Whip It!

Yesterday was a FUCKING BAD day. Not going to talk about it because if I do then I'll just cry again like some loser but it's also because I freaking PMS haha cry so easy walau. Anyway after spending like 9 hours in school because of dance yay life rocks, went home and showered then out to Simpang for dinner with Calvin and Jeremy! Dinner was very good and fun, after that we went to Foo House for dessert. Calvin's dad very nice he sent me home even though Changi is out of the way and Calvin repeated to him "Did you hear me correctly?? Can you send Mag home?! Mag leh she don't stay in Simpang anymore"and "You don't need to send her home you know, you can drop her off in some longkang". Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Talking to Vi on the phone last night was good, love you GF :D

Then went out with SarahBarah today!!!!! It's been 10000000 years since we last saw each other omg. Went to watch Whip It! Which was very good. Met CHENYIN on the way haha. Walked around trying on nail polish that wasn't supposed to be tried on, nail polish that was, saw cute stuff, tried on humongous headphones, and took fisheye pictures which she anyhow take one so she could use up my film WALAU haha. Anyway it was good to go out with Sarah, alot to talk about before she leaves on Sunday ))))))))))))):

Back home nowww and I can't believe there's school tomorrow the weekend flew by freaking fast!! 3 more weeks to the concert and I can't wait for it to be OVER omg. Enough of dance PLEASE. Calvin's in Taiwan now lucky boy ok I should really go shower now. Byebye!!!!

Comfort zone

I know I haven't blogged in 100000 years hahaha to the point that Jo asked me if I was "hardcore mugging for MCTs cuz you haven't updated" and Zengan has removed me from his RSS feed which is depressing hahahahahaha. Anyway today marks the end of MCTs! I don't really care about how they turn out cuz I crash studied in like 5 days + nights before the papers so ok whatever haha. Just afraid of what will happen during Parent-Teacher conference ohwellll..

Got my new phone yay! It's v fun to type on a qwerty keyboard (: Oh and I just have to gloat... THAT MUMMY BOUGHT A SPANKING NEW ORANGE KITCHENAID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Happinessx100000 because it's also something I've wanted since forever! I put my name as Cupcake Goddess in Uncle's Blackberry ok I'm on my way to achieving my goal of being a CEO of a Cupcake Empire hahahahaha.

So even though today was kinda retarded because I had H2 History paper this morning then Lit makeup after that and then dance from like 1230-830, not nonstop but tiring enough. My ankles are aching again I'm like an old woman with water retention la. But I'm happy now even though I have dance again tmrw and there's vetting, because 1) I can watch Chuck guiltfree, 2) My hair looks kind of good in the mirror I'm sitting across, 3) Eileen today could not stop telling me my watch is very cute and that she thinks that its price is OKAY, 4) I have a choice to not join Crazy Bitch's dance, 5) I HAVE A KITCHENAID!!!!! HhahahahahHhahhahahHAHH. So wonderful omg. Though it's crazy heavy so lugging it out of the storeroom every time I wanna use it is abit zzzzzzzzzzzz and leaving it out in the kitchen is not feasible cuz then it'll get all oily and disgusting. Walau hate our kitchen la HATE IT. You all always laugh at me cuz I forever burning my oven (that day I created sparks in the microwave oven cuz I put in tinfoil and set it on microwave mode instead of oven mode hahaha I creating lightning I am the Lightning Thief) but wah seriously I wanna burn it down so can renovate and make it a nicer one.

OK my eyes are reallllllly tired now shall go sleep. Or I could just stay up a while more waiting for my Chuck episodes to finish converting so I can put them in my ipod aiyooooooooooo. Dinner with Jeremy, Calvin, Nat at Simpang tmrw just like old times haha should be fun?? OK byeeeeeeeeeee Mummy wants me to sleep hahaha because she's very upset that she has to wake up early to send me to school tomorrow.

Sincerely Missing You

OK so I managed to get through the week relatively unscathed. Other than Tuesday being a verrrry terribly long day but dance that evening was slack so I survived.

