Operation Touchy Feely

OMG FINALLY DONE WITH DRAFT 4 OF MY PI!!!!
I changed the idea completely and it really doesn't seem as detailed as the previous drafts but... I hope it's ok. It certainly is innovative!!!
Wah damn tired now, HC results are out tomorrow, at the unearthly hour of 650am DAMN!
OCIP meeting today instead of dance, I'm really quite excited to start fundraising but OMG I can only imagine the stress we will go through. Siggghhhhhhhh. Grace said I like to "shoot stars up (my) ass"!!!!! Now Limeng and Edwin agree with her.

I wanted to webcam with Grace again cuz I waiting for her to sing to me HAHA HER TURN but then she's doing Econs rah! and I REALLY SHOULD BE SLEEPING. See la ok she going off alr, haha. Today was a somewhat good day I guess. KI presentation went quite well, spent the free period bitching like nobody's business, Jo decided she's going to be demure from this day on HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, :D Decided to imitate someone for the rest of the day like OMG HOW ANNOYING?!?! Grace does it best though, good job Grace you're the best at being annoying :D Xiaowei joined in the fun with accents haha. :D

AHHH the weather was daaaamnnnn motherf- hot today like really really really. I felt like I was going to MELT in my bloody thick BLACK horrible material TA shirt seriously. FUCK YOU GLOBAL WARMING!!!!! Went to the HC room to cool down but I kept getting chased out cuz they were discussing nomination stuff, sigh )))))))))))): It's so sad to be left out like that ok!!! Trudy found out my Chinese name today and thought it was damn nice so she kept calling me by it, HOR JIALING? :D OMG AND LIT? WAS SO FUCKED UP? Improved by 1/2 marks, not half mark but 1slash2 marks from my 7/25 the last time. I now have 8/9 upon 25. Wowwwwwww. So proud of myself really. This does NOTHING to help my interest in Lit, what happened to taking H3 Mag!!!!!! I still really want to be eligible for H3 Lit, even if I decide not to go for it at the end of the year. The idea of another IS is not appealing...

OK LA buay tahan alr, I hope Calvin transferred the pictures for me, I hope tomorrow will be a good day but I doubt it because everyday spent in school with lessons is not a good day. OK backaches and I feel like eating good food. Mummy thinks I'm falling sick cuz everything she cooked today tasted weird to me while the leftover chocolate cake from Uncle's birthday yesterday had a daaaaaaamn strong cream smell and I couldn't stand it. Talking about Uncle's birthday, we went out for Italian food at Porto Porto and it was so bloooooody good?!?!?! Of course, I have to add that the dishes that were most wonderful were the ones I chose la haha but they were really DAMN GOOD. And damn expensive for the portions we got. BUT THEN AGAIN, worth it because it was a nice atmosphere, good food, and lovely lovely eyecandy for dessert HAHAHAH OMG SHIT I'M DAMN DISGUSTING?!?!?!?

But woweeeee damn sexy! :D OK bye.

(L) Grace

Hi Grace I love you so much k I DIDN'T UPLOAD THE PRNT SCRN I TOOK OF YOUR PASSPORT PHOTO!!! HAHAHAHAH.

Singing to her over voice recordings, monster faces, laughing until kena stitch OMG DAMN FUN LA HAHAHAHAHA AND IT'S NOW 2AM ALR HAHAHAHAHAHA. OK BYE.

MY FIRE

MEGAHOUSE FUNCTION YTD WAS A BLAST!!!!!!!! Had so much fun dressing up la how I wish I could have joined Best Dressed!!!! ): ): ): ): Voguelicious were daaaamn bloody sexy MY GAWWWWWWWWWWWWDDDDD HAHAHAHAHA. When one of them stood in front of me and gave the come hither look and danced I was like "FUCK!!!" while the guys behind me were going "Oh my god" hahahahahahahaha for totally different reasons. Bands were good, ODOC was good (: David and his friend Jerome came!!! Finally got to see him after like what hahahaha 4,5 months, SINCE SLC HAHA. And he damn bad to me la, I took off my shoes cuz my feet were sore, AND HE TOOK MY SHOES AND RAN OFF. AND HE IS DAMN FAST?!?!?! AND SMALL?!?!?! So I ran after him but I was like sliding all over the hall then some person decided it would be fun to purposely run into my path so I would slam into him!!!!

