SLEEP AND WE'RE SUPPOSED TO LEAVE IN 5 HOURS FOR JB????

DRAGONHOOD

HAHAHHAHA ok today was quite a good day!!!!!

Calvin came over this morning and he scolded me for everything I did/said ok cuz I drink cold drinks and eat pizza when I got sore throat >:[ And when I say Oprah very ugly. >:[ But she really is what!! Anyway he ate jiaozi for the first time EVER and he like! Then he fell asleep on the sofa -.- Cabbed down to Eastpoint so we could get Starbucks Christmas drinks!!! I tried Peppermint Mocha Frapp for the first time and I quite like it though I like Dark Cherry Mocha more!!!!!! Took a bus down to school and we were NOT late okay!!!!!!!!! :D So many other people later than us please. Anyway OGL briefing was quite waste time but YOU KNOW WHAT WAS DAMN AMUSING???

DAWN WAS DAMN FUCKING AMUSING!!! HAHAHAHAHAH.

So she baked cookies right then I didn't eat but she managed to coerce Calvin, Siew Min and Melvin to eat them la and they were all sitting around me hahahaha then Calvin say it tasted like flour and he gave it to Jiehui to eat and her face completely changed. BUT AFTER THE BRIEFING RIGHT, me, Jo, Melvin, Dawn, Darren sitting down waiting for the rain to stop and for Mummy to come so we talk to Dawn like how did you bake this???

#1: How much flour is in this???

"The recipe call for 2 cups of flour but the batter not like cookie dough!! So I put in 4 cups of flour"

#2: OK then the butter?!

"1 cup of butter."

"You know 1 cup of butter is 1 block right?"
"Huh what 1 block. Mine is the big block one then I use the spoon to scoop"

"HUH how you scoop???"

"3 spoons lor"

"YOURS IS MARGARINE IS IT?"

"Yah margarine!!"
"MARGARINE AND BUTTER DIFFERENT!!!!!!!!"

"HUH?!!? IS IT???"
"Wait then how you scoop with spoon"

"Normal tablespoon lor! 1 spoon I see like fill up about 1/3 cup so 3 spoons!"

#3: "What was the baking temperature?"

"It said 375 degrees but my oven maximum temperature only 275 degrees so I put to 275degrees then I put in 5 minutes hurry take out if not burnt already"
"DAWN, 375DEGREES FAHRENHEIT IS 180DEGREES CELSIUS!!!!!!!!"

"HUH??? But the recipe say degrees celsius!!"
"There is no such thing as 375degrees celsius Dawn!!!!!!!!!!"

Omg Dawn damn freaking epic I swear!!!!! But okay la the cookies were edible I ate one in the end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just really taste very dough-y. Anyway, Mummy picked me up and gave Melvin and Jo a ride to Siglap. Picked Uncle's sister up then dropped Meredith off at Parkway. Went to Gleneagles hospital, waited, rotted, talked about my future haha, then dropped her back home and went to John Little sale which SUCKED, we didn't buy anything!!! Went home, fell asleep, and then went to Porta Porta for dinner!!!!!!!!

Wah ate damn alot I am happy ^^ But it was very expensive, went to pick up Meredith from ECP. Beryl is sleeping over tonight. I was feeling pretty horrible just now but talked to Yiguan/Gracie and now to HP and I'm okay now because I got my DRAGONHOOD!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahah fuck damn funny Gracie yayyyyy I will be okay, I hope!! :DDDD

SL Congress 2009

I'm really very tired and there's OCIP meeting + Dance practice tomorrow yay. SL Congress ended today, I have to admit that I really didn't enjoy it that much other than the "Chiku cha chiku cha chiku cha cha cha" dance which is the highlight of the entire thing for me, I think, HAHA. I mean really, mixing Primary School kids with Sec 1,2,3 kids and JC1 kids is not such a great idea. No matter how cute the Primary school students are, it's OBVIOUSLY hard to get them to talk. AND, everyone is split up in different groups. HELLO, IMAGINE A SMALL 10 YEAR OLD BOY (LIKE JORDAN CHUA HAHAHAHA) ALONE IN A GROUP FULL OF PEOPLE OLDER THAN HIM. YOU THINK HE DARE TO TALK??? And there's only so much us as facils can do because first, we're only given 2 days and somehow we have to be able to relate to alllll these people of so many different ages and get them to talk to us. Second, WE ARE ONLY GIVEN 2 DAYS. BY THE TIME THEY START WARMING UP TO EVERYONE, THE CONGRESS IS OVER.

