Hatred

I am sooo sick of you and your unwanted comments, unwanted presence, and just you in general. Wtf is wrong with you? With your constant "I think I'm so pretty/hot/smart/better than everyone else" attitude, therefore giving you the right to insult others? WTF? What will it take to get into your THICK. HEADED. SKULL. That you're FUCKING UGLY inside and out? That having _____ or _____ or whatever else you decide to put on your hair, shirt, bag, etcetc will not make you look better, cooler or "unique" from everyone else as I assume you're trying for. Instead you look retarded. PERIOD. O-M-G holding grudges against you was SOOOO right? Because you don't deserve my patience, tolerance, respect, or anything actually. You, are scum becase you are disgusting and have nothing nice to say about anyone or anything except YOU or things concerning YOU and that's damn fucking self centred. Good job you, your life so far has been nothing but putting people down and I hope that satisfies you because other than that, you're not going to get anything else in life.

Today was a sad day because Volleyball lost )))))): Had lots of practice for dance but it was good, I was tired but it wasn't so bad anymore (: Passed my History full length essay assignment OMG?!?!?! (: (: (: (: Uhhhh some stupid Indian boys decided to suddenly stop walking and stand in a line at the main gate and I was distracted so I walked into them. UGH.

Yesterday we had AYG training, the place was SOOOO pretty omg I might just take up Mic's offer of going there to swim next time hahahahaha. (: And it was a DAMN HAPPY DAY OMG OMG OMG OMG ((((((((((((((((((((: Ok dunno what alr hahahaha.

School hasn't been so bad this week, it's a good 4 day week with minimal homework I don't feel like killing myself every night when I reach home (: Though GPP is due in about oh, 2 weeks. But it's not SOOOOO bad I think. Hahaha SHIT LA WE HAVEN'T EVEN THOUGHT OF IDEA >:[ OK now sleepy, I might do some research for History but.... (:

Hungry

HAPPY MUMMY'S DAY!!!! (:

Asked Mummy today if she thinks I make good friends very easily. She said no and that I just made friends easily haha. Then I said that I think I open up to people very easily, which is true what! Then she/Uncle/Meredith started this discussion of how much of an open book I am, how they say "Don't judge a book by it's cover" but with me they cannot even judge because I got no cover, how I'm very not mysterious so boys don't want to find out more etcetcetc HAHAHA.

I think I keep lowering my aims for myself to the bare minimum. Was supposed to finish up KI essay today, I have written about 700 words so far with only 4 footnotes omg. Went to tan and did Econs essay plan... Somewhat. Wanted to do History essay plan then decided not to like wtf. Wanted to do Econs worksheets but didn't bring down Theory Of Costs notes, so I just lay there. Damn waste time la >:[ Andrea called me up telling us about our new KI assignment, sigh. I just managed to do my part!!! OK I shall now write a To Do list for tomorrow. Going to visit the doctor after SMUN training tomorrow because I woke up late today and didn't go. Meredith cooked breakfast for Mummy instead and she got really angry at Uncle who didn't even say thank you for the breakfast which was meant for MUMMY which HE ATE without acknowledgement. Ugh.

To Do
-FINISH UP KI ESSAY ONCE AND FOR ALL PLEASE!!!!
-Econs TOC WS 1 and 2
-Econs DRQ
-History essay plan
-Lit preparation for Lecture

Ok that's enough for TOMORROW alone. Still got more work to do for the rest of the week......... ):

Tired

Me and Grace are soulmates la I think ahhahaha. Talking to her and Sarah now, should be sleeping soon since I have to wake up early to cook Mummy breakfast/go to the doctor to check out my feet like FINALLY/Go to church omg shit I haven't thought of things to say.

Talking to Grace about.... Friendship drama now and I think our experiences are uncannily similar. Sigh...................... Grace ah how ah why we like that!!!! I think we're different and similar at the same time haha.

Didn't go for PT this morning cuz my foot was hurting again walau eh. And in addition, the back of my thigh also aching for no bloody reason I think it's because I didn't stretch before dancing yesterday. I don't even know what to type in this post la!!! >:[

Sleepy though.

Flurry of emotions

Calvin is a mad man and I look damn weird in that picture also ahahaha.

Went for basketball match today after school omg damn sad la we lost by so little but it was a damn good match!!!! Found out some stuff from Yiguan then I very very angry la!! Spoil my mood leh after being happy/excited at the start of the match >:[ Angry angry angry.

Back to school where me and Grace were bitching in the library like damn fun la I felt like I talked alot today!! And Grace I feel your anger!!! Went to dance prac late so I think I might kena PT sigh. But ohwell, staying in the library for those few extra minutes was worth it ((((: Happy Happy Happy haha I went through damn alot of rubbish emotions today la.