Got scolded by 16th cuz of the disorganisation of shifts and all but I think we deserved it anyway. Wah I want to scold also!! I got many things to say! HAHAHAHA. Pictures will be up on FB or smth soon, I hope! (:

ANYWAY I AM DAMN FUCKING ANGRY AT SOME KJAKDHASDHIUAHSDLJASDHUIASHDS MAMASAN. MAMASAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wah I press the !!! until damn happy. Now Chenyin thinks I'm mad. BUT REALLY DAMN NOT HAPPY WHAT!!! KNN YOU ANYHOW GO MAKE GOOD FRIENDS WITH ALL THESE PEOPLE I KNOW/LIKE OF COURSE I NOT HAPPY LA!!!! MY FRIENDS, MINE!!!! (Wah I damn bloody possessive) YOU SOCIALITE OF THE YEAR LEH REALLY, #1. Raaaah!!!!!!! RAAAAH!!!!! Grace ah Chenyin ah Calvin ah I WANT TO KILL SOMEBODY!!!!!!!

Angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry and boys will never understand.

When the fire fades away

I suddenly think I look ugly in this picture.

(Decided to change my previous line because saying I look ugly in all pictures is damn bloody attention seeking like I yearn for flattery and compliments so I can get through today and face myself. And I don't. )

Haha because I am so retarded, it is almost 1am on Monday morning and I have yet to start studying Econs, while the Econs lecture test is in about haha 9 hours.
Good Job Magdalene Ong.
Everytime I sit myself down to actually doing work, and this usually happens only at about 11pm the night before the work is due, I realise my work is actually manageable and I would be so much better off had I started earlier. Sigh. Putting all that effort into finding new interesting food blogs that you can subscribe to is not how I should be spending my time!!!! If only I had that much of an interest in PW, Econs, Maths, History, whatever.

I think I'm becoming increasingly self absorbed lately, I don't know why. 2 out of 5 of my Strengths changed, and I'm not exactly happy with the updated 2. ):
Feeling verrrrry hypocritical and bitchy lately as well, and I keep telling myself that at least you're being true to yourself but if being yourself means that you're a bitch then Mag, you better change.

Reconsidering my campaigning for 17th HC, it's going to be so different. I want to spend more time in the HC room because then I spend more time with 16th HC and it's always always fun. Playing Cookie Monster with Trudy, Victor making fun of Mat, sleeping on the 5 sofas we have, Talking, enjoying the air con, bitching etcetc. ): Not really welcoming the thought of more change again this year but I guess that's life.

OK SHALL GO OFF NOW AND TRY TO GET PRICE DETERMINATION + ELASTICITY INTO MY HEAD. I only hope I'm not missing any notes because I'm just reading all I have at hand right now.

And I should reallllly get started on my article for AYG. Mag, do you really want it? Do you? UGHH YOU BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Troooood-y: "When I read your blog, I can hear your voice"
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D HAHA.

Gives You Hell

Ignoring the whole of the past week where I had damn productive days (Lit essay, Dance, Dinner, Swim, History Essay), where I had 1000000 assignments due, sigh. FAST FORWARD TO FRIDAY!

Went over to Calvin's, was the earliest out of the latest hahhahahhha. (: Played Guitar Hero, found out I uh hahahah cannot do it. Then Jo and Xiaowei came with the decorations and stuff!! Blew up balloons, drew on balloons, hung up our banners and stuff haha omg damn funny ok all the balloons!!! Pictures up on Calvin's blog and on FACE - BOOK. Ryan came with Louise and we managed to surprise her!!! Blow candles, cut cake, eat spaghetti, Guitar Hero, Taboo, Charades was damn funny. Videos in Chenyin's camera omg damnnnn bloody hilarious. Chenyin's acting is the best ok, OYSTER HAHAHAHA. Steamboat dinner courtesy of Calvin's mum, yumyumyum. Bitching sessions throughout and after dinner hehhehehehehehehehHHHHH! Mummy insisted that 930 was too early and she was going to fetch me at 9, she came at 10 haha. Fun times fun times (:

Yesterday, reached school late, met Grace/Clara and went for our OCIP Orientation. I'm actually getting excited for Yunnan trip yay!!!!!! (: Very very scared of cold though, Omg I cannot wear shorts...... Games, goal setting. It was all quite fun haha. (: Got back second draft of my PI. Didn't do too badly! Home, fell asleep. Woke up and started on HC proposal, finished GPP. :D :D :D Slept at 5am reading old Chat Logs ha good job Mag.

Mummy brought back Macdonalds breakfast for us today (: Slacked the whole daaaaaaay when I realllly reallly should be doing my History rubbish. Buttttt. :D OK SHALL WAIT FOR CAMPUS SUPERSTAR TO START, THEN S FACTOR LATER WOOHOO :D!!!! Plussssss, soccer match tomorrow (: Have to write an article on it for AYG, realllllly hope I get in!!!

Oh, and retrieved my old Strengthsquest account so I wouldn't have to spend another half hour doing it haha. Sigh, 30 minutes I will never get back. Anyway, my 5 strengths are

Communicator, Activator, Woo, Empathy, Positivity

Out of those 5, me and Jo share 4. HAHAHA. The only difference being I have positivity and she has adaptability. Now we're waiting for Charis 5 strengths so we can all compare heh heh! :D

Sick Cycle.