Yesterday was okay actually, I thought it was quite fun cheering and stuff and the dance was the best thing of the whole Congress I swear we did it 3 times yesterday!!! Calvin asked Alistair to help buy back bubble tea for me and Yiguan cuz we were stuck in school the whole day yay thanks!!! :DDDD

Today was quite suck-ish because we had Adrian Lim come down to talk and he's such an obnoxious, condescending prick I could not stand his entire workshop/lecture/sharing shit thing!!!!!! He kept insulting people and then laughing it off and it's like hello??? HOW IS THIS RELEVANT TO LEADERSHIP??? Honestly, it was a waste of my time and only served to MAKE ME ANGRY AND IRRITATED. The next talk was so fucking lor sor it was like an hour and a half and nothing went into my head. I'm sure he had some really valid points that I could have learnt from but I just want to know, what you have learnt and things that I can APPLY to my own leadership journey, not your entire life story thanks.

Wah Job Hunt even better. First Yiguan asked if the participants needed the paper so they could go out find job, apparently we didn't. So we started walking out of the school and we were about halfway across the fricking giant courtyard thing and then I get a call saying we DO need a paper saying where we were from. So we waited. THEN I GET ANOTHER CALL saying the paper cannot be printed so we're supposed to help explain to the potential employers what we were doing but we still need to give out assessment forms to the participants. SO WE WAIT FOR THE ASSESSMENT FORMS but decided to leave first. So we left, and CCHMS is fucking ulu it's a damn long way to walk out k. By the time we reached our venues, OMG OUR VENUES WAH ANOTHER THING. Seriously what kind of weird venues are Bedok Reservoir, or the temple area behind Bugis Street????? YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO FIND A JOB AT BEDOK RESERVOIR? THE PLACE SEEMS DEAD FOR GOODNESS SAKE LIKE GOT NO CUSTOMERS!!! By the time our Group 18 could find jobs they worked for less than an hour then we had to leave and go back already. And how do you want the participants to tell the shopkeepers what they were supposed to do and stuff like that when you didn't brief them on what they were supposed to be doing exactly?? And how were we supposed to explain FOR them when again, YOU DIDN'T TELL US EXACTLY EITHER?!?! Thanks, really. THANKS SO MUCH. BEST ACTIVITY EVER.

Back to school and it was raining like mad after debrief. Cheering didn't stop so me, Gracie, Yiguan and Justina banded together and expressed our mutual hate for the stupid whistle noises and the never ending cheering. It was cute when the Primary school students did it the whole afternoon but really, come on, the day has ended and people are tired. Started raining cats and dogs and we couldn't get through to call a taxi. Luckily, Yiguan's mum came to pick us up and drop us off and Bedok Interchange!! Uncle gave Justina a lift home and now I'm home.

OK SINCE THE SC PEOPLE WILL MOST PROBABLY BE LOOKING FOR BLOGS TO READ ABOUT SLC, I SHALL WRITE OUT STUDENT LEADERSHIP CONGRESS 2009 they sure can find. Because today's debrief wasn't even a proper debrief anyway I couldn't voice everything I wanted to say!!!!

AND I AM DAMN FREAKKKIIIINNNGGGG EXCITED FOR SL CAMP NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!! Starting this Sunday when we stay over in school omg exciting exciting!!!! Even though I don't get to go to Indonesia to replace our cancelled Yunnan trip, I think I'm okay with that cuz... I don't really want to go to Indo -.- AND OCIP ALWAYS makes last minute decisions and leaves me hanging so I made a choice to be a facil for SL Camp and I will STICK TO IT.

Long post with no pictures, hahahaha fuck la my mind is so messed up now I need sleep. I kinda hate the past few days because I keep seeing the worst in people and I can't bring myself to even pretend to be nice and sociable and put on a front anymore. I doubt you really want to keep acting out this show which is getting seriously seriously old, and I cannot stand it because it is so absurdly fake and unreal and I want to slap myself for being so utterly hypocritical. I'm showing my dislike towards you more and more obviously and to more people and although it's more truthful.... I don't think it's the best thing I should be doing. The reason why I feel so possessive over my friends is because I need that constant in my life and I need to know that there will be people there I can count on. You have no idea how much I need that, really. I need new ALLIES harhar.

