SEA???

Haha fuck tomorrow is SEA History and I am fucking unprepared. Have been reading but NOTHING'S. GOING. IN!!!

Thank you Faye and Vibhu for helping me prepare and summarising each country's stuff verbally it was very helpful :>

Had lunch with Jo after International History paper today, the paper was uh hahhahaha okay??? I dunno wrote like hahahaha AIYAH WHATEVER. Went to meet Faye and we studied. OK I slept for an hour, then she came back and woke me up and left and then I read stuff and then she came baccccck again with Vibz and she did like 3 Math questions BUT she kept quiet the whole time because if she talked then she would have to treat both of us to lunch HAHAHA.

Went to Starbucks with her and shared a Green teaaaa frapp yumyum. We talked about.. HISTORY WOW SO EXCITING!!! Thank you love (:

OH yesterday was Lit paper which was haha Gracie "amazing". -.- Aiyaaaah WHATEVER IT IS OVER RIGHT I CANNOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT RIGHT?? I think they should stop giving us choices for essay questions because I always end up picking the wrong one >:[

Went to Starbucks and hadddd Ice shaken lemonade passion tea thing hahaha :D Waited for Cccccalvin to turn up and I READ MORE HISTORY WOW STORY OF MY LIFE MOST EXCITING TIME EVER. Nicholas turned up with less messy hair haha they both damn irritating they kept trying to beat my high score on Plock!!!! ): OH AND JOLENENEY TAN AND DENIE ALSO CAME. SHE AND HER STUPID EYEBROWS ARE VERY IRRITATING HAHA. Uncle picked me up and sent Calvin homeeeee.

OK END OF THE MOST EXCITING DAYZ OF MY LIFE EVERRRRR. Wow yay rocks man.

OK Skype time watching someone make a MAUS costume hahahahahaha while reading more SEA I'm supposed to sleep now though because Faye says sooooo. DAMNNNNNNN Malaya/Burma/Indonesia/Philippines/Vietnam/French/British/US/Dutch UGH I cannot remember their nationalist movements!!!!

I.A.N

Hahahahahah today was an okay day hahahahah OTHER THAN THE FUCKING UP ECONS PART but yeah the rest of that was pretty ok :> Honestly though, I don't think I have ever felt so sure that I would fail an essay and even consider changing questions 15 mins before the essays were due. Sigh.

Hung out with Gracie and Calvin and Rachel while they were waiting for Chinese exam to start. RACHEL I'm sorry you kena heart attack hahahahahaha but it was Grace's fault NOT. MINE. And then in a stroke of genius I came up with a code name, I.A.N. Ask me if you wanna know what it means hehehehehehe!!!! They went for their paper and I waited for Faye to come find me. She is #1 DISTRACTION. I hardly studied because I was listening to her talk hahaha and then Vibz came to find us as well and he insisted that we all do work and that lasted for about 15 mins tops before Faye started talking again hahahaha.

Anyway it was good talking to Faye and Vibz I like (: EVEN IF it wasn't the best time to do so haha. Walked to Bedok with Vibz after that then took bus home!

OKz shall read Carol Ann Duffy now hahahaha. Surprisingly alert after sleeping at 4 yesterday(couldn't sleep) and taking a short nap just now. Hm.

3.13AM.

I HAVE A PAPER IN LESS THAN 5 HOURS.

SLEEPING

NOW.

Btw thank you for the Market Dominance stuff Thalia!! They were very useful and very clear hehe (: Need to pack my bag for tomorrowwwww.

Hey show some love,

Best supper ever!!!

HAHA FUCK TOMORROW IS ECONS PAPER AND WHAT AM I DOING???????

Looking at Coach/Kate Spade stuff.

Still have... Market Structures(cuz it's taking damn long to memorise) and Inflation to finish harharharharharhar. ROCKS MAG. REALLY. YOU ARE DAMN GOOD.

Ohwellz. KI paper today was manageable I think? I might have written BULLSHIT for Section C but I thought that for what I studied, essay and short CT wasn't so bad. AND I DIDN'T PASS UP 4 SHEETS OF PAPER, I PASSED UP 6 HAHAHAHAHAHAH. Woah overachiever= me!! ;D

AHHH ok back to Econs??????

):

Told Mummy to "brew me some coffee" tomorrow morning already wah wah wah not "Mix hot water with a packet of instant coffee mix" but BREW some coffee leh wah high class OK WTF HAHA.