Dance prac was.... productive. Rehearsal wasn't good but Angel cleaned up the dance so we're progressing well. Which is uh haha good since the performance is in a week?! Haha scared like hell but more scared of upcoming HC camp. Very sad leh we got banned from the HC room ugh!!!! And and and I'm missing all the fun parts cuz of College Day walau ehhhh. Dinner with Vivian, met Limeng then we all took bus back. Met Gwynneth on the bus omg! Hahaha. And number1eyecandy CAN DIE PLZ. Vivian says my husband next time will be very sad haha.

OHWELLZ, for some reason I'm feeling increasingly frustrated and angry at somebody who hasn't done anything bad towards me but I think that somebody is undeserving of my trust, my respect, or any authority. Yup. And the other news I found out today, wah REALLY CROSS THE LINE THIS TIME MANZZZ THIS IS WAR!!!!!!!!!!

>:[ So happy it's 3 day weekend I'm going to paint my nails with Vendetta because I only have 2 nailpolishes here in Epark and then oh shit I have to go back to school on Monday should I still paint my nails??? Sad ): Ok I shall either go webcam with Grace or watch 放羊的星星 now!! But then..... 730 at Tampinese interchange tomorrow for 17th HC PT sigh.. Ankle/foot has been hurting worse for the past few days now and the pain is insistent instead of on off walau eh why like that?? I even borrowed running shoes from Wanen for tmrw!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR Bye.

Haha siao.

HAHAHA OMG I'M DONE WITH MY PI.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA SO DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY THEN I REMEMBER I STILL HAVE TO COPY OUT MY HISTORY ESSAY, DO ECONS ESSAY PLAN, AND HISTORY ESSAY PLAN.
HA.HA.HA(nervous laughter)
BUT OMG IM DONE WITH PI?!?!??!
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA SO RELIEVED HAHAHAHA OK BYE.

Update

1) Managed to finish exactly half of my KI essay as I said I would. But with only one footnote so uh shit.
2) Didn't do the rest of my History essay.
3) I know there's Econs CSQ due tomorrow but I'm going to pretend I don't know about it and not do it.
4) It's 1.20am and I should really get to sleep since I'm wasting my time online NOT doing work.
5) I wish I could turn back time and not watch tv from 1-6 so today could be so much more productive.
6) Hearing about how dance was today suddenly makes me so relieved that I didn't go ha.
7) My eyes hurt.
8) I really need to pack my bag but all my papers are EVERYWHERE so yeah.
9) Shit.
10) Goodnight.

EXCITED!

I
GOT
AYG!!!!!!

:D :D :D :D Happy like a mad man on a trampoline now ok!!! (Cuz Karon ask me not to be teletubby hahahah)

Very scared for the all the writing I'll have to do but it's SUCH a good experience I cannot miss out omg!!!!!!! Thanks for all the help I got, to Chenyin for accompanying me to the soccer match, to Yijun and James for helping me recap the match, for Imran for his quote, for Ashley/Justina's pictures which I'm sure I posted some of them, and to everyone rooting me on YAY!!!!!! Hahahahaha. Wah I like receiving prize la damn lame but how exciting my goodness!

OK Back to KI essay I'm not watching CSI!!!

Big Time Failure.

(Miss you Rachel haha we are so spastic I hate JC life.)

I rock, like really.
Missed school today and attempted by pile of homework.
Ha. Ha. Ha.
Today's plan was to finish up SEA essay and KI essay.
SEA essay is half done, KI essay is untouched.
WHOOOOOOO go Mag.
I should punish myself by not letting myself watch Fighting Spiders/D.I.E/CSI/CSI: Miami tonight.
DAMMIT WHY DID I WATCH TV FROM 1-6 JUST NOW?!?!?!
>:[

Quite depressed that I missed dance prac just now... For other reasons not related to dance itself hahahahahahahaha. Sigh. Getting hungry and waiting for Mummy to bring me back KFC! But..... That = more procrastination rah!

Meredith was pointing out people with funny swimming styles to me just now. So we stood at my window and stared down at the swimming pool laughing at the woman who kicked her legs out of the water while swimming breaststroke and the man who did a weird spasm action vaguely like a breaststroke but staying in the same spot in the water.
Then I got scared that when I swim in my obnoxiously bright red swimsuit people also stare down and laugh at how fat I am. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But at least I swim properly, I hope.

Off to stare at my KI essay but most probably be distracted by websites and and and WORLD HISTORY TUTORIAL IS TMRW AND I DIDN'T DO MR SENG'S ESSAY CUZ HIS QUESTION MAKES NO SENSE. HOW?

Die.