My nails feel fragile when bare ):

Friday was reallllly crappy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Because I woke up with my WHOLE BODY ITCHING AND RASH INFESTED!!!! Took a shower and like it kinda went down?? Was late to school, had to be there at 730am ok WTF. Macs breakfast with Gracie and Yiguan after meeting with Mrs Loke. Then back to school with Yiguan cuz I had to meet Raylia for SL Camp stuff. Waited around in school to kill time then went back to Bedok to meet HC for lunch. BACK TO SCHOOL AGAIN for OGL interviews and from here on my stupid rash started again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Left early and took another shower at home. Powdered myself very generously and tried to sleep hoping the itch + rash would subside BUT IT GOT WORSE and every time any part of my body had contact with ANYTHING it would start itching, almost hurting, LIKE MAD. Went to the doctor where I got a jab omg it was a LIFESAVER seriously!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I was scratching off my skin!! Slept considerably early at 9pm.

SLCamp recee trip yesterday! Woke up feeling much better so went to meet the SportsExcel + HC people at Changi haha was late what's new. Played some icebreaker games and tried out the activities and stuff. I like!! It was fun (: Went for lunch then made our way to Old Changi Hospital to check out the area and set up some stuff. Went to Pulau Ubin and we set up small fires OMG ME + BRANDON + SHAWN'S fire TOTALLY ROCKED HAHAHAHAHA. It was the best fire I have ever set up after 2 Outward Bound trips and 2 HC camps ok!! Hahahahaha. Had the brilliant idea of throwing the leftover waterbombs at the HOT embers/ashes to extinguish them fully, got the HOT embers/ashes splattered on my legs/shirt/bag, Kangwei and Shawn also kena UGGGHHHHHHH.

Cleaned up with wet wipes and tissues and the very limited water supply. Then played more games haha fun! (: Dinner back at Changi then offfff to OCH we went! It wasn't soooo scary I think most of the fear was in our mind as we walked up the very dark and empty and looooooong road to OCH itself haha. Got dismissed from there, took bus 29 for 2 stops back to the terminal DAMN GOOD IDEA SERIOUSLY my feet were damn sore!!! Waited for bus 2 and went home.

Today- uh rotted at home the whole day. Baked coffee cake and I think it's nice but just too soft/dense/wet sigh. Just removed my nail polish, upset!!!!!!! ): I think today was a relatively good day because I spent it bookmarking new websites full of cute things and inspirational quotes and funny stuff!!! (: Oh and new music too yay! Mummy brought home soup from The Soup Spoon so I had that today yumz. I shall now watch HIMYM and maybe sleep early because tomorrow is the first day of SL Congress!!!!!!!!

AND trip with Yiguan is soooo confirmed we just need to find a cheap place to go YAY!

Hard to explain

I dunno how to put in words the extreme irritation that I feel. Well, I don't know how to put it in subtle words anyway. Because you irritate me stop acting like you know more/better than me. If we're supposed to be FRIENDS and we're supposed to WORK together you better stop your asinine (woah big word) behaviour. I feel so scared/shocked/appalled when I think about how selfish you really are, and then it doesn't surprise me anymore that you 2 are good friends because deep down you're both equally self centred and think the most of yourselves when honestly, you're not that great. Thank you Yiguan, Calvin, Chenyin, Vi.

Had a somewhat good today today! Went over to Calvin's house at about 12 and we played Guitar Hero. :D I damn good to him k I not only contributed to his dinner last night but I brought over samosas and Shepherd's pie also cuz his house no food!!!!!! And his dad ROCKS cuz last night after eating the oxtail stew the FIRST THING he said was to tell Calvin "You better msg Mag now." "For what?" "Tell her the tomatoes nice" HAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Calvin was being a lazy pig please read his blog I guestblogged! HaHHhahah. Went to Simpang to eat with Marcussss as well. Marcus damn retarded he kept saying how he was going to be in Milo cartons and H2O bottles one day then very famous and something something AIYAH MAD ONE. Mummy picked us up and sent us to school. Went for OCIP meeting with Gracie and Yiguan, had to write down our feelings and I filled the whole page cuz I got damn alot to say. Went for OGL interviews which were............................ Disappointing? I mean come on, expecting potential Delta OGLs to at least know a Delta cheer is not asking too much right?