Slept at 2plus yesterday after "OMG. Goodnight." Hahahahaha. Cheer up depressed kid! :>

How cavalier we used to be

GO TO SLEEP, MAG.

Fuck KI omg I dunno what bullshit I'm going to come up with on 4 sheets of paper tomorrow - 2 for essay and 1 each for Critical Thinking.

Intuitionism, Orientalism, Reverse Orientalism, Consequentialism, Deontological argument, Empiricism, Rationalism, MAG-isms!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Met Yiguan today she was damn distracted because she doesn't like Chem!!! I spent alot of money today but got a new favourite drink!!! (: Calvin had lunch and dinner at Siglap so he came to find me!!! His parents gave me a lift home hehe ^^ Watched President's Star Charity just now O-M-G they were so short of "stars" plz helloooo Kym Ng/Patricia Mok/Gurmit Singh/Jade Seah/Dawn Yeoh/Nat Ho/RANDOM PEOPLE THAT I DON'T CARE ABOUT. Every performance had some combination of them and it was like uhhHhhHHhh harhar Mediacorp got no more people??? And the Singapore Idols' Top 12 performance was ridiculous!!!! Me and Meredith wanted to die laughing watching them do their stupid dance and actions harhar.

OK GOODNIGHT I love the above 2 people alot haha! :>

FUCKING unproductive day today I hate being stuck at home >:[ The computer in front of me playing music is so distracting but if I go on my bed I want to sleep.

Fucking hell I haven't started on KI tomorrow= crash course in KI seriously everything in the year I'm going to try and force into my head so I can come up with an essay with reasonable content. And not just contents from my head.

UGH. HATE THIS. I DIDN'T EVEN SLEEP EARLY LIKE MUMMY WANTED ME TO. IT'S 2.15AM NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yiguan cannot make it tomorrow ):

I'm sorry Gracie I haven't studied since telling you that I was going to log out from MSN and we were both supposed to study "together" ))))))))): I got caught up reading pretty girls' blogs and I'm so jealous omg and they all party and shit I want to party also haha wait no scratch that.

OK I WILL FINISH MARKET FAILURE NOW. I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO KI AT NIGHT = NOW BUT I HAVEN'T FINISHED MARKET FAILURE OR INFLATION WTF IS THIS MAG NO SLEEP FOR YOU TONIGHT.

Studying with Yiguan earlyearlyearly tomorrow because Home = Distractions, as clearly shown by today's example. Harharharhahrharharharharhahrharharrr!

:}

Today was a good if not very productive day!! Hahaha spent the whole day in Siglap from 11-630 reading Econs omg but I don't think much went in??? Sat there ALONE from 11-12smth because SOMEONE was late and woke up at 11.22 when we were supposed to meet at 11!! >:[ Hahaha, we were surrounded by TJ people like omg Gracie asked me "What Starbucks did you go? TJ Starbucks?" Hahaha. Most of the people that were there yesterday were also there today like me! And Clare, and the bitchface hor Yiguan!!!! Anyway, gave up on Econs halfway then did Integration before getting damn bored cuz I did it last night as well and I'M RUNNING OUT OF MATH QUESTIONS TO DO HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. Went to eat at KFC and came back and I had my own personal DJ yay and read more Econs telling myself I would stop at 6. Also met Shurui!!! UmmMmMmMmm got introduced to damn spastic games haha zombies!! Played with Photobooth hehehehhhhheheeeeheeheeee and then took bus home! The bus was full of Ah bengs like one group of ah bengs each take up one seat put their legs up on the seat then talk damn fucking loudly like the whole bus belong to them omg I almost made myself deaf cuz I had to turn up the volume of my music!!! >:[

Home, ate some roast potatoes and SALAD harharharhar I'm very happy because my appetite is smaller and Mummy says I'm really skinnier!! :D

OK tomorrow is HARDCORE ECONS day. And KI oh fuck, KI!!!!!

oOOoOh~mystery~~ hahahah WTF.