Proper blog post about feelings when I'm up to it because.
Life is too tiring.
In a school that likes to cheat us of what we deserve, screws us over.


I Love Delta Dragons!

We'll make it

Wasted the whole of today, though I DID manage to finish reading the first part of WSS. Just decided on my PW topic like hahahahahahaha. Wtf. I didn't even write anything for PI ok I have 2 days before my first draft is due and I have done nothing except for deciding on my topic. All that's on my mind now is cheer cheer cheer and after hearing what Syakirah said, I'm not so sure that I'm a good leader anymore. Or at least not a bad one. Ugh.

Tired tired tired, Meredith just baked a cake for her dance teacher, it is like 1.34 am now I really should be sleeping lest I end up falling asleep during lessons tomorrow. Need to pack my bag as well, but I don't know where everything is. Sigh. Everything is such a mess, I'm crossing my fingers that cheer prac goes well and productive tomorrow even though I'm short of 2 cheerleaders. Last 4 days!!!!! Goooo Delta Dragons we can do this!

We are an army, put our hands up tonight.

Louise says she doesn't like ---------------------------- (group of people la)
And we miss the last 2 years, I want back our small cohort can can?
If I ask damn nicely can?
If I break down and cry can?
If I demand for it can?

Ughz, need to rid mind of little people little things little irritations little springs (I dunno it just rhymed). I need, cheerleading spirit, team work, last 5 day sprint towards our final goal, our comfortable clique of 5, awesome TA cohort of just 100, the way we are all friends, no competition and stress and backstabbing and bitchiness and politics, no hypocrisy, passion, people to feel the same way I do, people who can read my mind, people who love me more than I know, people to take things seriously.

I don't need pessimism, diminishing morale, the way you joke about everything, the way you think it's all alright when it's not, things being taken for granted, my patience being taken for granted, overly touchy acts. Because I smile/laugh it off, I might not be okay about you, I might not be okay about things. When I shout, or when I glare, I am serious and it's not supposed to be a joke. I want you out of my life, I want you to stop forcing yourself INTO my life, I want you to stop trying to change MY life. I want to get out of this black hole that's sucking me in, I want to be able to choose what I want to do with my own free time.

I'm sorry this post is such a mess and as I write it out I want to cry and wtf la I'm not supposed to be like that. I told Louise I'm a generally happy and problem free person why am I like this now. Go back to old times please please please. What did I get myself into. Why, why, why.













Lots of blank space to clear my mind.
Cheerleading practice today was quite productive, need passion for it please. Final stretch before we prove ourselves as a squad. It's becoming hard to not show my tiredness on my face, and it's not supposed to be like that. Louise, Ryan, and Jason bus-ed with me and walked me home (: Brought home the pom poms, must practise must practise. Now have an aching body, but managed couple stunts today and I'm very happy about it. Compromise compromise, and I'm supremely happy when we manage new stunts. And when Ryan shoulder sits me and says "Eh Mag you really lost weight ah" "I feel like I can carry you!" "I don't feel anything!" And when he runs to buy me a bubble tea while we walk to the interchange.

Thank you intense Cheerleading pracs, at least my body and not only my mind is getting a workout.

I'm also sorry this post has no chronological order whatsoever. Neither does it make much sense but as my mind runs through things at lightspeed and I don't know anymore.

Thank you Chenyin for listening to me bitch and bitch and bitch neverendingly.
Thank you Louise for bitching WITH me ha.
Thank you Limeng for telling me to be strong.

WEBCAM MADNESS

Recently unearthed my webcam from I dunno where, cuz Meredith got her Vaio which already has a webcam thus she passed it to me. Been webcam-ing with random people haha it's quite fun!

First up, David! Sorry we couldn't go to your match k ):

He got no cheekfats.

HAHA SPECS.


Adeline, video called with her last night until late late and she was telling me lame/sick jokes. !!!! Tsk tsk, and she kept making funny faces into the camera, natural born beauty k.

Freak.
Mutant rabbit!!!
Normal rabbit. Somewhat.
Short hair! + Centre parting omg damn sexy.
She even comes in the Chun Li version!
Or spastic, nerd, whichever floats your boat.
Or you could have her Jap big eyes style.
Hairy,
Or cute!

Remember guys, Adeline is single, sexy, free, and making her own money. Limited time offer only, while stocks last!

Turn up the music

Webcam-ing with Daniel while he constantly whines/complains "I'm boreeeeeeeed".
He's coming back from Melbourne!! :D :D
OK BOOK YOU ONE DAY AH HAHA.
Hope you get NUS then you will forever be in SG! :DDDDD
OK LA I dunno what to say alr, mizz you Danzzzz I don't just miss your Mini k!
Though it's a very big part of it hohoho.
:D