Mummy picked me and Calvin up again then sent him home, rushed home to shower change get ready and made my way down to City Hall. Very glad that my shiny pink YSL lipstick and lipgloss got attention HAHAHAHAH!!! Met Jolene just as she was leaving ): Then went to find Han Le and meet Chenyin/Lynn/Rachel/Charis/Mel/Justina at Sushi Tei. Dinner was good, but the after dinner conversation even better ;)

Was dying in my heels but got some Yoguru and me, Chenyin, Han Le, Rachel, Lynn walked to some random place and continued taking pictures haha. Train home and I stepped on some poor guy's toe with my heel like OMG I can imagine how much it hurts ok I felt damn bad.!! Chenyin's reaction: Eh Mag, maybe he will ask you for your number?? He not bad looking, give him a chance la. AIYOOOOO. Finally reached home and told Mummy and the first thing she said was also "Did you get his number?" WALAU HALF ASLEEP ALSO SAY THIS SORT OF THING buay tahan.

Not gonna watch HIMYM tonight cuz I'm tired already and tomorrow's an early day cuz our OCIP team has to meet Mrs Loke. I. WANT. MY. OPPORTUNITIES. BACK. Well, gonna be a SLCamp facilitator anyway, should be fun!! More OGL interviews tomorrow, but I don't know what's going to happen other than it's going to be "better". Wow, descriptive much? I KNOW A LOT MORE NOW THANKS FOR FILLING ME IN.

Congress briefing today then dinner at Siglap after that. I am very happy cuz Calvin msged me to say "The stew nice! My dad says its all because of your tomatoes (:" HAHAHAHA I LIKE CALVIN'S DAD HE RECOGNISED MY(Okay and Ryan's) EFFORT IN PICKING THE TOMATOES AND ALWAYS SEND ME HOME SOMEMORE YAY!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDD

OCIP meeting tomorrow but it's probably going to be a waste of time considering we're no longer going to Yunnan -.- But Dress Up and Be Pretty and Take Pictures day with 04/09 girrrrrrrls tomorrow! :D Must rush though sigh okay and I got nothing to wear wow yay best (Y)

Going to watch HIMYM now and like die/rot or something. I am hungry.

OI HAOPU MY DAYS NOT INTERESTING ENOUGH FOR YOU LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY BLOG BORING GO AND DIE!!!!!

ANYWAY,

From,

MS TITANS

WASTED OPPORTUNITIES

Our Garnier 16 Skin Tone Search pictures are up on FB!! I entered mine in the contest already HAHA WTF RIGHT. Please vote here!!! You can only vote once a day so every 24 hours MUST VOTE OK. :D

YESTERDAY MARKED THE END OF PW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you imagine a HUGE burden lifted off your back??? Omg. Went to Popeye's at T3 with awesome 04/09!!!! :D Then went to watch planes fly hahaha and took pictures and stuff yay I like my class ^^ (With the exception of a certain few ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!)

Took a bus down to Tampines with Rachel and Chenyin after that. Rachel went home and me and Chenyin went to find Ryan and Yijunnnn. Walked around and they had to accompany me trying on damn alot of nail polish at Chanel/Watsons/Face Shop. Ended up buying 3 different colours at Face Shop but only after trying on one of the colours on RYAN'S nail because I ran out of nails on my hands hehehehe :D

Went over to Rachel's house and watched a horrible old vcd of Mulan hahaha. Calvin came over and promptly fell asleep while we watched Evan Almighty!! Actually me and Chenyin fell asleep too hehe. Dinner with Ryan and Calvinnnn at Yoshinoya. RYAN YOU BETTER SAY THAT MY EYES SPARKLE WHEN I LOOK AT YOU HOR ********** Hahahaha. Went to buy tomatoes and oxtail for Calvin's dad and he gave me a ride home yay. I told him that if his oxtail stew turns out good it's because I chose the tomatoes and therefore contributed to a part of it!!! HAHAHA. :D Yay. Calvin now has a black cat guarding his CUPCAKE hahahHAHAHHhahahahahHAHHAH. :D