Productivity

Today was a very productive day I am very happy!!!! :DDD
After sleeping at 3am harhar what's new right, I WAS going to sleep at 2 okay haha. ANYWAYS got up and went to school early early in the morning. Went to HC room first and was greeted by the welcome sight of TROooOooOdzzZ :D Yiguan was late so I waited for her at the bus stop outside school instead of attending assembly, went to get food then she went for consultation and I distracted Trudy from Lit (OMG TRUDY I TYPED THIS AND YOU JUST MSGED ME HAHAHAHA), and we talked damn alot yay I love you Trudy!!!! :D

Then went to find Vibzzzzzz and got his AWESOME AI essay plan, it said "Good work! Keep it up!" ok WAAAAAH!! :D Sat there and talked to him and Faye for like damn long waiting for Yiguan to finish consultation wah wah wah and Victor was there too he is major kpo really!! Hahahah. I liked today I liked talking to them and and Vibz and Faye always give me hope about History and they tell me I won't retain and they've got my back and will always help me ((((((: I LOVE YOU TWWWWWOOOOO. (((((:

After that me and Yiguanzxx went to Siglap, got some lunch and it was raining like maaaaddd. Well actually we thought it was very heavy rain because there was alot of like, thunder and lightning?? Then we decided to just run across the road to Starbucks and the rain wasn't even that heavy -.- Anyway TODAY, EVEN THOUGH CHENYIN DOUBTED OUR ABILITY TO STUDY TOGETHER, WE WERE DAMN BLOODY PRODUCTIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She did Maths the whole way and helped me with my Differentiation and after that I started reading through all the AI conflict shit and Vibz annotations are so cute hahahaha. (: Even though I started dying alr like towards the last 2 hours or something (we were there from 11 plus to 630?!?!), Yiguan kept cheering me on okay more like she kept going "MAG. STUDY" hahaha. We damn good today really I very happy yay! (: We also talked alot about many many things me and Yiguan feel the same towards certain people hehehehehehe!!! And and I got a bagel with caramel again today like the last time when the guy called me Bagel Girl lol yumyum I like!

Bus home and I just did some Integration questions like O-M-G how extremely productive! (: I'm quite high now I dunno why?? But I'm like somewhat in a better mood because at least I'm actually doing my revision no matter how late I'm starting and I always have Troodz/Vibzy/Faye to bitch about History and who will help me I think I'm very lucky :>

We are not what you think we are

Ok I think today was a really really bad day?

Time to start worrying, Mag.

No scratch that, worrying was for a month ago.

It's time to start PANICKING now.

New songs in my iTunes aren't that great. >:[ SUCKS. Back to The Boy Who Knew Too Much...

Failing 2 fucking essays, when Promos are less than a week away is not the best thing to happen. NOW??? Like honestly, a 9/25 for History where my essay "seems more like a fictional piece of writing than a non-fiction piece of writing", awh thanks. Glad to know that basing my essay on your notes is NOT what I should be doing you fucking prick. Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And 12/30 for KI essay which I stayed up till 430am doing? I admit it wasn't my best piece of work but 12 for a research essay is a bit too much to handle.

Even yesterday night's happy events didn't manage to distract me enough throughout today OKAY and that FUCKING. SUCKS. Too agitated too agitated and yesterday I was just saying I always took getting promoted as a given? Like I didn't even consider the possibility that I would get retained, and now I really don't know what to think anymore. Probably my fault since I started revision like a week ago but WTF REALLY WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ms Yanti's really worried for me and Jolene and I hate the fact that our dearest History teacher cannot differentiate between us and that we are the same person in his eyes because no matter how similar we are he's not really making an effort to find our different weaknesses. Because I know Jo puts in so much more effort than me and he's not recognising that and instead it becomes our fault for God knows what reason and it's just very very fucked up I don't know how to express myself anymore.

TODAY'S LIT WAS A BIG FUCKING DISAPPOINTMENT AS WELL because me and Chenyin were so proud of our essay plan and convinced that it was a good piece of work. But Miss Tan said the highest she would give it was a 13/25. WTF? After all that time we spent on it? WHAT ABOUT THE FUCKING EXAMS WHEN WE DON'T HAVE THE LUXURY OF DISCUSSING AND THE TIME TO ANALYSE AND PHRASE OUR THOUGHTS INTO PROPER WORDS. O-M-G. I don't think I have the confidence to get through this because I wanted Lit to be my best subject and it's supposed to be my best and and.

Fuck this I'm going to try reading Econs or something now. Need to fucking breakdown pull myself together or something. Allowing myself to breakdown only once a month isn't IS going to work out because although it's only the first week of Oct. !!!!!!!!! Be, strong?