My PIONEER WOMAN COOKBOOK came!!!!! This is verrrry exciting news because I didn't buy it when I was in the US and Uncle helped me order it online and it came on like uhh Wednesday?? Super exciting!!!!!! :D I also brought my green tea cookies on Wednesday and they were gone fast so like that's good (Y) Also went to buy stuff from Popular after dance hahahah me and Meredith bought a label maker, new markers, and new Super Sticky postits! :D Happy ^^

Got an A for swimming PE on Thurs which is totally awesome cuz when can I ever expect to get an A for something related to PHYSICAL EXERCISE??? :D Awesome. And I've been swimming 20 laps every night if I didn't have dance that day somewhat regularly so double yay for me!! Ice Cream Function on Thurs was not bad, success! Haha. Waited for Calvin to finish his Javelin, which he came in 4th (!!!!!) then Mummy sent him home. Friday was not a bad day because most of the teachers were on course and Fridays are already short days for us! Lunch with Chenyin and Calvin and Chenyin was being her usual retarded self haha. Went back to the dance booth (btw if you haven't got your REVERIE V tickets yet please go buy them after MCTs!! *cough*HAOPU*cough*), and like attempted to read Econs haha but I barely accomplished anything. The dance booth was so crowded with random non-dance people hahahah Calvin, Pearly, Chenyin, Nicolette, Justin. Left to go see dance concert emcee auditions which were all pretty good!!!! Then Zaki came early, and it was a very productive practice! I thought I was doing okay until he said that I didn't hit my steps in time sometimes ): BUT he remembers my name!! HAHAHAHA.

Yesterday, went to NUS Open House with Lynn, Rachel, Nicolette, Iynyi! Met alot of people there hahaha we damn kiasu seriously go a year early. But it's good to know what you're getting yourself into I guess? Even if the talks were extremely boring and my attention span already leaves much to be desired resulting in me and Lynn leaving like 3 talks halfway haha. Took a train down to Suntec to meet Mummy for the IT Fair. It was crazy packed la. Decided on the phone I want but didn't get it yet because it's like a 4-5 hour wait which is retarded. Went to eat at the Guild House where I had to wear some sarong thing because they wouldn't let me into the restaurant cuz I was wearing shorts!!! Pfft.

Went to Swatch and I got my Swatch watch which I wanted since I first saw it in Urban. Yayyyyy. Uncle also got a watch for himself so they gave us a whole set of watch guards which are super old school omg I can't wait to wear my watch to school ^^ And they gave us a Swatch notebook which is very nice and colourful! Hehe from the above picture, Chenyin has the left one, I got the middle and Vi has the right one!!! I likeeeeee. Oh and I found the dark brown nail polish I want at Face Shop!!! 7.90 compared to the 32 bucks I would have to pay for Chanel Imperial ok. SOOO I really wanna get it!!! But because I bought my watch already I refrained.

Was completely unproductive today because I have no motivation even though it is very true that everyone wants me to study and who believe I can do well. Mummy, Daddy, Uncle, Calvin, Vibz, the many people who have been warning me to start studying NOW, even Nicolette who has been telling me everytime I get distracted in class (which is all the time) "Mag can you do your work?" "DO YOUR WORK MAG". Sigh. Need to do something about this. Mummy has been verrrry agreeable these few days like sewing an ipod case for me, buying random things like sweet potatoes for me, and I know that all she wants from me is to START STUDYING. Ugh. OK Mag you can do this. History lecture tomorrow wtf. OK goodnight!

We will never ever be apart

Today sucked. Stayed up till 2am doing History essay which ended up being the wrong question but whatever I'm going to pass it up anyway. I wrote down the correct homework I just didn't check my book before I started doing it. Ugh hate my life seriously I forever do wrong homework esp when I start on it last minute. School was very pointless except Lit. Got back Lit essays which I thought I had confidence in but obviously not because for the first time in my whole life I misread the fucking passage, and in my most important year too. Yay. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Went for dance after Lit only to find out dance was already over because like today was declared half day so dance started right after school ended but Lit was make up lesson aiyahhhhhhhh. At least Zaki considered me important enough to block me in even when I wasn't there. Learnt Ms Wee's steps that I missed last week and I don't think I really remembered them. Went to the library after that with Jamie and hardly did anything, then Calvin came to find me and we took bus together. Went to wait for Mummy at Simei and bought envelopes to reply Vibz' letter. Which is both happy and sad at the same time. Happy because sending/receiving letters is so fun haha, sad because it means that someone I miss terribly is very very far away.

I just got very demoralised and sian of everything after getting back the Lit essay. Already on the edge last night and I was just very like zzzzzzzz ughhhh bad mood after today. Mummy let me buy vanilla beans, green tea powder, a new spatula, and a rose petal tip from Phoon Huat today though. Probably because my face was so fucking depressed and half dead and I kept whining. Came home and started whining more at everything and scolding myself "EAT LA MAG KEEP EATING" while I was stuffing my face with watermelon haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I'm going mad I think I really need Quiet Time like Chenyin said. Mummy laughed at me and made me tomato cream seafood pasta while I looked over her shoulder and complained about everything "the pasta very hard" "Why you never put in onions I like onions!!!" "You forgot to buy olive oil againnnnnn" yah I damn bloody irritating and brat-ish today omg. Mummy just humoured me and responded with "Yes Mam" "Sorry Mam" HahahahHHAHAHAhhahaha.