I am damn fucking angry now because our Yunnan trip is cancelled and you know how much TIME/MONEY/OPPORTUNITIES I GAVE UP FOR IT? I didn't sign up for TIP, I rejected Sports Internship even though Mr Loh recommended ME for it, we could have gone to US earlier and therefore gotten cheaper tickets, I spent FUCKING ALOT OF MONEY paying for STUPID SHIT for the Yunnan trip, Mummy already bought 3 bottles of dry shampoo for me and my team. OMG WTF LA I WANT BACK THE INTERNSHIPS THAT I GAVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!! ADDITIONAL REPORTING FOR SEA GAMES HELLO???????????????????????????? OMG THIS IS SO FUCKED UP IN WAYS YOU CANNOT IMAGINE OK IT REALLY SUCKS. LIKE REALLY WTF AND YOU FORCE ME TO WRITE YOU REFLECTIONS AND SPEND MY WHOLE SATURDAY ARGUING ON OUR DIFFERENT BELIEFS OF WHAT YUNNAN IS LIKE AND GOING TO ACM WHEN ALL I WANT TO DO IS SLEEP LIKE REALLY THANKS SCHOOL. 1 WEEK BEFORE THE TRIP AND YOU SUDDENLY CANCEL IT. THANKS, THANKS ALOT!!!!!!!!! OH AND OUR 500 BUCKS DEPOSIT AS WELL.

UGH FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yiguan (^^)V says:

*IM SO AMUSED BY HER SHE MADE MY DAY CAUSE I WAS SO BORED ROTTING AT HOME!!! HAHAHAHAH (Y)(Y)(Y)

I LOVE THIS, SHE IS SO MENTAL IT IS HILARIOUS RIGHT GRACIE AND YIGUAN???

:D

Just presented my OP over webcam to Calvin and Yiguan. I am damn fucking scared now cuz my presentation's not completely smooth.

COME ON MAG.

FULL MARKS FOR OP!!!!!!!!!!

I'm surprised no one has told you that you are perfect

Forgot to mention that when we went to Cine, there was some roadshow outside for Garnier 16 Skin Tone Search and me, Grace and Yiguan all joined!!!!!! HAHAHAHA. So right, once the pictures are up on FB I'm going to enter them in the contest and you all must vote OKAY!!!!!!!

hahahahahHAHAHAHAH.

OK so today I picked up my passport early in the morning and I think I look very sickly in my passport photo hahahaha but whatever it's only going to last me 5 years 9 months right???? Back to school for some OP LOVIN'. Our whole class was there we damn bonded (L) I rehearsed twice and I can only pray/hope/beg that it's enough for tomorrow. I really really want to ACE OP please please please. After tomorrow, our class is going for SWENSONS!!! And I'm going to give up my M'sia manicure to bond with my class OK.

Tried tying up my hair just now, in preparation for tomorrow. MAJOR FAIL OK IT LOOKS MESSIER THAN IF I DON'T TIE UP. So now I don't know what to do????? ): Please don't make me gel my hair because we're going out after that and I'm bringing 3 cameras and I don't want to look like crap!!! ): And Meredith just went off to OBS today so she cannot help me do my hair ): Wah she quite unlucky cuz she kena St Pat's people in her group so she very unhappy. She say they all very skinny, skinnier than her and look like cannot kayak one. I tell her to find the person that looks like got most muscle and CHOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wah, good advice from her older sister ;)

Anyway now I'm really quite nervous I think. Today was a much better presentation than usual cuz I really referred to my cue cards very little considering we just changed conclusion yesterday and I haven't memorised everything yet.... BUT IF TOMORROW I STRESS I SURE BLANK AND MY VOICE CHANGE. THEN HOW???? And please don't let me sound like a newscaster tomorrow I hate sounding like a newscaster. Please don't give me any awkward phrasing tomorrow as I try to put my words into sentences ):

SHALL REHEARSE NOW. AND SLEEP EARLY. BUT TONIGHT GOT CRIMINAL MINDS LA FUCK.