I just rotted my whole weekend away laaaa. Yesterday was NOT productive because I wanted to start on my 2 History essays, and I didn't because I DIDN'T BRING MY BLOODY HISTORY NOTES TO NLB. Was very very very early to PW Meeting at NLB, and everyone else was late, !!!!! So much for Edwin's "Mag you better just wake up earlier. Seriously." We ended at like 1, had lunch with Edwin then I went back to the library where I sat on the floor, alone, attempting Econs and Lit but accomplishing little. Zhihao came to accompany me for like 20 minutes before he went off to meet his friends. Met Adeline and Ruijun in the toilet cuz they also having PW meeting!! Gave up on studying and read the book I borrowed, then went to find the rabbit for awhile before we all left together.

Made my way down to Bedok to meet the 17th Delta HC, discussed all the way until 9...... Walau >:[ Home where Mummy attempted making the Porta Porta black olive pasta, wasn't the same but it wasn't bad either. Watched Paris Hilton's My New BFF which is the stupidest show on earth ok but hahahahahaahahahah it's soooooo spastic.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOLENENEY TAN! :D

Slept until like 1 this afternoon, ate, watched tv, watched Xmen on Star Movies and Antique Bakery online. Antique Bakery was like damn spastic and abit confusing cuz it's based on anime but I kinda liked it! And all the cakes looked soooooo good I really really wanna bake now damn school damn school. Went out to try finding a thermometer but couldn't, came home to the end of X-Men 3, watched my favourite S FACTOR!!! Hahahaha and all this to procrastinate writing my......... 2 History essays. Walan eh really damn failure la I already didn't do my History essay the last time and now I'm not even attempting them RAH!!!! I just want to sleep, and hope that Swine flu hits us just so we all can get home quarantine. Or maybe nothing so extreme but I really don't want school!!!!

Got a msg saying if I'm feeling unwell I shouldn't go to school, omg we have like visual health screening in school now.... Hahahahahaha I'm hoping I get a slight flu tomorrow so I can stay at home. I feel a stomachache coming on already, ok no link to flu but I'm unwell what!

Stupidity.

Out with ALL oh oops, minus one(-.-) the 16th Delta Dragons today!!! By default, I was late.... BUT even after reaching City Hall we still waited for Rachel, Denise, Shaoyun and PAUL to reach ok!!! SO Calvin and Louise should stop blaming me >:[ Haha. Saw so many people at Citylink/Marina Square area today, Rachel, Shiyan, Huang Rui, Caleb, Zengan, Sauyee, Amanda, Vivian, (: Went to Swensons to eat, and Paul treated us to two Earthquakes yaaaay!!!!!!!! Thank you Ba Kwa (: Then we spent an hour finding different places in Marina Sq to take polaroids of all of us!!!!!! Damn happy la but people kept staring at us weirdly and it was tough to find people to take pictures for us k! One couple actually said they didn't want to!!! Like OMG?! Hahahaha. We took 12 polaroids, one for each of us. They're all going up on the Delta board and then we'll each take back one after that :D :D :D

Louise, Shaoyun, Paul and Xinan left, leaving us to find our own entertainment. Haha after ruling out bowling, a movie, and the arcadeeee we ended up going over to Calvin's house to play.... GUITAR HERO!!!!!! Hhaahahaha damn fun ok we are like damn lousy players and Dyane's lung power is the best ever! Haha. Mummy picked me up after that.... Tomorrow's going to be a long day out again raaaaaaaaaaaaah. Why are some people so irritable? Why? WHY?!?!

Anyway I'm really very sad that the 16th is going to step down. Even though I'm going to be part of the 17th.... It's so very very very very different. No more Dyane's stupid bimbo comments, Rachel's damn high voice singing Chinese songs, Shaoyun and Sharron's kiampah face + comments, Paul getting bullied by all of us and treating us (:, Wen Chuen's insistence on staying damn man and act cool, Xinan's random weird actions/comments, Louise, Calvin, Justina, Ryan for just being there and being themselves and being the people I always always feel most comfortable around. Especially to Louise and Justina for helping out with cheerleading even with their own crazy mad commitments. And to Ryan, for being my fellow cheer cap even though he is SUCH a pain in the butt sometimes and can be incredibly irritating and annoying and insensitive with his stupid jokes. Hurrrrrr!!!! 16th, I'll forever miss you. WALAU MAKE IT SOUND LIKE GOING TO DIE hahaha but really la ): Walau HC camp is going to be madness.

See la so excited about blogging about today I forgot to mention yesterday. Friday's timetable was good (: Had to stay back until 4 for dance though sigh, spent it in the library leaning on Charis and whining about my womanly pains, walked to the canteen with Grace and was happy like a teletubby :D :D :D HEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Dance was surprisingly good, College Day performance is shaping up, and I joined the SYF people for stretching. Very sad, like VERY VERY VERY sad that I quit SYF. I cannot believe I was missing dance so much whenever I heard SYF music I was like "AHHH OMG". Sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh. Ok must get over it. And I was very happy and AA yesterday during dance cuz I wore my GREEEEEN 16th Delta shirt, plus pink fbts and black tights heh heh heh. I should really learn to be more low profile hahaha. Ohwellz. OK BYE.