Was damn excited to break out my green tea powder and desperately wanted to bake something so I would stop feeling so depressed. I adapted my usual sugar cookie recipe and included some green tea powder in place of the flour then went to swim 20 laps furiously. Swam the first 6 laps with a vengeance then relaxed and rested after the 10th lap. Meredith came down to accompany me and I was complaining to her about my day then I was frustrated and kicked off the wall to start on my next 10 laps but I kicked too hard and my feet were at the top of the pebbleset wall so my toenails scratched against it and it fucking hurt and my toenails are all scratched and ugly and the second toe on my right foot is like bleeding inside now I can see red lines. Finished 20 laps in total, the last 2 laps I swam as fast as possible because PAIN LETS YOU KNOW YOU'RE ALIVE.

Back home and I baked a test batch of the cookies. I think I put too much green tea powder because I wanted a very green colour hahahaha but anyway Mummy likes it and I can always cover up the slight bitter/dry-ness with royal icing which I plan to do. The cookies were actually meant for tomorrow's marathon school day but I can't finish them already sooooo Wednesday it is! Can't wait for this week to be over but that means I'll be a week closer to the stupid MCTs which I'm supposed to do well in but judging by the state of things now I won't. OK I shall go listen to music and fall asleep/reflect/whatever. My toe is throbbing la fuck.

Friday was the release of A Level results, I'm not even receiving anything and I was already stressed for them. Saw Vibz's name on the screen cuz he got 3 distinctions and I was so excited and happy because he met our mutual aim of getting our names on the board!!! It's now your turn Mag............... Met Faye yay love. OCIP Balai trip yesterday was..... Indescribable and not in a very good way either. I shall refrain from saying much because there's no point harping on it since it's already over. Had a good long Serious Talk with Meng while on the train home. I know that alot of the things he said to me are very sensible like "Mag, some people are just more blessed than others, don't give up on yourself la." But I can't seem to stop myself from wanting to take the easy way out. It's already March leh, time flew past like *snap*. And I haven't found any momentum or anything to want to study. Even now, I have a History essay due tomorrow and I haven't started on it. Every time I think about what awaits me in 8 months I just want to give up on everything seriously, because I can barely get History, Lit is still like a very aimless cause cuz I never seem to improve, Econs is a maze, I'm not reading enough for GP, I hardly practise Math. I mean, it's not like I'm not taking the most important exams of my life at the end of the year, no.

OK signing out now.

"The Summer Is Over And We Are Not Yet Saved"

OCIP meeting yesterday was awesome because OCIP = talking to Gracie/Yiguan/Meng hahahaha. We were damn high and totally not being productive other than stamping our handprints on the board thing and rubbing paint all over our palms. Btw me and Meng are USHERS FOR EMERGENCY SERVICES for our trip on Saturday which means we are very important people because if anyone gets hurt IT'S UP TO US to save them hahHAHAHhhahaha. Which is unlikely anyway, that anyone will get hurt, considering we spend AN HOUR in the village so the only opportunity for people to get injured would be if they fell off the ferry into the water or something.

Anyway, bought Yiguan and Gracie both ice cream cuz I felt like eating it and Yiguan kept saying "Mag treat me leh treat me". Then they complained about how I don't update my blog and that my posts don't mention them and they said "BLOG ABOUT HOW CUTE WE LOOK WHEN WE EAT ICE CREAM" then they proceeded to try and look *cute* while eating ice cream. Good job guys, you looked cute while eating ice cream. HahahahHAHAHAHhahaha.

I made Cream of mushroom soup and Mango curd on Saturday, Tomato soup on Sunday, baked White Cake cupcakes which were supposed to be filled with the mango curd I made the previous day but didn't in the end cuz the cupcakes were excruciatingly sweet and moist meaning if I filled them with the mango curd, they would probably fall apart and turn soggy sigh. Used this recipe if anyone wants to know haha. A note though that the recipe made like 20 cupcakes and my usual recipe makes only like 13 at most? Wow. OK my cream of mushroom soup was awesome, Mummy likes it alot and I made it for her again today when I came home from dance. The immersion blender is the best thing ever!!! :D Still haven't used up the other half of my pumpkin aiyooooo.

