finally sleeping now, at 4.39am.

after copying out my essay, which although has reached 5 pages, is still not finished because i don't know how to talk about reagan already.

eyes.

are.

closing.

i feel like eating fried chicken noodle from school.

ate waffle crisps just now but without milk because the only milk we have is HL milk and i'm very fussy about my milk

because i don't like milk usually and HL milk is smelly lor i only drink australian milk like Farmhouse or Masters.

hahahahahaha arroganceeeeeeeeeeeeee

3/4 page more mag!

do you realise my progress is damn fucking slow?

every 15 minutes i find something new to do.

FUCKING HUNGRY LA!!!!!!!!!!

BUAY TAHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one more full page mag. one more. !!!!

i'm very very very very hungry.

an hour and a half to macs breakfast.

i should just stay up the whole night -.-

i can't believe i'm doing this for HISTORY.

hungry.

gorbachev............

reagan.......

oh fuck.

fuck fuck fuck cannot get distracted by Shane dawson now!!!

Almost typed Mr Rochester instead of Gorbachev when writing my essay.

My head really wants to shut down now and my eyes are screaming "shut me!!!!"

I want to pay someone to do my essay for me.

Ha. Ha. Ha.

Gorbachev factors

harharharharharharhahar

major bitching session with gracie this morning, it was awesumzzz!!!!

my dislike/hate/disgust at you is....................... improper to say the least. i shouldn't feel this way but it isn't stopping you from annoying me any further!!!

i don't know what's happening to my proper capital letters hmmz.

5page history essay due in exactly 12 hours and....................

i haven't started.

hen hao mag.

but vibzy was the nicest person everrrr and we spent an hour on the phone with him helping me develop my still undone essay (((((((:

love u vibzzz!!! :D

today mr hsu told me that i have nice taste in shoes. haha i think i live for his nice comments omg if not every ki lesson would just be like -.- to me. today was good though, cuz after the long ct, which wasn't so bad, we had the rest of the period which was about half an hour to do whatever we wanted! yesssssssssss.

i should really really really get started on my history essay now, or mr seng might send me for counselling cuz i cannot learn.

hurhurhurhurhurhur.

(i think i go through various moods which affects the way i type/speak/express myself)

Omg The Proposal!!!

Ahhh I really really wanna watch The Proposal! Especially after seeing the trailer in the cinemaaaaaaa. The trailer was damn bloody funny la haha the whole cinema also laughing! First, I think Ryan Reynolds is really like cute HAHAHAHA (what's new right Mag) and that equals BIG PLUS TO GO WATCH THE MOVIE ALREADY!!! And Sandra Bullock is very pretty and funny. Like in Miss Congeniality, and and and in Lake House which was sweet but somewhat boring. This should be sweet and un-boring! (:

Wah, Sandra Bullock hasn't acted in a movie for quite long. Hm. The Proposal opens in cinemas 20 August 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUST WATCH IT SOOOOOOON. Especially since school is like WTF now, need some entertainment pleaseeee )))):

For Trooooodz!!!

Because she complain she don't have picture of her!!!

HAHAHAHA.

Love you Trudy I v honoured I'm the first person you webcam with! (:

AND SORRY LA BERNARD THE PICTURE VERY FUNNY HAHA. Trudy say you look like Ernie HAHA TRUDY I SABO YOU SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mindfucked (And it repeats.)

Hello Liwen I miss webcamming with you ): Must Skype again and talk until 5am about.... Shitty things that happen in our lives but it's okay because in the end we will do something retarded like v:Dv and sing HSM OR CHINESE SONGS TO YOU HAHAHAHAH.

On another note, because my life seems severely and overly disgustingly horrible these days,

I don’t know why everything you do irks me, disgusts me.

The more I know you, the more I interact with you, the more I feel like I have to try and tolerate your behaviour which annoys me. The way you talk as if you’re better than others, the way you give that judgemental look. It’s fucking annoying and I really shouldn’t be letting you affect me like this because honestly, you’re so not fucking worth it.

With all my heart and soul, I really believe that you’re not a good person, much less someone who feels she is better than me. I feel like a hypocrite, because my words and my actions don't match up but I can't do anything about it. Fuck this.

Feeling vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv upset in school lately, can't wait to get home everyday and just sleep/rot in front of the tv watching Boys Over Flowers because again, dramatic love is better than no love -.- It's taking alot to... I don't know. Be myself lately. I feel like being alone or with someone who will at least TRY to understand why I'm feeling like this? I'm not disregarding my friends I'm just, not the most happy right now )))):

Went out with Meredith on Monday, that was a good day. Haha. Because the NUM boy was very nice to me (I'm so shallow and disgusting omg), resulting in me buying the Switzerland party tank which he said I looked nice in while Meredith said looked like Macdonalds but she later took that comment back haha. UGGGGGH SWEDEEEEENN ))))))))))))): Our Yakpak can be exchanged for a new one cuz it's in irreparable condition and it has lifetime warranty! BUTTTT there are no new nice ones now sigh.

Yesterday was suck-ish. Except for the fact that I managed to pass my KI thousand word essay with 4 footnotes in total and no references page haha. And Mr Hsu came up to me to comment on my essay again saying that I know what to write I just don't have the content. Gives me hope that I might be able to do well for the subject and not be a complete failure at it, like History.

Today Mr Seng was telling everyone like why he grouped them up in a certain way for the debate, like "_____ I put you here because I need you to learn how to substantiate, to form an argument" etcetc. He looked at me and said "Mag, I just need you to learn." Thaaaaaaanks. History lecture test after that was a failure as well, was very tempted to not hand it up but I did anyway. I don't want to go to school tomorrow ): In class assignments for both Lit and KI, and History full length essay due on Friday. Haaaaaaaaaaa. The temptation to skip school is like.

this much.

Fuck this, I'm going to watch more BOF. I can't even express myself properly in words and that completely sucks.

Thank you Troooody and Bernard for the earrings!!! (((: Cupcake! :D HAHA LOOK AT BERNARD. Trudy refuses to webcam with me >:[

Click here for Pri 1 Daisy picture of me!!! Love primary schoooool!!!

(Thank you Nic Lau for the timely replies today, andddd Rachel for our bus ride home. )