I'm so unproductive I have done nothing today since I got home relatively early from dance. I feel like sleeping now omg it's already 12.10 I totally wasted the whole night hahahah ok bye shall sleep nowwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Hope is the dream of the waking man

Hello blogosphere haaaaaaaa. School as been zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. I just got a snail mail letter from Vibzy which makes me excited/sad x1000000000000000 I grinned from ear to ear when Meredith came home saying "YOU GOT A LETTER FROM VIBHU!!!!!!!!" And I read it and I just like, cried haha. Hello Vibz I miss you very very verrrrrrry much and your words make me seem like, I can do more than what I'm doing now, which is not studying and wanting to give up on everything ):

Yeah it's only February and I've been repeating to Mummy that I don't want to study. Maybe it's just so she won't get her hopes up about my results and prospective future, or the thought of how difficult it's going to be 6 months from now. I'm barely surviving in History, can't remember my basic Econs from last year, can't be bothered to practise my Maths, and Lit's the one thing I really really wanna do well in but can't seem to. Every day I come home late from Dance practices or something, which usually turn out to be a waste of time even though the concert's in less than 2 months wow, and all I want to do is SLEEP. It's getting vvvvvvveeeeeerrrrrrrryyyyyy tiring I don't know why. I need some motivation. Yesterday's talk by NUS people got me thinking like you say you want to study Law, but why? And are you even good enough for it, Mag. There are 10000000000000000 other people out there who are willing to study harder, fight harder for it than you. Ugh.

You can't go on like this Mag. Come on come on come on come on.

I shall write inspirational quotes to myself NOW. Since I have to do them for OCIP -.-

Which btw is a complete waste of time because we're preparing for a ONE DAY trip to Balai in which we only spend about 2 hours in the actual village. Wow. I can totally see the meaning in that.

I JUST MADE PUMPKIN SOUP AND IT IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

Omg. Thanks to Mummy for peeling and cutting the pumpkin for me hehehe!! The pumpkin damn pretty la it's like totally orange! And we have a Braun immersion blender which is damn fun to use to blend up the soup hehehe omg so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I still have like half the pumpkin left which I will use to make soup again but trying a different recipe! I am vvvvvvv happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

Dance has been very very tiring. Angeline and Vivian are wonderful because we go through it together ughhhhhhhhhhhhh damn Z and his PMS. ): Angeline said to me halfway through dance while I was coughing and saying I wanted to die and getting picked on because I was standing right in the middle "FIGHTING!" Haha. So cute. Made Low Fat Jam Filled Muffins and brought them over when I went to bai nian at Calvin's house yesterday! Hehe then we went over to Justina's house for DELTA GENERATION GATHERING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (: It was vvvvvvv good to see everyone again (: Played Taboo which was damn freaking funny I know Ryan took videos so I hope he uploads them haha.

"Something that little kids like to do.."
"SEX"

Hahaha best. (Y) Went to Suntec Guild House for lunch just now and had green tea and black sesame ice cream after yummmmmmmmmm. Bought my JAPANESE PUMPKIN haha at Carrefour. And more fbts cuz Ling likes to "borrow" me and Meredith's and then NOT return them. >:[ OK watching Big Bang Theory now even though I got Lit stuffzzzzz to do ohwellz OK BYE.

JUST FINISHED MY FUCKING SBQ WHICH IS SO FULL OF SHIT SERIOUSLY I wrote and didn't really understand what I was writing, it's so shallow and I totally didn't analyse the last source cuz I can't understand it + it's 2.10am good job Mag harhar. I didn't do Econs ): I am such a disappointment to Miss Wong really. But I think it's ridiculous to give homework over CNY!!!!!!!!!!! RIDICULOUS. I am going to sleep now. Goodnight!

I WILL NOT SLEEP UNTIL I DO THE FUCKING CONGO CASE STUDY SBQ.

Even if I have not started and I have to be in school in 7 hours. IT'S OKAY MAG.

And tomorrow's Ash Wednesday-

I'm giving up fried food and Calvin's going to stop biting his nails.

40 DAYS OF LENT OK.

Watched Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief early this morning 1040am with Calvin, I like! Watching it from the third row wah siao eyes damn tired haha but I still liked it I like Jake Abel ^^ Hahaha and Logan Lerman :D Went for lunch at Pastamania then he came over to give my mother oranges haha. Spent very long trying to get the Glee soundtrack into his ipod then he left! Rotted the rest of my day away WHAT IS NEW. Had a damn good dinner of roast chicken, grilled prawns, mash, carrots and beans. Omg shioooooookkkkkkk. Watched My Best Friend's Girl which was surprisingly sexual haha wtf la. Ohwell.

CNY has been ok?? Finally wore my red lipstick out OMG so exciting. Smudged it like on everything I was eating but it's ok! Hehe. I've been coughing but it's getting better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't want school to start. Luckily it's a 3 day week omg. Saturday will be eventful! Yay. OK I am really starting to feel sleepy now I should do my stupid work. Whoever decided to put House Dialogue on a Wednesday morning should be shot btw, who the hell will turn up la. So bloody early. OK maybe gullible j1s. FUCK LAAAAAAAAAAA DO WORK MAG.